Willow’s Reading Corner

Very sleepy transbian•she/her•23•probably playing on my switch or at the gym

[willowmp4]

Lesbian Austin Powers: I’ve lost my fujo!

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Missing Bozja tonight

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Trying to 100% DQ11 and this fucking song is killing me

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Rainbow dash says Hawk Tuah

[alxyz177]

two posts in a day wowza

[touminfujiwarabe]

[noir-notions]

i think that haru is incredibly angry and spiteful on the inside. she's gentle and kind because she chooses to be. she doesn't want to inconvenience people. she apologizes whenever she expresses her emotions. she likes chopping wood and horror movies and gets a thrill out of killing shadows.

people make a lot of jokes about the sadistic streak she shows in mementos but i think that this is a side of her she rarely ever gets to express due to the expectations placed on her growing up. i think her cruel side speaks more to the sheer amount of anger at her situation she probably has hidden underneath the surface. i don't think haru is the kind of person to take these feelings out on the people around her (we saw how easily she showed grace to akechi, despite the role he had in her situation) so they show up in her hobbies and her tendencies.

the way she interacts with the others, how much she apologizes and sees taking up any semblance of space as a bad thing are pretty clear signs of emotional abuse and neglect. not to state the obvious, of course, i think we all know that her father wasn't the best to her (tried to traffic her, for fucks sake). i honestly believe that she might have even suffered physical abuse as well. how she was raised taught her that she was an inconvenience unless she was being quiet and obedient. negative emotions are often reinforced as a bad thing that you shouldn't express, especially as a child. when you're being abused or neglected and not having your emotional needs met this is dialed up to 11. haru was probably punished for expressing negative emotion and that led to her becoming more reserved with how she expresses herself. this can be seen in the difficulties she has trusting people, and the way she becomes more withdrawn after her father's death.

also

she apologizes

so damn much

overapologizing is very common in abuse victims or people with trauma, and otherwise usually presents in those with anxiety or low self worth. haru's main response to trauma and stress is to fawn, because she was taught not to be an inconvenience to people. she was taught that doing anything that wasn't expected of her was worthy of punishment. it's only after she meets people who accept her for who she is that she starts to express this darker side of herself. apologizing aside, i think haru is quicker to express her true feelings and show her cruel streak around the pthieves because she doesn't fear punishment for doing so. she trusts them!

[noir-notions]

burn pygmalion makoharu redraw

[eelektrossfan]

Petals

[deoxy-diamond-arts]

I started playing Chrono Trigger and I needed to draw my favorite character Lucca

[reyna-daisuki]

[zenzlia]

when the way out is seeked

[willowmp4]

FFXIV ENDWALKER SPOILERS///

Endwalker is my favorite character expac because as incredible as Shadowbringers is, I don't think i'll ever forget how the entire Ultima Thule journey rocked me to my core

thancred sacrificing himself before we even arrive, urianger's aside talking about how of all of them, he deserves the most to be sacrificed, the trek with the leveilluer twins and the final walk alone with the world's sorrows at your side accompanied by the hopes of humanity…

honestly endwalker's whole narrative of "as long as you live, there is hope. no matter how bloody and broken you are" is something I really needed to hear at the time i played it for the first time and its a huge reason why it's my favorite

[sirguyofnothing]

its sort of never going to be like this again which is fine

[zevrt1]

Rellana, Twin Moon knight (づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

[evilett]

Malenia and Miquella

[derzhavinart]

Elden Ring Miku