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[xlainia]

genuinely how do u guys deal with hypoglycemia while fasting? on my first day at 12 pm my blood sugar was 0.45 g/l so I HAD to eat smth so i can drive safely how do i fix that 😭

[xlainia]

hey guys so this is so off topic but is it valid to break up w my bf bc he didn't get me a gift on my bday??

[xlainia]

i genuinely hate myself bc why did my boyfriend make a "joke" about an earthquake happening if i jump he swears it was just a joke but he KNOWS how much i'm insecure about my body

[xlainia]

no way i've been here for three years and GAINED weight since that talk about failure lol (please don't bully me)

[xlainia]

how do u guys fast when u have to study and be productive? i can't even get up but if i eat i'm gonna feel even worse abt myself i'm stuck and i have 423 slides to memorise in two days i'm cooked

[xlainia]

i can't even look in the mirror anymore i feel like a fat gross monster cosplaying a girl maybe if i lose weight i'd feel like i'm real?

[xlainia]

guys i need to get back on track i'd post my weight and ask u to bully me into 🌟ving but i'll end up kms lowkey lol

[xlainia]

i've been binging FOR MONTHS bc my scale died i wanna go buy batteries today and I'm genuinely frightened to see how much i weight but i NEED this reality check

[xlainia]

guys please help i can't do this anymore i'm stuck in a restricting and binging cycle i tried everything lowering my cal intake little by little distracting myself there's always the same ending i end up binging for weeks and only notice when it's too late and lose the same 2 kgs then it happens again it's frustrating i need to be locked up with no food for weeks pls kidnap me

[xlainia]

don't get me wrong i love the feeling when i'm not eating BUT at the same time i hate myself i get super irritated very easily i can't focus on anything i start hating everything and everyone and all i think about is how i'm gonna hate myself when i ruin everything and binge i'm stuck in this loop i just wanna disappear

[xlainia]

guys i MIGHT have ruined everything the last two days ..but i'm back on track today however i blame the scale it ran out of battery and i have no idea where to buy those round batteries (it's not the scale's fault but oh well)

[xlainia]

random vent sorry but like why don't i have any friends it's my first year at college and i have no one not even old friends no one i feel so lonely , am i really this unlovable? why does everyone abandon me what do i do wrong and how can i fix it i swear i always try to be a nice person a good friend but it doesn't work i give up

[xlainia]

a month from now i HAVE to be skinnier than the girls in my class i can't even stand existing in the same room as them i feel so ashamed i was supposed to be skinny by now, but oh well.

[xlainia]

it's either i lose weight or i invent an invisibility cloak, it hurts that the second one feels more realistic

[xlainia]

as long as i'm not skinny i would never feel "girl enough" , like everyone can see my fat arms and stomach it makes me feel gross

[xlainia]

i need to fall in love asap to have something to distract me from food , it'd be better if he breaks my heart too so i can blame it on me being fat as motivation instead of me being a horrible person (it's both)

[xlainia]

honestly what's the point of living at this point, no matter what i do i end up binging and my skin has been breaking out for more than 2 years everytime i get happy a pimple is gone 3 more appear and they all scar , my body is horrendous and so is my face i can't even go out anymore i give up. but yk what hurts more i used to be pretty.