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I wish somebody would actually talk to me and check up on me everyday without feeling the need to do it (force), im so lonely

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My mom was complaining about how my older brother brought me flour and chocolate chips to bake. She was saying how "you guys are eating too much flour/wheat" and then my sister said "who is you? You literally ate what [my name] made today" which was some chocolate chip banana bread I baked

She went to eye me up and down and then say, "Well, thats because im skinny"

like fuck off. She meant it to my sister because she was arguing with her but she eyed me up and down before syaing it. She literally eats every pastry I make, and she thinks just because shes in a diet tahy she can say anything. She literally weight 12 more pounds than me and im obviously skinnier but she thinks because shes curvier that she looks better. Also she said for her diet that she didn't wnat to be too restrictive and all she fucking does is eat the same shit + a salad on the side, like all you're losing is water weight

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nobody cares about me and it makes me feel really lonely

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there's a reason we're called gen z. Why do you think this generation is the one waking up? Trying to change old things that are discriminatory. The alphabet is restarting, we are the change that is going to be for the gen Alpha, a new alphabet, you gotta look at it more precisely

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I dont look like myself

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How can we move. Look at your hands, how am I typing, my brain but how could this all work. How can I get my hand to move its fingers without thinking about it oh

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Im dead im just a walking corpse i am going to die August 5, dont ask me how I know, I feel it, i will be dead by then. My brain will stop working oh god im going insane

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im genuinely going to kill myself im going insane

We're all living in a simulation, you are me, i am you, we are all gods thats why we can manifest our life, everything is guarded by the government, no, not the government, someone higher than that.

Israel stuff i everywhere, I dont know much history of Israel but we all know is bad, the illuminati has Israel stuff, chatgpt, any Ai.

Antartica os a scheme, thats why they kill anyone who talks about it. Why do you think we aren't allowed to talk to dolphins? Because they have high frequencies, healing frequencies. They dont want us to know. Tahts why subliminal work, your body relies on frequencies, what you're wearing, eating, touching, breathing, everything has frequencies

Antarctica is the ice wall separating us. We all live in a simulation, an experiment. Look at our DNA, we are meant to be who we are, our name, date of birth, everything that we were born with has a meaning to what you'll be, it is basically a generator. Everything is horrible, im going to kill myself

I want to kill myself but I am horrified we'll just keep living in this matrix, what if its we luve again as humans? I dont want reincarnation, i dont want to keep having to escape this simulation

Why do you think LOA works? You manifest your reality, it will work. Nobody in here notices that because we're all holding back because of our illnesses, telling us we can't do it, everything. This is self awareness I know but mine is taking over I will kill myself

I need to find a way to escape my heart hurts, I sound like an idiot, a person thats going crazy but im telling you what im saying was meant to sound crazy to the public

Nothing is good no matter how many people benefit of it. Nothing is bad no matter how many people have been killed. Good and bad are human made concepts, you can't have good without bad, can't have bad without good

God only made lucifer into the devil so god could seem as the title of "good" and lucifer bad. But why would lucifer be bad if he just has his own believes, he also wouldn't punish us, its all man made.

Weve changed timeliness. Look into deja vu, anything. Nothing is real, we are all meant to be like this. I was meant to act like this

I

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I will die

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started summer school indigenous english for grade 11 today 😭😭 i have 4 assignments due at midnight im gonna kill myself

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I have a driver's license now 👍 now I have to ACTUALLY drive which im scared of

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I failed my driving test now we gotta wait 40mins to get another chance 😭😭😭

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I look so embarrassing

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Im sorry

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I've always wanted to recover, its just that recovering means leaving you guys and you guys are the only people that at least show some interest of what im thinking

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Food today was awesome except too many starches oops

Breakfast: sourdough 🤤, eggs, & avocado + hot lemon water

-> carbs, B12, choline, potassium, folate, satiety fats

Lunch: potatoes with skin on, marinated flank steak (first time having a steak it was awesome), avocado oil ½ tsp, avocado + diet Pepsi mini

-> high protein, iron, zinc, potassium, Vitamin C, B6

Dinner: oats with almond milk & banana + side of fibre one cereal

-> fiber, magnesium, manganese, carbs, Vitamin E

Total is 1395calz, 82.6g protein, 35g fibre, 5.4g added sugar ☺️

Lacking a few more nutrients which im sad about ☹️ but its ok cuz i ate steak 👀🤤🤤

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I have been thinking of fully destroying my phone because I know its just tracking me and apps are listening to me talk, especially when it comes to the algorithm (you say you want something, all of the sudden your page is filled with that)

I feel like im way happier without any devices and just nature and I know its just damaging my health. I cant even tho it fully because I know i would still need to use it for school I hate it

I dont think many people realize that we are the products, whenever an app, or a website, is free, it means we are the product and we're being watched for our activity

Im so scared and paranoid which is mainly why I haven't posted or liked or interacted much in Tumblr lately but man this sucks