wind🍃

i used to draw stuff. now i mostly use this for rambling & venting

[nikoco11]

thought this was cute ^^

[lynxgriffin]

Finished color commission for Eschers Skynet, who asked for a version of the Alan Wake cover art featuring Dess! This commish was an interesting challenge!

[wyrlwind]

shit's so bad even Mulder is taking sponsorships LMAO

[wyrlwind]

my bad it's not Mulder's podcast but I still find it funny

[wyrlwind]

shit's so bad even Mulder is taking sponsorships LMAO

[wyrlwind]

finally got around to buying some of The X-Files books. I love the covers for these two, and the back of Perihelion being the title card.

I know very little about either of these but I just want some new X-Files content lmaoo. I'm very tempted to start with Perihelion since it follows after the season 11 finale. The others seem to be much more self contained stories, although I will definitely be reading them sooner or later.

[wyrlwind]

i finished watching lost for the first time. never before have i been so conflicted on a show, and yet it had me sobbing for 5 whole minutes afterwards. beautiful ending.

[wyrlwind]

been trying to stay positive but i just feel like this ngl

[wyrlwind]

I've been binge watching the x files for the first time and i honestly forgot what it felt like to love a show so much it genuinely hurt to know I'm close to the end of it (I'm almost done with season 8). x-files quickly became a comfort show and I'm just not going to be ready to let it go. sad as it might sound I'm depressed just thinking about it as i try and go to sleep

[wyrlwind]

i think I'd like to get back into art soon

[wyrlwind]

do people just not realize when they dm you that you might not respond immediately lol. i barely check tumblr as it is

[wyrlwind]

its good to know someone cares

[wyrlwind]

my sleep schedule is so fucked up that i thought the first half of Thursday was Wednesday and the second half was actually Thursday

[wyrlwind]

it annoys me to no end when people tell me that if I'm feeling down I should do something that makes me happy, not because of what they told me but because I just can't anymore. every time I think I've finally pushed past my feelings I find myself right back where I was and nothing can bring me out except for time. I want to do the things I enjoy most, believe me, but I can't get my mind off of it if I'm already in that dark place. I'm so sick of feeling like this. I don't want to have to put up with it anymore.

[wyrlwind]

Hey, found you through that frieren art. I really like it. Scrolling through the blog and well, it was relatable. When breathing is the least you can do, and moving anything feels like a chore.

Not to say you're not alone in all of this, we're just a product of this generation. Knowing there's others out there doesn't really help us now does it.

Day by day life slips away through my finger, before you know it I'm 21. Maybe some day I'll be able to change it, if I live long enough. Perhaps.

Though, enough about me. I wanted to just let you know your works cool, and I'd love to have you keep drawing. Thanks for reading this, and see ya around friend :)

Hope you don't mind me replying to this, but thank you. Some days I can't tell if I'm starting to feel better or if I'm getting worse because of how hard it can be to do the simple things I enjoyed before. I'm not sure why but the past few weeks have been particularly hard. I want to keep trying to push forward though. I want to get better at art, it's always been an interest of mine. It's hard to push forward some days when it feels like no one cares at all, so thank you for your message.

[wyrlwind]

[wyrlwind]

frieren

[wyrlwind]

getting so tired of feeling like garbage. i miss having the will to just draw shit. everything i enjoyed doing is like a chore now.