[writingplayingliving]

This feeling is the sweetest torture.

- 11.09.22

[writingplayingliving]

“And in the end, it was your issues that tore us apart,

not mine.”

30.05.20

[writingplayingliving]

The worst thing about getting everything you ever wanted

is losing it.

-10.03.20

[writingplayingliving]

I will be okay

I say to you and to everyone else.

I will be okay.

I say it to myself, every day.

I will be okay, no matter what it takes.

No matter how long it takes.

I will be okay.

- 18.11.19

[writingplayingliving]

“And maybe

in another life,

we are standing

Side by Side.”

23.10.19

[writingplayingliving]

“I cannot keep doing

the exact same thing

Over and Over and Over

again

and expect a different outcome.”

- Fairly sure that’s the definition of stupidity

10.10.19

[writingplayingliving]

“I am so tired of crying over you.”

- 03.10.19

[writingplayingliving]

“And now I am grieving for the loss of you,

I wonder if my mother grieved for my father in the same way.

Quietly and alone,

so the sorrow remains unknown.”

- no one can know the pain of losing a love that was always in the dark.

14.09.19

[writingplayingliving]

“I am always, always

second best.”

- So tired.

[writingplayingliving]

“All I think about is you

And all you think about

is you.”

[writingplayingliving]

“I must remind myself,

over and over again,

not to fight

and beg

for your attention.”

[writingplayingliving]

“You don’t notice when you hurt me,

because how could you know

that anything other

than your complete

and undivided attention

causes me pain.”

- my fault, not yours.

[writingplayingliving]

“And although I love you

So deeply and so desperately

And although I cannot stop myself

from clinging to the thought of you loving me too,

a part of me wants to run

wants to hold my middle finger up

and curse the day you were born

And leave you

Far behind.”

[writingplayingliving]

“I can be there for you

when you are sad and alone and desperate.

I can hold your hand and hold you together

through your darkest times.

I can come to you when no one else would

and care for you like no one else could.

But I cannot make you love me.”

[writingplayingliving]

“You call and I will come to you

Over And Over Again.

Even when my brain is screaming at me to stay put,

my feet will walk to where you are.”

[writingplayingliving]

“I don’t know how to write about how it feels

to see you look at her

like I look at you.”

[writingplayingliving]

“You will choose her

again and again,

and I will keep on choosing you.”