WORDS WRITTEN IN SILENCE

Published writer. 3 a.m. poet. Counselor.

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I don’t have the words anymore. There is no poetry spilling onto pages. But, my God, do I feel for you! And now, I don’t even have the words that were slowly helping me get over you.

Navin E. (no words left)

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amidst all the chaos that fills the air draining my soul with abandon I am left with mere silence words clutching to you a silent absence is this a silent chaos is this this is my chaos a silent burden I carry a fine balance unseen lost in the chaos that fills the air this is my sanity in your absence a silent chaos is this

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poetry - screams at me as the world around me remains silent

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we must not carry with us the desire to be remembered with time all shall be forgotten and lose its importance the fear lies in being forgotten when one is alive out of sight, out of mind stems from ignorance I cannot forget - not because you want to be remembered because you lie in the depths of my soul every heartbeat - a reminder of your love how can you take that away? bound by a promise – I no longer search for you I live with you inside my very core we must not carry with us the desire to be remembered but I still carry you with me everyday

Navin E. (I remember…)

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silver linings playbook

he remained positive with a perennial smile the kind that was real and not to conceal he didn’t complain in fact, he didn’t speak much going through life with clarity - few possessed he was no saint he made mistakes we all do but, accepted the consequences he said he had no worries we knew this wasn’t true he was in denial we thought still, we were curious “do you see a silver lining?” “do you have a playbook?” “does it tell you what to do?” “is life really perfect for you?” we had so many questions our lives weren’t perfect cursing our fate at every juncture his first response was as expected a smile that left his face and appeared on ours he finally spoke he was concise he maintained his smile and spoke slowly “loss is a part of life without loss there is no gain there is only one step between failure and success there is no playbook but, there is a silver lining it’s called the next day which none of us has seen.”

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I took a life

this is my confession written, not in blood but through my soul tarnished over time

I took a life there is no evidence none that anyone can find except me

the truth is - no crime was committed no, this is not my defence this is where we bare it all

there shall be no judgement that falls upon me in the absence of a crime in the absence of others

this death shall not be remembered no farewells no prayers no remnants of the past

today, I move forward filled with hope of redemption my former self removed from this world

I took a life it was my own a part of me that no longer exists not from today

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Do I really need you?

I need you - I say loudly not bothered about prying eyes you don’t want to reply, but you do "no you don’t" your words echo in my ears despite how softly they’re spoken you simply turn and walk away I want to follow I want to hold you again I need to am I scared of losing you or simply being alone? I don’t know

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kiss me again - I'm running out of poetry

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Borrowed time

screaming from rooftops no echoes or responses perhaps whisper a lie for it to spread like wildfire flaws demarcate you from others actions - all defining change without any hope? living on borrowed time now screaming from the rooftops no echoes or responses perhaps whisper a lie for it to spread like wildfire

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She was a poem without words. Her silence - my heartbreak.

Navin E.

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My heart has grown weary of goodbyes. I fade away quietly these days.

Navin E.

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These lyrics...

for the first time I can hear the lyrics I feel them running through my core a bond has been created - between the words and my ears I never knew what they meant - I never understood it could be real these emotions - the heartache - the tears - the pain

they were only words to me - today it’s reality - every word has a meaning an emotion that I recognise but wish I didn’t I’ve learnt the meaning of heartache today but I wish I hadn’t the music could have fallen on deaf ears instead, I lie here with an understanding that I wish I didn’t have

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Am I in hell, I ask myself? - The rational part of me, or whatever of it is left says “no” - I am reminded that this is life. Life in its simplest form - Some might remind me that I choose to be alone. - I try to argue that and still cannot find the answer What am I arguing? I still don’t know. What I do know is that even in the company of others, I feel lonely - It is then that I ask again - I ask for loneliness to be my friend - Because this isn’t hell where being lonely and punishment are the norm This is life. Why then does this feel like punishment and do I feel lonely? Someone? Anyone? I have stopped expecting a response - Then why do I still ask? Why do I still hope? I am reminded again, that this is life - And without hope, there is nothing at all - Until the answers arrive Loneliness, be my friend.

Navin E. (loneliness be my friend)

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Thoughts - Too many No words No tears My wavering mind No sounds Just a blank stare My emotions evade me No heart Thoughts Only thoughts

Navin E. (a chaotic mind)

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just one more moment

wait - not yet - just another moment you didn’t realise - how another moment could matter but it does it does to me let me look at you for another moment before you’re gone - let me look at you for one last time let me soak up this moment for it may never come again let me see you smile - it might be the last time let me see my reflection in your eyes so I can imagine them even when my eyes are closed - never to open again wait - not yet - just another moment you didn’t realise - how another moment could matter but it does it does to me

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Why do I desire someone who doesn't even notice me? The longing feels so empty.

The heart is a wild creature - and we cage it behind bones for the entirety of our lives. There are times it rebels to remind you that it is what keeps you alive. And, even if it desires someone that doesn't feel the same way it reminds you to attend to it all the same.Attend to your heart, even if another fails to see the love within it.

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and the memory remains...

with each passing day - your memories don’t fade time the eternal healer - cannot pardon these sins your memories - the reminder - carried them - not with the fear of forgetting - but, with the loss inherited