xiqu1n :P

im crazy in thehead™ and i ran out of the asylum to fulfill my dreams of becoming completely and utterly useless YAY :D

[xiqu1n]

HEY if you [somehow for somereason] wnat to follow me [ME!!]! in other platforms here and only here there is the link to the official accounts yippie (almost all of them are named only xiqu1n):

MY OWN SITE!!!! YIPIEEE: https://xiqu1n.neocities.org/

i donot like it there but i use it too much TWITTER: https://x.com/xiqu1n

i donot post slightly there YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@xiqu1n?si=rcr9iI9ocjjvv7lu

i forgor this existed BLUESKY: https://bsky.app/profile/xiqu1n.bsky.social

and the oficial tumblr account is the one you are in at this exactly moment !!!!!!

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[xiqu1n]

uni is actually cool

i was just very scared

and still kinda scared

but now i will have less time to post here (i think)

thank you

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[xiqu1n]

got a 2 year scolarship on uni

kinda proud of myself

but still scared

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[xiqu1n]

anxiety is killing me i donot know how iwill survive university BUT I WILL SOMEHOW!!!!!!

meds are not even having that much effect anymore and i hate taking them

i hope to stop venting so much here i know nobody reads this but if someone [someday for somereason] reads this i want it to be more a recording of the making of my story than just my feelings oh look how i am sad bla bla.

this is supposed to be the drawings that appear when people talk. it almost looks like an above waist picture idonotknow not exactly the waist too. i will make more and also do with the other clothes that appear in the other days too and color it but this will take time. if i make too many i may not ever be finishing this shit, but if i make too little it will not represent and show everything i want it to represent and show.

also offtopic but i want to create a website so i donot need to be dependents of a social media of anykind. thank you for your patience.

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[xiqu1n]

Ihave been drawing Liz more and more sad/weird/anxious every time. maybe somewhat reflecting myself. i feel bad for her though. i cannot bring myself to do this with any other character because it seems no one will ever understand her.

but thatis not true, why would there be no one that understands her???? who said that?????

i hope she is able to find comfort one day. with herself being herself and not feeling prohibited to be herself. somewhat this is the same towards me. i know i should stop doing these bad things that i do and try to ignore the bad feelings but itis easier said than done.

i really hope the future is bright. for the both of us.

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[xiqu1n]

what is going to be of me?

i donot know how to act. iam awkward at public. i feel my hands cold and trembling and my vision blurry and my stomach hurting. every moment.

uni starts at 19 or 20 idonotknow of this month, February, and i still donot know how to be and how to act. apparently itis okay if i use a notebook and pen but idonotknow if others also do this and i donot wanna do that alone itwill be awkard.

poor liz, she doesnot deserve to suffer this. but, somehow, this makes me feel a little bit better

i try to solve my problems by giving them to fictional characters i create and see what happens. it may not work or help in any way but at least iam trying to get better and do something.

:/

[xiqu1n]

i should be working but insted i did this shit

iam scared of uni very scared very very scared iwill look ridiculous there

while thereis great people around me who are supporting me and congratulating me for becoming a university student, thereis only 3 or 4 who make me feel worse and worse, even with they donot knowing that theyare doing it so, even with they donot even knowing iam in uni now, it just makes me doubt more and more my choices. "yea you good.. but my child is absolutely better" "yea thatis awesome.. but all private education suck ass so fuck you" D: what did i even do?!?!

maybe iam just overreacting

did they really said that or am i exaggerating??? lying so people feel pity for me because thereis nothing else to me than oh thatis really bad ohhh thatis really sad poor you

i cannot even draw properly now my hand is just be getting worse and hurting more

what if thereis a idonotknow project that i have to do for uni and that project is shown like publicly ohmygot if i make something HSIN related itwill be so shameful and awful and

wujwkwoaushsjsjaiwiwjnwksissi

i have to work bye bye byeee byeeeeeeeeeeee merry christmas

:(

[xiqu1n]

their height difference wasnot supposed to be this big..

today it was very difficult to draw Sasha iam not sure why, usually i can draw her with ease ;(

anyways iam a uni student now!!!!!!!!! the classes start february 20th apparently

oh iam so nervous boy.. i look like and act like and speak like a dumb dumbster loser child, and the people there will already look like their age, while i never changed past 12-13 :( i donot know how to act and what to do, will it be okay if i have write in a notebook? or does it have to be a laptop??? iam scared as hell

not much hell yea right now

but yea

hell yea will eventually come

and my course is design !!! i hope to get something more specific in character design or concept art someday .....

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the name of the game is going to be HallowSin, the short version is HSIN bytheway

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[xiqu1n]

lookathemmmmmmmmmm

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[xiqu1n]

thatis ken

his full name is Kenshin Fairburn

heis Lizs left side neighbor

thereis not much i can tell about him at this time

he has a cute 5 year old sister Emi that Liz calls Emimi

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[xiqu1n]

あけおめ!

this was a lesson from my japanese classes, and i also send it for a nengajo contest [a nengajo (年賀状) is a new years card tradition in japan, usually related to the next year's chinese zodiac animal]

i hope i get at least a mention for my entry in the contest !!!

[xiqu1n]

ugly drawing of Sasha i made some time ago on a roblox game

the drawing itself is ugly not Sasha; sasha is always beautiful

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[xiqu1n]

happy kurisumasu

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[xiqu1n]

hello

ive posted this on twitter but im posting this here too

because too much of a cutie to not post it here

cutie cute

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[xiqu1n]

today at bioligy class i had to draw some stuff and so i had to draw a representation of hemophilia, and for some reason i felt like drawing Sasha so i did it.

i donot think she would be hemophilic or something but thinking now this could actually be canon

i also thought of making Eliza (the main characther, if you donotknow) colorblind, because colorblindness is about four times more common in man than woman because itis a genetic condition that passes through the sex chromossome. Iam not jyouzu at this so pleasw donot kill me. I just wanted to make a colorblind characther i think idonotknow

i just know that iam postinf too much today

who let the doggos out yessirrrrr

iam gonna stop byebyebittibybye

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[xiqu1n]

Lizzie ( * - *)b

idonotknow why i wrote the other words in there i think i just found them cool i guess

the coloring is bad because i made it in class in the dark because we were watching a movie (not me though i was drawing xd

the photo is also shit so i donot think i can convince anyone with this fuckass drawing poop piss picture

anyway sheis cute isnot she????? Sheis cutie

also i wrote the month wrong it is december not july iam sorry for my dumbness

next week is going to be the last week of high school classes of my entire life and i cannot wait to it be over already. I had some problems with work too (" -_-) i couldnot finish 9 full pages of translation in a week, i had to take more 4 days to finish it, so the next really obvious thing to do is to give me full 20 pages and a half :D to finish in seven days :D a week :D itis so obvious like :D but now things got resolved and iam going to do only a 3 page document that i just started but iam already tired and sleepy (maybe because i went to sleep late but thatis not the matter...........

with that my only statement is:

hotto doggu

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[xiqu1n]

ok i really love my girl

but deciding a name for this creature is hard

really hard

main options rightnow: Elizabeth, Charlotte, Cassandra, Darcy

Elizabeth means "my God is an oath" and is a hebrew name. It is a biblical name, so itis really popular, and can be written and changed in different ways, my favorites are Elisabet (biblical greek), Elisabeth (biblical latin), Lisbeth (german), Elizabeta/Elisabeta (portuguese) and Elsy (south american spanish). I think this name fits the caracther and i really like just that nothing more

Charlotte is the french feminine diminutive of the name Charles, that means "man" (just tha. really.) but it might also mean "army", considering it derived from the germanic name harjaz. I had a cat named Charlotte beacuse of a big gacha life youtube channel in brazil called Charlotte that liked a comment i made 2 days before getting the cat (she was a surprise! i didnt know i was getting a cat!) and shes beautiful but she ssadly passed away this year, since 2 years ago she went to live at my moms parents house because we had moved into an apartment and she wouldnot like to live in a cramped space :(, she liked to hunt and give me dead animals as gifts :D thank you Charlotte !

Cassandra is a greek name (written as kassandra in greek) that means "the one who shines and excels over men" which rocks like that meaning is sick brooo. I really like Cassie too. But i think this seems to much like her neighbors name, Carmela

Darcy is a french name that comes from the french surname "from Arcy (region in the north of france)", but the name itself can also mean "dark-haired" or "descendant of the dark one" from irish. I really like this name but itis hard to use. Joan of darc rocks !!!

i think iam going with Elizabeth for now..

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