I don't know when the last time was that I've typed something out on tumblr. I didn't see a reason to, everything I wanted to say could be said on smolgrass. But I guess this time it's different. There's a certain calamity in knowing that no one who cares about you will probably ever see this, so this won't be enough to worry them.
It's been awhile.. since I've felt this low. And this time for all different reasons. But you are mainly one of them. Ironically, there's a likelihood of you reading this, because I've blocked you everywhere but here and only now have I realised that this is the only direct connection left.
You just upped and left, and although it's been a long time I've wanted to do that to you just so you'd know how it feels, I could've never brought myself to do it. It's cruel. And it's everything you seem to stand against. You're exactly why I too wanted to stop talking to. You're a massive hypocrite and the fake got too real. I could go on and on about why things didn't work out between us, but there's no point.
You didn't give me the littlest bit of respect I was due. I feel like I deserved it. I can't say I'm surprised though.
You're not a great person. But neither am I. And that's my point, too many of us are all alike, so what makes you think you're that much more special to be able to have such entitlement?
Im not going to deny it. It's been quite a long week of suppressing what might send me spiralling back down. In the same way I'm afraid that when I go to melbs alone, all this would surface. And there'd be no one to stop it.
I'll be okay. If it's not today, then some day.
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