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In most unloveable, Love met me.

This season, I learned about Love the hard way. not that it was not familiar for me. but I never thought that Love is as complex as I’m experiencing it this season. Before that, the love I’m referring here isn’t about a sexual affection between a man and a woman, but a heart that genuinely (not just thinks but also) does the best to people with the highest form of appreciation and genuine affection. Some days, love is an easy thing to do. But let’s get honest that some days, love is such a difficult thing. I learned that when we are not fully filled by love, we are unable to fully express love too towards others. Which means, love is expressed outside when love is experienced inside.  But what if you’re in a situation that does not serve love to you but require you to express love even when thorns are what you receive. I never thought I will ever reflect on this as hard as I’m learning about it this season, on how does it feel like to keep loving at the most unloveable moments. It is easy for people to say “stay away from toxic relationship” or pretty quotes like “stay close to people who feel like sunshine” but what if the relationship or the people that bring thorns in you are the closest people in your life? at these times, loving is difficult. This is what I’m dealing about this season, and it took quite a while for me to step out from this dark zone. It was hard but at these hard times, Love found me. When worldly love fails, God’s love met me. He met me. when I thought I failed to express love. He loved me. when I thought I was too far to reach Him as I failed, He met me. here. :’) And still He spoke to me,  “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.” Romans 8:26 “Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:39 “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs.” 1 Corinthians 13:5  He gently helped me, loved me, and reminded me.. again.  And this.. is exactly what does it mean to be able to stand up again because of His strength, and not of ours. “In most unloveable, Love met me” July 9, 2019. W.

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All the gold on the earth is not enough to exchange for virtue.

Plato, Laws (via philosophybits)

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The fact is, nobody is perfect. We fail. We hurt. We disappoint. We're selfish and sometimes we only think about ourselves.

We are.. walking bodies with eyes that see life as much as we ever learned about it, perspective that was shaped by what had passed through from our very day-one in life.

But, Does it valid? Does what we see is whole? Can our eyes capture the whole picture of life?

And maybe, that’s exactly why the idea of “denying self” and  “second life” are essential. Because we’re weak, we sin, and we can’t save ourselves. Our capability to capture the whole picture of life is so limited. Our perspectives are not valid because it’s all relative to one another.

Then, to fully acknowledge life to its fullest definition, we need a greater (divine) Being that

He Himself is “LIFE”, He Himself is “The TRUTH”, the Creator of that “whole picture”, the One that is the Beginning and the End of all (Alpha & Omega)  

to help and enable us to have that understanding.

To deny ourselves means letting go our fleshly desires, to see life with His perspective, His eyes and heart.

To live a second life means starting a new life with God as the center, as the Compass, and as the Guide. Knowing that only in Him we’re able to understand what does it mean to be fully ALIVE, and only in Him life does make sense. Nov 23, 2017. W

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We all know that we come to know God by experience. Everyone may have a different knowledge about who God is as they experience God in different ways than we do. And just because you never experience what they had been thru, doesn’t mean their testimony was a lie. Just because you don’t understand the name and description they made about God, doesn’t mean they share a false teaching.

For few times, we’ve heard how people debate about others’ testimonies about their experience with God. Quick examples, speaking in tongue or healing gift. And there’re actually a lot more examples out there. Just because you don’t get that gift, doesn’t mean those who do are crazy.

We live as a body, the temple of God. We have our own part and role, some are the eyes, some are the ears, some are the hands, and so on. (But it’s important to note that we’re all rooted in one source, John 15:5). Just because you don’t experience what the eyes see, doesn’t mean they’re wrong.

The presumption we make about others will only keep us from learning and growing. Jesus told us in the book of Luke that the child-like faith is better than prophets and kings. Our limited capacity as a human can only absorb a little of the whole Truth. What we know today is nothing compare to the infinity Truth. So let’s humble ourselves before the Lord and ask Holy Spirit to guide us as He reveals new understanding for us. Isn’t it beautiful that we’re all unique and different and He let us experience Him in new ways everyday. ♡ Nov 21,2017. W

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In the middle of my quiet time this afternoon, I was moved to grabbed a pen and paper to write anything that I (strangely) know will eventually pop up to my mind naturally as I start to write;

- Create a generation that worships like it’s a lifestyle Who’s dare to stand up, speak up, and do actions that glorify Him Testimonies of His greatness in life is in their mouths Everything that lifts Him up is their contentment They’re so overwhelmed by His love that they can’t help but to Give Give Give Share Share Share Serve Serve Serve Because it’s too good for them to consume alone Too beautiful for them to adore alone Their heart is full of fire Burning for a love that doesn’t come from the earth

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Speechless. How wonderful God is? Nov 17,2017. W

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Your love surrounds me when my thoughts wage war, When night screams terror, there Your voice will roar Come death or shadow, God I know Your light will meet me there † = ♡ 

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And if it lifts You higher, burn in me Your desire, a passion worthy of Your name.

Hear Like Heaven by Hillsong United

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The Ocean of His love

Recently, these thoughts came up while I was lost myself in a worship song (if you know what i mean.. ☺ ) at midnight before falling asleep. 

I was like.. who am I? who am I that Grace chose me? who am I that He allows my eyes to see how great His hand works in peoples’ lives, and in my life. How great is God, He is indescribably GREAT.

Once you build a real relationship with Him, commit to follow the calling in which you’re called, and to fully trust your life in Him, your life will never be the same anymore. You’ll see what you never saw before, hear what you never heard before, and feel what you never felt before. Because you let the Creator (the owner of the universe) to live in you, work in you. And as you let Holy Spirit to live in you, He guides and renews you. He will allow your eyes to see life in such a different perspective. And you’ll start to know Him in such a deep deep deep way you run out of words describing Him, yet you feel His presence so damn right.

But yes, life’s still never be as easy as we think afterward. Yes, sometimes your faith is weak, because flesh is weak. And the bible says, “the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of our God endures forever” (Isaiah 40:6-8). Our flesh may fail but He never will. In your darkest time, you will never be alone. and when you leave Him, when you try to hide from His face, even when you give up on Him, you’ll see.. there’ll be time you experience who God is, how Good and how Great he is.. the truth is, He never leaves you, He never forget. Not even a second He thinks to give up on you, yet He waits for you with open arms.. to welcome you home.

Like a deer pants for waters, your soul will be thirsty, your heart will crave to seek for His presence & to rest in it. And when you stop everything for a second, just to kneel down and talk to Him.. you’ll find that His presence is wide and deep, unending, indescribable, limitless, touching your soul as your tears start to drop. He is great. Halleluyah!

Oct 14,2016.  W