Gangster Rap Made Me Do It @whosefault - Tumblr Blog

Here in the dark there is no time though

Only my thoughts and humming of the fan

I’m here alone

You’re under my skin

Lodged in my head

Your sweet perfume so nice

The way you crinkle your nose

Your eyes full of life

Your hands so small and fragile in mine

The way you want to be loved unconditionally

I hate you you cunt

Leave me alone

Let me die in the dark where I belong

I want you to die

Become dead to me and I am free

Free to sleep without you creeping back in

Free to think without tearing up

Free to love

I want you out

I want you

I love you

My brain knows exactly what’s good for me and it’s not you. So why don’t I listen to it? Why do I want you. You are an itch I can’t scratch. I fucking should hate you for what you put me through. You haven’t done anything though it’s all my own fault putting expectations in my head. Thinking there are these unspoken rules that we both agreed to but we haven’t and when you do what you do it kills me. I’m a puppy following you until I get hit in the street by a car that you are driving. I want you to love yourself like I love you. I do love you. It’s been so sudden but I’ve never felt so sure in my life. I’m so scared and you clearly are too. If you go to him and not me I’ll be devastated. I’m better then him. He is an asshole and doesn’t want you we both know that. I’m here giving you everything you could possibly want and more and yet it’s not enough. What more do I have to do? Fuck you, why do I have to love you.

#streamofconcsiousness