Do What You Love ⚡️🥀

Poems, 3 AM thoughts and things I’d never say out loud

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

Just go. Leave. Let me be.

And don’t come back, even if you miss me.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

If God gave me the chance

To meet that man just one more time,

I would do it

I would tell him that I love him too much

And that I’ll never love another man

The way I love him.

So please God, please

Send him to me

Before it’s too late…

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

The 🌙 made him look so, so pure and honest

And that night,

The moon shone on his face.

And I saw exactly what I needed to see...

Pureness & honesty.

And there, under the light of the stars, I just knew

That I would love him forever.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

I’m a lonely girl

In a fucked up world

Life is a lie

It’s fantastic.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

Why do I so, so, so desperately want to be yours...

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

If only I could hold you

In the way she holds you

I would make you feel okay again

In case you don’t feel okay in her arms.

But I can’t.

Because you’re hers

(Or you pretend to be).

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

Every morning, I pretend to wake up next to you. I feel like that is the only way I can still make myself want to get up. I just ignore the fact that you love her and that you post so many perfect pictures of you guys on Instagram and I imagine us lying together under my white sheets. You make me smile every morning, we cuddle for quite some time and I become ready to face the day without you, but with everything that hurts me. Sad, huh...

J. V.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

By trying to run away from your bad habits,

And by trying to love someone else,

I realised that you’re all I need.

Like,

Who cares about your bad habits,

I love you,

And I can’t love anyone else.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

Oh baby,

We all stand alone,

Alone in the dust,

Alone in the wind,

Alone in the rain,

Alone in the darkness,

As well as,

Alone in the sun’s beautiful brightness.

And there’s nothing we can do about it.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

It was May 5, 2018, 2.31 AM. Prom just ended. He was drunk. He was climbing on things. He was pulling his pants off. He was dancing to ‘YMCA’. He was smoking one of the many cigarettes he’s ever smoked.

He was walking around her. He almost couldn’t stand on his legs anymore and he almost fell to the ground in front of her. Then, he sat down on a bench near her.

She saw it all happening and she didn’t dare to speak to him anymore. ‘Cause what would a shy and quiet girl, who’d never smoke nor drink, do with such a guy, whom, she was sure, her parents would never approve of?

To this day, she still regrets not daring to speak to him then. Turns out that he was her only real chance on ever becoming happy.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

I’m just trying,

not to think about you,

Not to fantasize about you,

Not to cry over you,

And I’m failing,

But I won’t admit it.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

I am so in love with you,

And you still choose to love someone else

And now,

I am asking myself,

Am I that bad of a person that no one,

Like literally no one,

Could ever love me?

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

I couldn't live without him. If he went off with another girl, I would pine away and die.

A quote I had to read out loud in English class today. The teacher made a joke about how sorry he was for me and the boy who was sitting next to me laughed quietly. That’s when I realized I had basically told him (and for that matter, everyone) how I feel about him without him even realizing it. 

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

Never ever judge a book by its cover. When deciding if you want to read a particular book, you usually look at its cover and you read its synopsis and these may make you think that you’ll like it. Then, you start to read it and guess what... you don’t like it. The opposite, however, might also be true. You may like a book that didn’t stand out to you at first.

I am one of those books no one would ever voluntary read. They think my cover is ugly and my synopsis is boring. This is why I just wish people wouldn’t judge others so quickly based on what they look like and that they would really be interested in reading my story as well as so many others’ who feel the same way I do.

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

And now,

I’m starting to realise

That trying to make you love me

Is like a battle

That I will lose

Because you love her.

I don’t want to lose that battle, I love you

[writingaboutpinkclouds]

I wish someone would tell me

What I am supposed to do

Because I love him

But I also love you.

I just can’t let go of him.