Unspoken thoughts.

21 || This is where I spill out my thoughts.

[nightlyquotes]

“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”

— Unknown

[perfectquote]

“I hope one day we can forgive each other for not being what we wanted each other to be”

— Kriti G.

[nightlyquotes]

“It hurts every day, the absence of someone who was once there.”

— Marie Lu, Champion

[emobanana22]

What if you wake up one morning and you’re in bed with the love of your life and they have their arm around you and their snoring like a fucking ass hole, but you can’t help but to smile and you hear a baby crying and it finally hits you, you’ve made it. you beat the demons inside you, the voices, the darkness. I look forward to that, to knowing I made it.

[canyoufeelmyxheart-blog]

this deserve so many notes

[xnahooeyx]

Shared this 6 years ago & welp, here I am today... all i wanted was to beat the demons, & the life I live today was my biggest dream six years ago. So grateful.

[cakemakethme]

Terry Crews coming in with some wisdom

[addictedtothe-thrill]

Flip your phone upside down

[starwarsgraphictee]

worth it

[trestyoselfchris-deactivated201]

I’m high rn and I just experienced pure joy

[xnahooeyx]

November 23, 2018

Happy Black Friday & Merry Thanksgiving. Just want to write an appreciation post about my best friend. It’s been an incredibly busy few weeks filled with road trips & nonstop meetings, followed by such an amazing two days spending time with your family & our chosen family. I am so looking forward to spending every Thanksgiving with our best friends singing karaoke until an ungodly hour of the night, although in the future, more of us will be free & not having to work the next day. Tonight, we went to a Jazz club for the first time ever and had a great night on & off the dance floor. I know I’m the most awkward dancer humanly possible & you’re the complete opposite, but you love & uplift me anyway & I appreciate you for that. Thank you for the last two days. Thank you for taking an endless amount of selfies with me in your car until I got just the right lighting, even though I never got it. Thank you for driving us through an hour of Black Friday traffic to the mall, and making a rap song about how all I ever want to do is sleep. & then when I got tired from the drive, thank you for not judging me for always being tired but instead holding my hand and taking a nap with me in your car in the Clackamas Mall parking lot. You know you found the one when they take a nap with you in a sketchy mall parking lot. Some of our best memories have been in your car. I thank you for how much you’ve been available for me & for always reminding me how much you love me, through both your words & your actions. A day doesn’t go by without me thinking to myself about how grateful I am to do life with you.

[kushandwizdom]

A sudden urge to value and prioritise your time, followed by an unexpected loss of love for the spaces you once occupied, is an indication that you’re outgrowing your old self.

Meggan Roxanne

[thegoodvybe]

[bitchycode]

‪What part of “i don’t wanna spend anymore money” don’t I understand

[singsongstardust]

Literally

[latenights]

if someone makes you happy, make them happier

[xnahooeyx]

November 6th, 2018

Returning to work after spending a weekend in Denver with you has been so hard, but it does make it easier knowing it’s temporary and that in the next 12 months, you & I will both be free. I still can’t believe this is our life. Traveling the country, blessing different people in different markets, always growing ourselves, smoking cigars & sipping on expensive drinks with the greatest & wealthiest friends, & falling more in love every day. I can’t believe how in love with you I am. I’ve genuinely never felt this way about anyone. It’s funny how we go through bouts of love and hurt throughout our life & we swear every time that we won’t love another the same way. & I guess to an extent, that’s true. I don’t love you the way I have loved others & I won’t ever love another the way I love you. The things you did three months ago that I wanted to change so bad are now things I can’t imagine living without. I love each & every thing about you & who you are. When Mike told Brad that you and I are dating & Brad asked if we were going Diamond, there was no doubt in my mind that we were going to make Brad so proud on our journey. We are going to earn the respect of the men & women we respect & be apart of the most exclusive club in the world. I just can’t wait for our lives to start and to do life with you. Thank you for all that you have given me. I’m so blessed to call you mine.

[kingkumaaa]

When the whole party is down but your bard is up

[xnahooeyx]

October 22nd, 2018

One month ago, I was sure we’d never be here. Two months ago, I would have bet someone $1 million if they said this is where we’d end up. Our time together has been the craziest, most adventurous ride of my life and I know that the adventure has just begun. Time & time again, our God shows me that He truly has a plan all along. I’m so excited to see where the next 12 months will take us. I’m so grateful for our journey. I’m so grateful our story doesn’t have to end.

[xnahooeyx]

August 21st, 2018

Although I wish you could be here right now, I think I am doing okay. It’s been officially 5 days of not seeing you and during the day to day grind, it hasn’t been super hard to keep you off my mind. But during those quiet drives where it’s just me and Jesus, I always catch your name slipping off my lips. Although our experience was far from what we had both imagined it would ever be, I have to say, I am just so thankful it was me. From the first night sitting in your car until 6am innocently holding hands to the last night sitting in your car pouring our hearts out, I am just so thankful it was with you. I am so thankful I got to experience the last few months with you, laughing about the weirdest things, picking at each other’s self images, saying grace at every meal, worshipping our Father together, holding each other through the painful moments, fighting through all of our differences, and crying together when we both knew it had to come to an end. I’m so thankful to have known a love as real & raw as yours. I feel so undeserving to have been so perfectly loved through such an imperfect relationship. I don’t know that you and I were ever truly meant to be together. I think we both knew that God has called on us to do greater things separately. And as much as it hurts to think about you moving on and advancing in your life without me, if I had to go back and choose between having the relationship again exactly as it was, flaws and everything in between, or not having had it at all, I would choose to have it again, over and over. I will never regret you. Thank you for loving me through all my wounds and showing me what it means to put someone else’s wellbeing before your own. Your selflessness has completely changed my heart, & there will always be love in it for you.

[xnahooeyx]

July 18, 2018

Another day of extreme personal growth... I love my life so much, even through the deepest valleys. It’s been a whole year and I’m nowhere near where I want to be but I am light years ahead of where I used to be. I’m so thankful for the grace & patience of those who love me.

[xnahooeyx]

April 4, 2018

The last few weeks have been a catastrophic mess emotionally for both of us, but amongst the chaos, I’ve caught myself getting attached to you. No matter what happens, I’m grateful to you for saving me, freeing me & loving me. How blissful it is to be loved by you. 💞