Change induced vertigo as if my body canāt keep up
Shedding parts of myself I no longer need
Best year of my life chasing after the next
While Iām chasing the sun around a garden thatās not mine but sure as fuck feels like it is
I just want to understand what any of this means
Probably a lesson in self control as usual
Nothing is so certain as change
The terror will subside it always does
Champagne and bliss and cherries are always on the other side
Flooded with gratitude for the hoursĀ I've spent knowing and being myself
Gratitude for the lessonsĀ I've learnt through pleasure lately
Gratitude for feeling better
Gratitude for knowing the pain of the last 3 months has led to feeling the blessings again
Gratitude for learning how tough and strong and brave I am
Gratitude for knowingĀ I'll never go back to how I was, for knowingĀ I'm changed and will only continue to morph into the person I see and feel in my dreams
Gratitude for the romance I feel for the small things in life
Gratitude to learn the rewards of my emotional intensity, which more often has only meant pain. Ā
I still wish for so much, I long for feelings I now know to be true, I want to scream into the void for certain memories
I've relinquished so much fear
But I still wish for so much, so much, soooooo much
But weāre only human, always wanting more
titsay
discoholicmusic
turnnoffyourmind
dailybridgerton
jbbartram-illu
pixelskylines
baratheonpilled