ellie

18 she/her cr: tuesdays with morrie

[whistlingwisteria]

the song of achilles ripped my heart out of my chest, used it as a punching bag, chopped it up into pieces, slammed it into a blender, froze it, and shattered it into smithereens. perhaps i believe in love again.

[whistlingwisteria]

most elementary kids who could read far above their class’ average lexile level and lived vicariously through fantasy characters as an escape from bullying are now depressed, lonely, and stuck in a reading slump. and by “most elementary kids” i mean me.

[percshelly-deactivated20240308]

The saddest part of Song of Achilles isn't the fact that Patroclus or Achilles died.

It's the fact that Patroclus had to sit and watch as Achilles lost his mind. He watched helplessly as Achilles went and killed Hector so violently and fulfill the prophecy, which then led to his own death.

Patroclus watched the love of his life slowly kill himself and there was absolutely nothing he could've done to prevent it.

[cherrymf15]

My thoughts on The Song of Achilles 24 hrs after it destroyed my soul as I needed time to fucking process

If you don’t want spoilers from the book please don’t read!

WHY IS EVERYONE KILLING THE GAYS?

Die Patroclus' Dad. Your son is a bean and you do not deserve him you little bitch

Die Thetis until like the very last page literally, but I appreciate your work for the gays when you weren't a bitch

Die Agamemnon cause just fuck you dickface

DIE PYRRHUS PATROCLUS WAS NOT A BLOT ON YOUR FATHER'S HONOUR YOU FUCKER

Odysseus, I have read Circe so I know you kinda fucking suck too my guy but I appreciate you trying to get Patroclus' name next to Achilles

We also appreciate this man for essentially comparing Achilles and Patroclus to him and his wife

Also, Phoinix with his story about Meleager and Cleopatra and staring pointedly at Patroclus made me happy but also killed me

Bri is a queen and deserves better than what she fucking got. Fucking Pyrrhus and his bitch boy antics

Childhood best friends to lovers is like my favourite trope so just yes

Patroclus seeing Achilles fight for the first time and literally imagining him handling 20 guys easily: *under his breath* fuck me Achilles: What was that? Patroclus: I said fight me

That scene where Achilles just literally drags my boy off his chair was so cute but it also made me laugh so fucking hard

Achilles waiting for him instead of going to Chiron JUST KILL ME

Their first kiss and Achilles running made me scream like no the love of your life is right fucking there child, but Patroclus going anyway despite not knowing how things were after the kiss ahhhhhhh

"Patroclus I have given them enough. I will not give them this." Yes baby don't let them stop you be as gay as you fucking want (leave that to the shitty fates and your mother)

Achilles first instinct when seeing Patroclus' body to be to slash his own throat caused me to throw my book. Just anything to do his with reaction made me throw my book. Especially the ashes thing man

I'm skipping a whole bunch of stuff cause this is quite long already but imagining Achilles finally being at rest and relieved that he'll get to see Patroclus again only to still be alone but it's not like he can go back and I just sob

and Patroclus not being at rest till people know that he and Achilles were together killed me cause he was always so worried about being fully found out when they were alive but dead he was like no let the fucking world know I loved him and love him still.

I appreciate that Thetis did this though I think that was a nice moment when they both hated each other

In conclusion, they gay, I am in pain even 24 hrs after finishing this masterpiece. I will probably think about it and cry randomly for the next 20 yrs and I'm okay with that. I highly recommend this ride of knowing pretty much whats gonna go down but letting your soul be destroyed anyway

[incorrectthesongofachillesquotes]

Achilles: Isn’t it funny how everyone is like background characters in other people’s stories.

Achilles: Except for me of course because I’m sexy and important. But like, all of you guys.

[whistlingwisteria]

HELP

[whistlingwisteria]

me: i am a mature human nothing can break me

*sees the line “what has hector ever done to me?” in tsoa knowing how the book ends*

me *voice cracks*: …ok so maybe i take that back

[incorrectthesongofachillesquotes]

Achilles: I like your pants.

Patroclus: Thanks, they were 50% off.

Achilles: I'd like them 100% off.

Patroclus: The store can't just sell free stuff.

Achilles: No that's not what I-

Patroclus: That's a terrible way to run a business.

[whistlingwisteria]

my school offers this reading and writing workshop class where we’re allowed to choose our own books and have discussions and assignments (reflective journaling, summaries, open response questions, etc) based on them!! this is literally my dream class hello(!?$$?!?!,,? definitely gonna take it next year :]

[whistlingwisteria]

i woke up early this morning to take a peek at the sunrise. i ended up staying in the chilly breeze for longer as i read my book and sipped on some warm tea, cuddled up in soft blankets. best way to recover from a mental breakdown i think.

[whistlingwisteria]

i have a pile of unread books in front of me. kind of intimidating ngl...... jane austen or one of the brontës?

[whistlingwisteria]

i only need to seek validation from my english and history teachers. nobody else matters lol

[whistlingwisteria]

there’s something so special about writing poetry just as the skies turn into a lighter shade of blue and people start to show up on the sidewalk. it’s all while the moonlight’s glow is still prevalent but slightly muted due to the close arrival of the morning sun. i’d have a warm cup of chamomile tea by my side as i enjoy these honey-sweet mornings. there’s just quite nothing like it. nothing at all.

[whistlingwisteria]

happy birthday to miss lily potter!! just wanted to say that you’re so incredibly cool. coolest mf ever. idk why you bothered to get together with that twat james but enough of that..... sometimes i wish you didn’t leave so soon so you could have seen remus become the amazing professor he turned out to be, reunite with sirius to see just how much he loved and cared for your son, and watch harry grow up brave in front of your very eyes. he’s a cool dude, may i add. all because of you. what you did that night will always remain commendable. cheers to another year of celebrating you and your kind heart. may your legacy live forever.

[non-canon-is-canon-cause-harry]

Marauder things after reading ATYD that make me want to cry.

Sirius never learnt to moon walk to MJ.

Lily never got to see Lupin become an actual professor after all their study sessions together

Remus and Sirius never went to see Bowie in concert. 

In harrys third year, remus had to sit in each meal as a professor on his birthday without a very loud rendition from everyone in the great hall of happy birthday

James never learnt how to use a phone booth on his own. 

Sirius never got to get a walkman, or a portable cd player, or an ipod  and get excited because “look remu! it has the whole album under one dot”. 

None of the marauders got to send their children off to hogwarts with dung bombs from zonko’s in pockets. 

Sirius never found out regulus died for their cause

Remus never lived to see the downfall of Greyback

Sirius and Remus did not live long enough to learn peter had been killed

any more that people want to make me cry with?

[daweyt]

“Yesterday, you acted as if you didn't see me. I, today, have eyes that don't notice you. Now suffer in your turn.”

– Hélène Cixous, from The Selected Plays of Hélène Cixous; “The Perjured City,”