There's something really poetic about the fact that Lorentz Butterfly has red-green colorblindness and Anil, the man who is in a sense an equal to her, is blue. His name's meaning comes from "blue".
Anil literally and figuratively stands out to her.
Currently reading watching a trope happen in slow motion like one does with a crash. I cannot decide if I should be laughing or crying.
All I know is: congratulations main character! You've played yourself. You have read thousands of romance novels, and you still think you pull off the: I must die/vanish and return to complete my mission, surely the person I'm in love with will be able to move forward in life as long as I leave a note! (The note is actually optional in this trope.)
No, no. Now you have a blackened love interest. Actually, even if the situation on their end was strictly platonic—you would still have a blackened second male lead.
head in hands... working on the retheme rn why does forget me not have a grand total of like.. maybe five pieces of art im going to explode... do i forsake my meow meow and edit a different character
Hi Mimosa (they/them) here with the next round of tumblr sexy people contests
Here is the 2026 sexy people master form, all forms final tallies will be taken one week from the start of the contest to give me time to go through all of your submissions, instructions are on the form, make sure everyone has fun
The 2026 Sexywoman Contest starts March 1st
The 2026 Sexyman Contest starts June 1st
The 2026 Sexyenby Contest starts October 1st
Each round of the contests will last 1 week, the mashups will be generated randomly each round using a google random generator, whether we start out with 32 or 64 mashups in each round one will be determined by the number of submissions
Please put your submission in (First Last - Source Media) format, make sure the first letters are capitalized, and if a character has a last
Please put your submission in (First Last - Source Media) format, make sure the first letters are capitalized, and if a character has a last
Separate poll:
Honestly just put their name, I’m pretty sure I can find all of them by name in this case for a change lol
THAT FIRST SITE IS EVERY WRITER’S DREAM DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I’VE TRIED WRITING SOMETHING AND THOUGHT GOD DAMN IS THERE A SPECIFIC WORD FOR WHAT I’M USING TWO SENTENCES TO DESCRIBE AND JUST GETTING A BUNCH OF SHIT GOOGLE RESULTS
So...Anyone else putting their thoughts and theories on what Tides of Thought is supposed to be? Other than being a belated confirmation in A Campaign’s Tale that this “centralized entrance into the Depths” could be what Manus attempted to open up during Flowing Feast (especially with its theme of nightmares and collective madness), I have another blurb/theory rant I would like to consider since the nightmare-incarnate is a familiar face for a really specific reason…
Also said-rant is courtesy of my sister, a silent but avid Reverse ‘99 fan for now, who is more than seething about the Amber Room lore drop for obvious reasons and how Vertin's childhood in the Foundation was basically doomed from the start :)
TLDR: Tides of Thought is possibly Zahir's true method of transcendentality (and/or becoming "It"/Lord of Dreams/Deceitful Nightmares as a result), and Merlin was too stupid to realize the writing on the wall on why they're interested in those textbook sociopaths.
From the slight divergence in their Borges story and even Answering Machine, Zahir is interested in prolonging the search for the one-sided coin by not actively searching for it physically, but through the psychological mechanism of the mind(s) as the "Philosopher" and attempting to will it into existence instead - Especially with learning more about how powerful the Depths is shaping reality through the collective thoughts of others (ie. the French Blue, UTTU ghostwriting for Pandora when her presence/memory began to fade, maybe the concept of reincarnators like Spaphodea too, who knows...).
Other than being a living dictionary through the Depths, Zahir's whole purpose of being is to extract a unified image from the memory of all things (aka. The Archive of Imagery). And a zahir has the ability to contaminate reality and dreams and blur it into one; either through a concept, a person, or an item like an unassuming coin. Book-Borges gets that warning far too late when he's encountered by his late wife in a dream, and becomes bedridden after days or weeks of obsessing over a centuro coin and the immortality of the mind...
Hence Artificial Somnambulism and possibly getting infected by the Tides of Thought all the way back in Chapter 3-4 (since philosophy also applies to dreams/oneriology and Kakania is a massive contender to this practice as well).
With AS, Vertin lives through her memories of her SPDM times and her growing curiosity of the outside world, with some interesting discussions on Gnosis/knowledge from another path, Chaldean Oracles, and the principal's speech on the balance of the world's knowledge through philosophy...The only thing that temporarily breaks her immersion in the dream is the concept of death, something that she witnessed time and time again with the humans she wanted to save from the Storm and Schneider was her breaking point...
Then guess who shows up on the second fucking stage in Tides of Thought?
Even if it definitely angers me that neither the main wiki or huijiwiki put up the full description of Deceitful Nightmare, the fact that it latched onto a lullaby of all things also lines up perfectly well with the Tides relationship with the Depths; lulling its victims to dive in deep by dangling in the core concept of their desires, and boy howdy did Campaign's Tale make that front and center for Vertin with the Amber Room experiments.
Sleep now, sleep tight, just close your eyes and everything will be all right. The gentlest voice one hears at the edge of a dream... [Deceitful Nightmare / 110 < TLI < 120]
This nightmare is essentially a riptide of dreams and memories that seems calm enough on the surface (the pearl inside a oyster shell per se), It uses that serenity to lure victims into the vortex to their doom. Regret and Malice, their minds on the brink of Descent and Collapse, all overviewed by the Fount of Malice and Nightmares itself.
...In a extremely long story short, Zahir may or may not have decided to use this power to stir up Vertin's gay thoughts on Schneider again, even if it's literally a blink-and-you'll miss it moment in Nouvelles. Cause even if she didn't know it, that pure emotion and affection was something she craved for a long long time up until now once she has a more solid goal of finding and securing Urd. Cause even if she barely remembers the times her mother visited her every night, it lingered just close enough for her subconscious to latch onto that love until those months under Artificial Somnambulism, reliving that hope and pain like it was yesterday and wondering about the world outside this disciplinary prison she called home.
But it was at that moment, even if she didn't realize it, the Depths of Myth had its sights on her and her convictions; leading her down a path to her fate on the origin of the Storm and her own lineage...
The word “utopia” derives from Greek. It means “no place.”
People cannot understand the structure of the labyrinth, yet they continue to follow its paths. They cannot comprehend the mechanics of fate, yet they believe in its jurisdiction. As if, by doing so, everything will naturally fall into place.
[9th-13: Master of the Labrynth; spoken by a mind that shouldn't exist in Aleph's anymore but does, an obsession to find a connecting thread to all of humanity, a one-sided coin you could say...]
And despite It being a creature with no face and no form, why does it look like a straight-jacket?
The creation imitates its creator.
It won’t wake up, neither will the will of this place.
Ch12 moments I am obsessed with: Don River Yaoi edition +・。*
Whilst I was doing my damndest to focus on the LORE and PLOT if ch12 my brain was, for all intents and purposes, unfortunately fixating on a few voice lines between Ivan Burakov and Commander Igor. Boy, oh boy, did I have to ignore those thoughts as they progressively got more aggressive! But now that we're a little deeper into the patch, and therefore it is less likely for these screenshots to spoil anyone: this post is an outlet for the damn thoughts that REFUSE to go away. I am deeply tormented by them (affectionate.)
(Spoiler cut just in case!)
Right, so in the very beginning of ch 12, around node 2 to be exact: Ivan Burakov had to use the wording pups. Which. There isn't anything inherently wrong with this, but alas I have been on the internet (and fanfic circles in particular) too long.
From this point on? I was fighting my inner demons to stop reading the chapter, and SPECULATE on omegaverse dynamics between Igor and Ivan.
I could be basic and just say they have an Alpha/Omega dynamic. Choose your poison to which of them is the Alpha or Omega in that scenario. Honestly, they both could go in either direction. But, for Ivan and Igor: I actually think I prefer a non-traditional dynamic. Particularly: Omega/Omega.
Why you might ask?
[Stares in Igor adopting an army's worth of children. Stares in Ivan Burakov dumping more kids into Igor's hands.]
Am I meant to pretend these two old men wouldn't make the most hilarious Omega/Omega dynamic? They're both the type to take children under their wings for protection, and then do everything in their power to not lead said children into choices they cannot make. Sure, they could be Alpha/Omega, Alpha/Alpha, Alpha/Beta, or Omega/Beta. But where's the fun in that? Why not just two old Omegas in a situationship who keep adopting children together.
I can just see it now. Both of them sighing in exasperation as the other brings home another kid to adopt. Like they don't have an army's worth. Even better? They can't say shit to the other about it because they both keep doing it!
Ptolmey, Sternova, Lopera, and Moldir would absolutely keep calling them out on it though.
Making this post before playing chapter 12, y'all have been hating on my boy Igor way too much this whole time and you will see it this chapter. He did a lot of things wrong but he isn't a monster and actually cares for his kids and I will DIE on that hill.
no dude it's so cool how attached you are to that character who is singled out and ostracized due to the external monstrousness that clashes with their internal spark of humanity. and i love how drawn you are to themes of horror and love, nature versus nurture, otherness, isolation, and the abject. i bet you have normal feelings about your own personhood
His name is Xiang Fei (向飞) !! His name is LITERALLY part of the Airplane's pseudonym, Xiang Da Fei Ji (向天打飞机) !!! He literally wanted to use his name but it was not available TT even if he used XiangFei00, 01, or something like that, so that's how he ended up using the one he chose LOL