W H I T E / C E L I C A

record-in-progress by re/search/er (researchermusic.tumblr.com also me)

[whitecelica]

what's your zodiac sign?

Pisces

[whitecelica]

i give up

[researchermusic]

Quick turnaround on this one.  It should make you feel a little sensual, a whole lot of lonely and that life and the people in it have passed you by, and I don’t know hungry maybe.

[researchermusic]

why not, Andy?  yotub’s where all the dope dopers go rockin’ n rollin’.  all the brandy melville girls in california bungalows and corduroy fellers runnin snapchats out the trap.  yer living in a memeless world of the past with your pogs and mighty maxes while all the [email protected] gettin geocities-famous on yotub.  so why not?

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let’s try something other than complaining constantly, andy, such as mmm maybe just putting music up so that people can actually have it if they want / ok, andy, we’ll do it your way this time, but I’m still preetty convinced people dig the constant complaining I mean just look at all the progress you’ve made on your ‘music career’ what with all this nothinghappening

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if you’ve some change to spare, I’d be grateful / if not, I can give you a download code -andy

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a taster of things that won’t come

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re/search/er

suppose I leave for good and good things proceed to elude me and I’m on the roof of some building on the mrt with headphones on pretending I’ve made progress and miss the chance of staying put and watching the doormats yellow and the paint peel and the appliances flashing for help and when the repairman comes to the appointment I’ll stand in the place of broken things unfixable but hopeful suppose I leave for good and all that exists of me is scattered among websites with dwindling marketshare until

[researchermusic]

re/search/er /// wish I could thank you all in person, play some shows, eat a few chocolate-related baked goods, do something with my life

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tephraa

I have no intention of making this thing better / from an earlier post if yer interested / when people ask me if I make music I lie and tell them no where did you hear a silly bit of business like that? and then exit the room

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obvious/things (iteration 2)

the world you fear will come to be and the world you want to be is the world you already live in / continuing from the video I shared the other day, warts andall / tis not the most interesting thing I’ve made, but it’s enough to get (some of) your attention / again: sang directly into the laptop, the drms more or less a placeholder / so whenever I get frustrated with a song I’m working on, I ‘unwind’ by starting another 1 (ha ha ha) / this is one of those unnnwoundded things and on and on we go and up and down with no-end in:sight / until who knows when I remain forever yours a saduselessman / check your hair for glass pardon the autumn in this room fill your house with all obvious things a layer of someones skin on things I can’t throw away money for useless things a tunnel to the bed we shared

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what do you look for in music and why would you find it in mine? / I have nothing to offer in the way of lifestyle image cult of personality ethos / you’re on the internet looking for a connection, an emotional reaction, at the very least a catchy song to match your current mood, so that your loneliness can be drawn out from the body, so that your sorrow, your helplessness becomes too immense to be something that only happens to you / no, it can’t just be you / you don’t click on a song to see what you can do for the musician / it’s what someone else can do for you / I wish I could be the soundtrack to a moment in your day / but there will be no clever package of media designed for maximum exposure and maximum catharsis found here / sometimes I can barely believe I’m a person at all, and then I remember to breathe / and I was frightening myself / why are you laughing / and if there’s only one way out / lock up the doors / what am I doing to myself / nobody cares / you know you’re always like yourself / a revenant / you know you’re caught under a spell of paraffin 

[researchermusic]

Tell me when to stop so I don’t spend another year working on music no one will hear

[whitecelica]

thank you all for caring about a stranger on the internet / I’m making some progress -andy

[researchermusic]

re/search/er / gauging ‘danceability’ of a new song to some new jack swing moves / doesn’t matter where the clips start the song syncs itself (audio from speakers) every time / mainly it just amuses me a great deal while having a solo dance party in my room / this is the only way I can envision someone dancing to my music, which is lovely / don’t worry, I can’t understand my own mumbling either (original video)

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do not ask how long I wasted on this / do ask how my computer couldn't process everything and an entire percussion part could not be rendered because I wish to vent / listen, I am just as tired as you are of the chipmunked vocals but this is just for kicks