I FELL OFF
Yes you read that right.. I fell off my track of self love, and true care for myself. Why though?? I just got the job I had been manifesting for since January and now all of the sudden it is like my life took 10 steps backward....... Overwhelm? I had been off work for 4 1/2 months, so that jump back in could have been a shock to my body and cause me to have gone back into my old ways. My boyfriend was also battling pneumonia, and I tend to feed off of his energy even when we are apart, so I could have been feeling sorry for him and therefore feeling guilty and not looking after myself the way I should have been.. Both of these reasons are what come to my mind, both of these reasons are mine and mine alone to deal with. When it comes to looking after myself, mentally, physically, and spiritually, I tend to have off days / off weeks unfortunately. It differs from time to time but it usually happens at least once a month, usually days before my period or the week after. WHY? I have not regimented this life I want to life for myself as MINE or even real. WHY??? Well I it is because it all seems too good to be true.. even though I know and believe it is the best thing for me. I know how to and that I should eat healthy and balanced. I know and want to practice yoga and meditation at least once a day, same goes for being mindful. When I do all of these things which are not by any means difficult, I know and believe that I look better, feel better, live life more fully, and over all have a better and greater sense of well being. Although I am still human and want to eat chocolate cake everyday for breakfast I know that is not realistic for me. So I vow to myself to life by the four agreements, and seriously do what I LOVE! I love myself and I want to live to be 100+ which I know is more than possible for me, but in knowing that I know that I must practice what I want to show within myself. PLEASE UNIVERSE ALLOW ME TO HAVE THE WILL POWER TO STICK TO MY TRUTH AND ONLY LIVE IN THE NOW.