there is only here and now, forever

diary entries from an infp ♉️

[thepeacefulgarden]

[voiceofmysoul]

[purrypaw]

Spin spin

[xi4ngling]

I H3ART YOU! </3

[makiema]

JIJI, LILY AND KIDS

KIKI’S DELIVERY SERVICE (1989) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

[simstim16bit]

Binary

[tfw-adhd]

[what-is-life21]

why would i kill myself

when i already died a long time ago

[what-is-life21]

therapy lol interesting

[sexwithdogclickhere-deactivated]

[what-is-life21]

I know I should be my own first choice but I cannot wait until the day that someone finally makes me their first choice instead of only using me when someone else doesn't want them. 

[what-is-life21]

if I could tell you how I feel and you listen

     If I could tell you how I feel, months later. Months after whatever that was ended.. I would tell you that I am still not healed, though I've came a long way from where I was two months ago. My own personal wounds from the last two years, along with the way you wounded me caused heavy anxiety in my chest that I had never experienced before. I couldn't even bare the thought of being around anyone new without trembling. I still cannot imagine actually believing anyone could possibly feel the same way about me as I do them. I was your second choice. An opportunity that looked like fun. A girl that was only good enough when you fantasized the temporary enjoyment I could bring to you. But you never considered what it would be like after your fun would end. What it would be like for me. How that would make me feel after you were finished with me. I didn't deserve to be your temporary pleasure, when you could tell that I wanted to be more than that. I at least wanted to be your friend and be there for each other. Hang out and just doing casual things, spend time together, eat food, crack jokes, share memes, express our creative thoughts to each other.. I dreamt about having that bond with you countless times. I didn't want it with anyone else. I was so drawn to you and it terrified me because I hadn't felt that way about someone in a really long time. My desire to connect with you was so deep and your looks only enhanced that feeling. Even just being your friend would have been enough for me. But you didn't even want that. You had someone else the entire time that was your main focus. I had thought you felt our connection so many times, I could have sworn you did. Your eyes must have lied. The tone in your voice when we would talk in person must have been nothing but deception. 

[geyashvecova]

Design graphics Geya Shvecova (Timeless nomad) Archive_180820

[thesarahshow]

I Am Changing. Sarah Zucker, 2020.

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[vintage-hoes]

[what-is-life21]

sometimes i wonder if im really supposed to be here

[what-is-life21]

when am i really going to matter to someone