† always tired †

music and art lover, chronical overthinker

[whocaresmf]

You make me melt.

[whocaresmf]

I was so convinced I'd be dead by 27. Now I'm at 30. *pats herself on the shoulder*

[vexheart]

until you learn the lesson

[nevver]

The calling, Francis DiFronzo

[lsleofskye]

[whocaresmf]

there's so much beauty in finally being able to trust your intuition again - and being rewarded for it. to see the growth, even when it feels like there isn't any in other areas of life. it reminds me of those illustrations of someone climbing a mountain, or walking up the stairs. sometimes you slip, tumble back down a few steps, miles even. but when you look at the whole, you're still moving upward. i'm actually excited to look back at this time one day and feel proud of myself for pushing through. for still seeing the beauty underneath all this. for still having so much love to give. and even though the thunderstorms get louder than ever, they also remind me more than ever that i am fucking alive. the amount of days i told myself i was going to end it - and i still went to sleep. still got up the next day. doesn't matter if it was with tears in my eyes. i kept fighting against it. and i'm so proud of my teenage self. sometimes i genuinely don't understand how she did it. but she did. and somehow, so did i.

[whocaresmf]

ich erinnere mich an die Zeit, in der ich das Gefühl hatte, du hättest aufgegeben. es war in der Zeit, als er anfing dich zu schlagen und du ihn immer wieder in Schutz genommen hast. ich habe es damals nicht verstanden, hinterfragte alles, was ich bis dahin von dir gelernt hatte und wie ich dich wahrgenommen habe. wenn ich an die Zeit zurück denke, fühlt es sich an, als wäre in dieser Zeit auch in mir etwas gestorben. ich wünschte, du hättest damals nach Hilfe gebeten. meine Hilfeschreie wollte niemand hören. manchmal glaube ich, dass du deine Stärke gerne darin bewiesen hast, alles alleine schaffen zu können, niemanden dafür zu brauchen. ich weiß, dass es nicht so einfach ist, aber manchmal fühlt es sich an, als hätte das letztendlich dazu geführt, dass wir dich so früh verloren haben. ich hätte mir so sehr für dich gewünscht, dass du deine Ruhe auch im Leben erfährst.. nicht nur im Tod.

[remanence-of-love]

[d3athcrusade]

The infinite world of BLAME! - lost in the megastructure

You’re dropped into a world that seems allergic to explanation. No names, no maps, no exposition panels. Just page after page of impossibly vast corridors and monstrous machines. It’s sci-fi stripped down to its steel bones.

And so you get The Megastructure, a city so vast it’s measured in light years. Architecturally, it’s part brutalist nightmare, part alien cathedral. Think endless concrete caverns, cables thick as highways, staircases that lead nowhere, and walls that look like they’ve been melted and reformed by something not quite natural.

[unsubconscious]

Brent Cotton Before the Thunder Speaks, 2026 Oil on canvas, 91 x 121cm

[whocaresmf]

I wanna call her

I wanna tell her

I wanna hug her

I wanna hear her voice

Not just one time

But for as long as we are

I don't want to wait 40 years

To see her again

I want you to see it all, mom

I want you here

[nevver]

Mission to Mars, Sebastian B (@tabacstar_)

[gothredy]

[whocaresmf]

choosing you

even though I know how easily I give in and how much of myself I pour into others I'm torn between being scared and being glad about apparently having an endless amount of love to give and as I once heard the one who's in love always wins

[cansu-m]

[doyouhearfootsteps]

[aka-nyontaros]