Memories

Roses bloom from within me, I took my scars and turned them into something beautiful. I collect dried flowers because I think they hold memories, this is where I write their stories. This may be considered a trauma blog.

[typewriterdaily]

Sometimes you read a line from a book and it’s like something from your own head or something from your journal. And that part of you is a bit more defined, a bit sharper, and a bit easier to understand and explain to others.

[bakwaaas]

there is no unlived life or alternative reality where everything went right…. there is only here and now what are you going to do with it

[dionysian-mystery]

Avery Williams, tails between clenched teeth (in le petit 3, january 2025) via @feytouched | Quote by briscoepark on Instagram | Song of the Open by Walt Whitman | You're on Your Own, Kid by Taylor Swift | Pencil drawing by Anthony Cudahy | Mamma Told Me by Mother Mother | Mother by Maia Baia | From the poem Salt by Trista Mateer (book: The Dogs I Have Kissed) | Unknown | Nevermind by Michael Howard | Muslim Girlhood by Leila Chatti | Quote source | Poetry by @ojibwa | Antigone by Sophocles | Art by @nevahosking | Sylvia Plath | Poetry by @traumatizeddfox | Demons by Fyodor Dostoyevsky | Art by Tim Dayhuff | Quote by Helaena Moon @hapless-hollow | Quote by Sainteda on Wattpad (?) | Spear by Elizabeth Acevedo | White Oleander by Janet Fitch | Illustration by Carlos Alonso from Under Someone Else's Rain by Juan Gelman | Quote by S.P. | Mya G. Wolf

[some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat]

Growing up knowing you will move and this home is only temporary and moving from temporary to temporary on and on really does something to you. I can't imagine permanence. I need to keep my stuff in its boxes so I don't have to worry about packing them to bring them to the next place. Why invest in making a space mine? I'll only leave it behind. I don't wanna buy a desktop computer, it'll be so much extra work to bring it safely. What do you mean you still talk to your childhood friends. What do you mean you've lived in the same town your whole life. Sometimes I haven't even bothered learning my own address. Which got awkward when the cops asked me where I lived. Don't get attached. Don't own too much stuff. Probably doesn't help to be an only child of a single parent. It's just me, mom, and a dozen dusty cardboard boxes. Everything else will be gone in a few years. Once I stayed in the same place for almost a decade with no plans to leave. I never for even a moment felt like I was going to stay and I spent that decade making new online identities every few years abandoning the old ones ghosting everyone who got to know me. Start over. Start over. Start over. New name new address new town new world leaving the old one behind forever. This is all I've ever known. I can't imagine a life that doesn't abandon and replace everything every few years. Maybe when I'm dead and buried I'll manage to stay in the same cemetery for a while.

[stitchblades]

jenny holzer, SURVIVAL (1983-85)

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

[fairycosmos]

i don’t like how endings in real life come on so suddenly without making sense, without much warning. one minute you’re in the middle of something and the next it’s all a very long time ago and you’re a different person and none of it is ever coming back

[yourtryhard]

[saltair-and-webweaves]

I wonder if you wish for a different daughter instead of me. - user jay says on medium/twenty - silas melvin/@/eternaldroplets on twitter/if my body could speak - blythe baird/mother - maia baia/home is not a country; "mama" - safia elhillo/acts of desperation - megan nolan

[lemedstudent2021]

grief and love and the human condition i suppose

[vexheart]

[onbrulera]

On fathers and sons

Tell Me Something Good, Ocean Vuong/Greywaren, Maggie Stiefvater/The Sun Is Also a Star, Nicola Yoon/Richard Siken/Fight Club, Chuck Palahniuk/Saturn, Francisco de Goya/Saturn devouring a Son, Peter Paul Rubens/Someday I’ll Love, Ocean Vuong/Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan on November 16, 1581, Ilya Repin

[klodizzle]

I am trying to love myself until I mean it, I do this one day and then the next

[saltair-and-webweaves]

If I could leave I would have already left

shilo niziolek in the broad river reveiw/lorine niedecker/unknown/ @sentientsky/paul revere - noah kahan

[afterthemovie]

rupture by kate kretz, 2018 (crowdsourced grey hair from people who have experienced profound loss hand embroidered on cotton)

[saltair-and-webweaves]

on needing radical change

paul revere - noah kahan/ @sentientsky/ @servuscallidus/the kite runner - khaled hosseini/paul gilmartin/please refrain from talking during the movie - robert polito/user gabe k-s/portrait of fryderyk in shifting light - richard siken/paul revere - noah kahan

[twilightarcade]

looper