As the world rolls

Marquis. 27. 910. I'm just rolling with the good and bad. #Wheelchairprobelms

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I’m almost 29 now, things are a bit better.

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At the end the day I just have to know that people are only ever going to want me in one capacity. I also have to come to terms with the fact that most people are going to let me down at some point

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I’m over it at this point.

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This is the lowest point I’ve hit in a while

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I gotta stop getting my hopes up.

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I’m in a dark place again.

[isaiah-fuego]

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Days like today really suck, for a lot of reasons.

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Whelp, now I’m high and depressed.

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This is such a weird feeling for me. I just want to feel okay. I need to live in the moment.

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I can’t put up with this stuff for much longer. I shouldn’t be this unhappy with everything. I feel myself falling again.

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Why am I like this...?

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I just want  consistency

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Things are shitty, but they could be worse, so there’s that.

I do think I’m going to stop trying so hard and so much with everyone. People have a lot more free time now and if they don’t want to make an effort then so be it. It does kinda suck just a bit, but it is what it is.

I will say I try to stay distracted, but I really hate being this type of alone. I love the fact that I have people to talk to, but it would be very nice to have someone special to be with. I think I just want to be wanted and I worry so much that I’ll never find that.

I’ll stop ranting now 

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I feel like certain people only ever hit me up when they need or want something from me.