The Internet...
used to be a cool and safe place. Maybe not entirely safe. Maybe not safe at all. Itās always been dangerous, addictive, distracting but more so today than ever.
Social media used to be better back in the day. Going back 20 years ago or so, you could actually make good connections and meet interesting cool people in forums and MySpace, even on Tumblr.
Then Facebook happened, followed by Twitter, then Instagram, Snapchat, etc. Everyone joined in. It seems like people cannot live without it now. Even our parents and grandparents have and cannot live without Facebook.Ā
I deleted my Facebook around spring/summer of 2020. Perhaps I found the arguments a bit overwhelming. Itās not that I donāt like confrontation, itās just that I find debating with people who are set on their minds extremely discouraging. I found myself disliking people I used to like and feeling more depressed about the state of the world. I realized the internet was not a safe place to hide from people anymore, because everyone was home all the time, everyone was on the internet... all the time.Ā
Iām still on the internet all the time. I check my instagram daily. I go on twitter daily. I donāt always engage. Sometimes I just lurk or share funny memes as stories, but I stay away from debates, not because Iām afraid to stand up for my values, but because I find negativity overwhelming. Iām a vulnerable sponge and absorb feelings/vibes easily. I want to feel okay, so that I can function in my every day life.
Before the internet, I found reading to be my safe place. My hiding place. I am glad that itās a place that it still exists for many.Ā
You may ask if I ever get FOMO? I thought I would before the pandemic, but havenāt since I left. I found that the real genuine friends, still reached out to me, still communicated via instagram, or text. The people that matter and that I matter to, will personally invite me via text if they want me to be there.Ā
Itās also nice to have that privacy and not knowing everything about other people. Yes, people still share their lives on instagram but I find it less overwhelming, I also follow people that I want to follow and not feel forced to engaged with family members, high school classmates that I have nothing in common with except disagreements.Ā
Itās been nice posting here even if itās just a stream of consciousness journal entry.

















