Winn Schott

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"I've spent my entire life trying to fight off the part of me that's like my dad, but now, now I can use it." Indi Winn Schott rp blog

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Yeah, but not for being a reporter?

—Kara, Supergirl, “Welcome to Earth”

A few days ago might as well be a lifetime of knowing her. Somehow Kara fit perfectly into his life, opening up the possibility of staying rather than running off to Santa Fe as if there he could find something that held more meaning than the girl standing right in front of him.

Winn’s head ducked down – yet a smile remained. “Yeah, but I’ve never met anyone like you before. You and me might not seem right to a lot of people, like your father… I just know I feel like I can be myself when I’m around you.”

The mention of her father made her cringe a little. Kara never cared about what her stepfather thought of her endeavours. She was legally allowed to come and go from the house whenever she pleased, but life as a young woman in the late 1800s was difficult. Until she got married, Kara was forced to live in the confines of a home with a stepfather who didn't care and a stepmother who was too timid to speak up. With the excitement of a new century around the corner, she was hopeful that things would change, and they could be together without judgment.

Kara quickly caught his words of endearment, and she forgot about her stepfather. Smiling at him, she crossed her arms in front of her, blushing at how kind he was. "Winn.." He finally was able to make her speechless. "I think you finally succeeded in making me speechless for once." Her tone was playful as she wrapped her arms around his neck.

Although Winn liked to think he knew the right thing to say or himself the daring type, living on the streets (or the lodging house if he managed to gain the funds) put in him the lower bracket in the self-esteemed department. He grew up selling papers. A father in jail and a mother an unknown distance away. Not exactly much of a life he could offer to a woman. Kara deserved someone worthy of her stature, not him. But knowing her as he did, she wasn’t prone to live the way those around her expected her to.

“It had to happen eventually,” Winn offered in reply, soon overtaken by the warmth of her body wrapped around his own. He wanted to take a picture of this moment in his mind and hold onto it forever. He pulled away, taking her hand in his. “I don’t know exactly what you expect from all of this, from us, but I don’t want to let you go.”

#ofrcgency #the feels are hitting me!!

“What else could I say. I’m in love with someone else? I probably should’ve been honest with her.” Winn smiled in return, however. It would very well end things between Karen and himself, but why let her keep believing a lie. “I wish it was that simple. Maybe we just weren’t ready back then. I never wanted to be the type of guy who kissed another woman when in another relationship either.” Guilt hit pretty hard in that particular aspect. “I know I should and I will. It’s just hard knowing it’s going to hurt her so much.” He placed his hand on her cheek, taking some strength from the contact, able to breath a bit easier as his feelings steadied amid the regret of taking so long to be honest. “I’ll come back once things settle down.”

Kara was never the type to think about the what-ifs. She never wanted to live with regret, but that was easier said than done. If she hadn't been afraid to tell Winn how she felt years ago, they could have saved themselves and even Karen from this torment. Kara walked him to the door and said goodbye with a wave, and wished him luck. She knew if she had kissed him goodbye or even hugged him, Winn's leaving would have been more difficult.

Waiting for his return felt like hours. She couldn't sit still long enough to relax with a book or watch a movie. Whenever she tried, she found herself pacing around her apartment, looking at her phone for a text from Winn— anything. Not even eating from the pint of ice cream in her freezer helped. Either he had second thoughts and decided to— STOP IT, KARA. Winn wouldn't do that, and she felt ridiculous for even thinking it.

To say Karen took it badly was and extreme understatement. She yelled, she cried and all the while Winn felt like a complete jerk for putter her through such an emotional roller-coaster. But she deserved better than marrying a guy who couldn’t put his whole heart into their relationship. And he knew, despite how much it hurt on his end, it was the right decision. Hopefully, in time Karen would see it too. Forgiveness, however, he didn’t expect.

She rightfully kicked him out. He took the fresh air as a good enough escape. The argument tore into him a little too deeply but Kara was waiting for him. Her apartment rested a mere block away and while he walked slowly, he eventually reached her door. He knocked regardless of knowing his arrival was an anticipated one. Seeing her face would put everything into perspective again.

#ofrcgency #your reply was so good!!!!!!!!!!

A tickling sensation of warmth spread across his cheek where she kissed him, the feelings burning for a few prolonged moments as she started to ascend up the ladder. “Yeah, no need to worry about me,” Winn replied once he began following from behind. His eyes were fixated on the rungs themselves despite having made the climb many times in the past. Once he set his feet on solid ground (so to speak) his nerves nearly disappeared. “It's the view amazing? Not only can you see the whole city, but it helps me forget about my troubles down there on the streets. Sometimes I think about Santa Fe while I’m looking out... Although, lately my thoughts have been stuck on you.”

After seeing the view of the city from other areas, Kara thought she had seen it all. She was silent for a moment upon hearing his question and just smiled at the horizon. It was beautiful, and with the sun setting, she wasn't ignoring how romantic it was to be up with him either.

His words, however, made Kara blush as she smiled. "Oh? And to think we only just met a few days ago."

A few days ago might as well be a lifetime of knowing her. Somehow Kara fit perfectly into his life, opening up the possibility of staying rather than running off to Santa Fe as if there he could find something that held more meaning than the girl standing right in front of him.

Winn’s head ducked down – yet a smile remained. “Yeah, but I’ve never met anyone like you before. You and me might not seem right to a lot of people, like your father… I just know I feel like I can be myself when I’m around you.”

He nodded in agreement to her statement, pretending do debate on their intended location once asked. “Just one of my favorite places,” Winn answered as he started to lead the way. He made a few turns before approaching one of the taller buildings in the area. “I hope you don’t mind climbing fire escapes. Trust me, the view from up there is amazing. You can see everything.” Winn possessed a minor fear of heights, but he figured as long as they didn’t linger too close to the edge, he’d be fine.

"Fire escape? I'm afraid I wore the wrong dress to climb up such a thing." A smirk pulled at the corner of her lips, for she was clearly teasing him. She never had much of an issue with heights. For Kara, a little adventure excited her, especially when she lived in a home that felt more like a cage. Taking this moment to kiss his cheek, Kara smiled up at him before climbing the escape. In terms of safety, she was relieved that her skirt wasn't long enough to be a tripping hazard, which made the climb easier for her. "Are you doing okay down there?" Kara asked as she finally reached the top.

A tickling sensation of warmth spread across his cheek where she kissed him, the feelings burning for a few prolonged moments as she started to ascend up the ladder. “Yeah, no need to worry about me,” Winn replied once he began following from behind. His eyes were fixated on the rungs themselves despite having made the climb many times in the past. Once he set his feet on solid ground (so to speak) his nerves nearly disappeared. “It's the view amazing? Not only can you see the whole city, but it helps me forget about my troubles down there on the streets. Sometimes I think about Santa Fe while I’m looking out... Although, lately my thoughts have been stuck on you.”

#ofrcgency #i need to watch newsies again #i also need this thread to be a real thing XD #or at least have jeremy and melissa do something else together

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SUPERGIRL || 1.03 FIGHT OR FLIGHT

He nodded, glad to hear her respond in agreement. “I’m not really sure how I’m going to tell her,” Winn mentioned, withholding a sigh. He was happy, of course, knowing Kara returned his feelings but the idea of hurting Karen caused a wave of guilt to hit. “I think she was always a little suspicious about my feelings for you. I denied it and I shouldn’t have. It was hard for me to see you date someone else too. I just wanted you to be happy.” That alone kept him silent on the matter.

"You denied it? Really?" Kara smiled. As much as she should have felt guilty for feeling happy at his admission, she couldn't help but feel relieved that he felt the same. Still, letting this continue was a bad idea that both of them would regret. "If only we had told each other how we felt long before now. We wouldn't be in this situation-- I wouldn't be the other woman I vowed never to be." Taking a deep breath, Kara nodded to herself. "You need to end it with her. If you stay here, Winn, it-- well, it won't end well. You should go."

“What else could I say. I’m in love with someone else? I probably should’ve been honest with her.” Winn smiled in return, however. It would very well end things between Karen and himself, but why let her keep believing a lie. “I wish it was that simple. Maybe we just weren’t ready back then. I never wanted to be the type of guy who kissed another woman when in another relationship either.” Guilt hit pretty hard in that particular aspect. “I know I should and I will. It’s just hard knowing it’s going to hurt her so much.” He placed his hand on her cheek, taking some strength from the contact, able to breath a bit easier as his feelings steadied amid the regret of taking so long to be honest. “I’ll come back once things settle down.”

#ofrcgency #i love them so much #we can do a time skip to when winn comes back if you want

Her hesitation caused a fluttering sensation in his stomach – nerves practically bouncing around on the inside. Winn thought for sure she’d turn him down in sake of preserving their friendship, wanting to take the risk only to shy away from it.

“You want this?” Winn asked, his surprise morphing into a smile. “I was terrified about saying anything at all. But then we kissed and it was the most amazing thing. I need to end things with Karen before we go any further. I wouldn’t feel right otherwise.”

Kara couldn't help but laugh as she shoved his left shoulder playfully. "Of course I want this, Winn. Are you kidding? Seeing you with Karen when you two first started dating was hard on me. I had to pretend I felt nothing at work... I've wanted this for so long." His smile made her own grow in return as she cupped his cheek before nodding in agreement. "I was also going to suggest that. We already crossed a line. I want to respect her enough to not dig this hole even deeper."

He nodded, glad to hear her respond in agreement. “I’m not really sure how I’m going to tell her,” Winn mentioned, withholding a sigh. He was happy, of course, knowing Kara returned his feelings but the idea of hurting Karen caused a wave of guilt to hit. “I think she was always a little suspicious about my feelings for you. I denied it and I shouldn’t have. It was hard for me to see you date someone else too. I just wanted you to be happy.” That alone kept him silent on the matter.

#ofrcgency #feeeeeeeeeeeeeels

Winn shrugged off the guy’s comment. If a woman was able to protect herself and others, why consider it a demeaning quality on the man’s part? Though, he supposed most people were like that. Always thinking less of girls and too high of themselves. After all, Kara being a reporter threw off many. Winn saw it as an interesting change – a much needed one at that. Luckily, the guy took off. Because really, he wasn’t entirely sure how well things would’ve ended.

He practically melted into her touch, wishing for it since they parted from one another last night. The kiss sent a wave of sparks through his body, rooting him in place. “Some guys just don’t realize when they’re not wanted,” Winn mentioned, glad to be free of the small gang. “I think I know the perfect place.” He offered his hand before leading the way.

Laughing, Kara nodded in agreement. "Especially when guys act more like spoiled children with their need to cause trouble." Even though a crime had been committed, Kara didn't want to report it to the police. After all, neither of them seemed to have any concerning injuries, but it was still concerning how kids on the streets would react this way. In a way, Kara felt more sorry for them than angry or frustrated. "Oh? And where exactly are you taking me?" Kara asked, smiling.

He nodded in agreement to her statement, pretending do debate on their intended location once asked. “Just one of my favorite places,” Winn answered as he started to lead the way. He made a few turns before approaching one of the taller buildings in the area. “I hope you don’t mind climbing fire escapes. Trust me, the view from up there is amazing. You can see everything.” Winn possessed a minor fear of heights, but he figured as long as they didn’t linger too close to the edge, he’d be fine.

#ofrcgency #i also forgot #but i'm just going with it #i've missed this thread a lot!

When Kara reassured him of her feelings, his heartbeat sped up. Maybe if things worked out differently neither one of them would’ve dated another. But Winn couldn’t backtrack and fall into a void of questions. What mattered was right now – this very moment. But were they being selfish? After all, he was still engaged.

Winn’s feet came to a halt as he took in her words. “A part of me would always love Karen but it’s not the same type of love. And it took me until right now to realize the difference. It’s more like a deep care.” He paused, wondering if he explained it well enough. “You’re not the other women, not even a little. If you want this, want us, I’ll end things with her.”

Kara hesitated. She was about to make a life-altering decision: accept him and grow closer together, or say no to it all and risk a friendship being over. What would hurt her more would be a life without him in it.

Once she decided on what her heart was telling her, Kara smiled and nodded to herself. "I want us, Winn. I think... deep down, well, I've always wanted it. I was just too afraid to make the first move."

Her hesitation caused a fluttering sensation in his stomach – nerves practically bouncing around on the inside. Winn thought for sure she’d turn him down in sake of preserving their friendship, wanting to take the risk only to shy away from it.

“You want this?” Winn asked, his surprise morphing into a smile. “I was terrified about saying anything at all. But then we kissed and it was the most amazing thing. I need to end things with Karen before we go any further. I wouldn’t feel right otherwise.”

A small part in the back of Winn’s mind was telling him he didn’t deserve Karen or Kara’s love. Not only for the cheating but a much deeper reason regarding his father. While he knew they were nothing alike – he still hadn’t really faced his past head on. Kara was so full of light, always shining beautifully like a ray of sunshine. Whereas Winn felt as if he could dissolve into another version of Toyman somewhere down the line.

But both women saw through that darkness and it made it a little less scary. He stood in place as Kara finally looked in his direction and yeah, her beauty still radiated in rays of light, which almost distracted him from her next string of words.

“You love me too?” Winn took a moment to let the sentiment sink in. “I don’t feel right marrying Karen when I’m in love with someone else. But I also don’t want her to hurt her either.” He paused before taking a few steps forward. “We could be together if I end things… If you want to be together, I mean.”

"I do," Kara replied as she assured him of her feelings while a brief smile appeared on her face. Still, it felt wrong to be happy, so she shook off her feelings instead. Nothing in the world would make her happier than walking through life with him, but she couldn't get over how she had become the 'other woman' so easily—selfishly.

Despite Winn taking a few steps forward, her feet remained frozen. "Winn, I-- I would love to be with you, to walk through the craziness of life with you... but I won't make you. I love you... but if you still love Karen... even a little bit, well, I-- I don't know... I don't like being in the middle of this, Winn. The other woman..."

When Kara reassured him of her feelings, his heartbeat sped up. Maybe if things worked out differently neither one of them would’ve dated another. But Winn couldn’t backtrack and fall into a void of questions. What mattered was right now – this very moment. But were they being selfish? After all, he was still engaged.

Winn’s feet came to a halt as he took in her words. “A part of me would always love Karen but it’s not the same type of love. And it took me until right now to realize the difference. It’s more like a deep care.” He paused, wondering if he explained it well enough. “You’re not the other women, not even a little. If you want this, want us, I’ll end things with her.”

#ofrcgency #hits me right in the feels XD

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SUPERGIRL || 1.02 STRONGER TOGETHER

Winn was momentarily at a loss of words. Their kiss proved she felt something for him – but the guilt for cheating on Karen slammed into his chest with a devastating force. He wasn’t the type of guy who acted on any feelings while in another relationship. Mostly because he shouldn’t love one woman while being with someone else.

He tried so hard to push those feelings aside and for the most part he managed to accept Kara’s relationship with Mike and his own with Karen. Maintaining their friendship meant everything to him. Winn couldn’t handle losing their strong connection, hence the silence. Until now.

“That’s the problem,” he answered in a near whisper. Winn looked at her, taking in the expression resting on her face. “Of course, I love Karen. I wouldn’t have asked her to marry me if I didn't. But it’s not the same type of love I’ve always had for you.”

Kara couldn't understand why she wasn't overjoyed by this news. To hear someone say how much they loved her when she felt their love in return was everything she dreamt of. She had given up long ago that he could never love her, and now she was full of regret with her past self for not making her feelings known before he was engaged to someone else.

"I probably shouldn't say this either..." Kara sighed as she slowly looked in his direction. "I have always wanted you to say those words to me. I just gave up hoping this day would come. I-- I thought I had moved on and forgot about those feelings once I meant Mike. I-- I didn't."

Closing her eyes for a moment, shaking her head knowing the next sentence would make and break their friendship... Kara spoke again. "I have always loved you, Winn. I still do... but there's nothing we can do about that right now, right?"

A small part in the back of Winn’s mind was telling him he didn’t deserve Karen or Kara’s love. Not only for the cheating but a much deeper reason regarding his father. While he knew they were nothing alike – he still hadn’t really faced his past head on. Kara was so full of light, always shining beautifully like a ray of sunshine. Whereas Winn felt as if he could dissolve into another version of Toyman somewhere down the line.

But both women saw through that darkness and it made it a little less scary. He stood in place as Kara finally looked in his direction and yeah, her beauty still radiated in rays of light, which almost distracted him from her next string of words.

“You love me too?” Winn took a moment to let the sentiment sink in. “I don’t feel right marrying Karen when I’m in love with someone else. But I also don’t want her to hurt her either.” He paused before taking a few steps forward. “We could be together if I end things… If you want to be together, I mean.”

#ofrcgency #the feels are real!!!#the conversation just got more serious lol

Winn almost wanted to shout at her to go – not because he believed Kara couldn’t take care of herself but he was afraid of her getting hurt. Those who lived on the streets weren’t exactly known as pushovers. “I’ll be fine,” he tried to tell her despite the pain throbbing on his cheek. It surprised him to hear Kara speak in such a threatening manner and she even brought the police into the mix. He attempted to make a move when the boy lunged, yet it seemed like there was no need. She quite literally smacked the other with a pipe. Winn never even seen her take hold of it, then again, his eyes hardly left the one cornering them just in case things took a turn for the worse. Then next thing he knew, they were taking off. Winn turned to look at Kara. “I guess you were the one protecting me this time. Are you okay?” He needed to hear her say the words, if only to calm his racing heart, which wasn’t fear induced from the boys, he simply couldn’t shake the worry clinging to his chest. Kara matter more to him than anyone’s ever have.

Kara was nervous once everyone but the leader of the pack left. The leader had to have been around her age for he was tall and seemed older than the other young boys with him. Would he really strike a woman? If he did, the wound would be great evidence to use against them to put the boys in jail immediately. "You won this round, lady. Pathetic letting a woman take care of ya." He said towards Winn's direction before running off.

Letting out a sigh of relief as she dropped the pipe, Kara smiled in his direction and nodded, cupping his cheek. "I'm fine. I'm just glad you're okay." She let out a soft chuckle before kissing him softly. "I came to meet up with you like I said I would, and they rudely interrupted us... so maybe we should find somewhere else to go that is not the streets."

Winn shrugged off the guy’s comment. If a woman was able to protect herself and others, why consider it a demeaning quality on the man’s part? Though, he supposed most people were like that. Always thinking less of girls and too high of themselves. After all, Kara being a reporter threw off many. Winn saw it as an interesting change – a much needed one at that. Luckily, the guy took off. Because really, he wasn’t entirely sure how well things would’ve ended.

He practically melted into her touch, wishing for it since they parted from one another last night. The kiss sent a wave of sparks through his body, rooting him in place. “Some guys just don’t realize when they’re not wanted,” Winn mentioned, glad to be free of the small gang. “I think I know the perfect place.” He offered his hand before leading the way.

#ofrcgency #i kind of forget where we were going with this one too XD #but that's okay #i love this thread too!!!!!

After the words left his lips, it felt as if each nerve ending started to vibrate – making him more nervous than ever. Was telling Kara the full truth worth ending his relationship with Karen? He loved her yeah, but was it the same kind of love he felt for the woman standing before him?

Well, he started so there was no turning back now. “I should have told you way before I started dating Karen but you were so happy with your boyfriend and I didn’t want to ruin that. Turns out he did anyway.” Pausing Winn took a deep breath, hesitantly taking a few steps forward. “The truth is... I’ve been in love with you for as long. I don’t even remember when it happened. The feelings just kind of crept up on me until it was the only thing I knew. And I know, that makes me a horrible person, telling you this now and I’m sorry. But you have the right to know.”

Kara's eyes widened when he finally confided in her. While she was surprised— shocked by the revelation, she was also relieved he felt the same way after finding out just how deep her roots were regarding her feelings. However, it appeared both parties involved made a mess of things.

She had denied her feelings for Winn since the beginning and over time, Kara ended up believing them to the point she thought she was in love with Mike. Had she accepted her feelings back when they were single, well... maybe things would have been different.

The awkward silence in her living room became too much for her now. After what felt like a century, Kara finally let out a breath and shook her head. " You love me? No.... You-- Winn... Karen. Wh-- what about Karen? ?"

Winn was momentarily at a loss of words. Their kiss proved she felt something for him – but the guilt for cheating on Karen slammed into his chest with a devastating force. He wasn’t the type of guy who acted on any feelings while in another relationship. Mostly because he shouldn’t love one woman while being with someone else.

He tried so hard to push those feelings aside and for the most part he managed to accept Kara’s relationship with Mike and his own with Karen. Maintaining their friendship meant everything to him. Winn couldn’t handle losing their strong connection, hence the silence. Until now.

“That’s the problem,” he answered in a near whisper. Winn looked at her, taking in the expression resting on her face. “Of course, I love Karen. I wouldn’t have asked her to marry me if I didn't. But it’s not the same type of love I’ve always had for you.”

#ofrcgency #i've been wanting to reply since you did #but i couldn't until now #!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SUPERGIRL || 1.01 PILOT

Winn couldn’t keep his thoughts from tumbling over one another. He kissed another woman while engaged to someone else. Didn’t that qualify him as a cheater? But it was Kara. The single person he fell for the moment the met – who he still had feelings for even now.

“That kiss never should’ve happened,” Winn agreed, unable to stop his voice from cracking. The guilt caused the sensation of butterflies to flutter in his stomach. But looking at her? His heart felt the need to remind him of its existence by thumping loudly against his chest. “There’s something I probably shouldn’t tell you…” He paused, debating on the admission. If stated he knew there was no going back to Karen. As if she’d even want him after that kiss. “I am happy but I’ve also been lying to you about how I really feel about you. How I’ve always felt.”

Kara was relieved he agreed with her because it should have never happened. The longer he stood in her apartment speaking to her about it, the more anxious she became and wanted to be alone.

"There's something I probably shouldn't tell you..."

For a moment, Kara forgot how to breathe and speak in response to that, and a long pause lingered. What would she say anyway? It was the continuation of his speaking that made words begin to form in Kara's anxious mind. "How you've always felt? I-- Winn, what are you saying... you can't mean that--" Kara couldn't finish her own thought and frantically shook her head as she turned away from him.

After the words left his lips, it felt as if each nerve ending started to vibrate – making him more nervous than ever. Was telling Kara the full truth worth ending his relationship with Karen? He loved her yeah, but was it the same kind of love he felt for the woman standing before him?

Well, he started so there was no turning back now. “I should have told you way before I started dating Karen but you were so happy with your boyfriend and I didn’t want to ruin that. Turns out he did anyway.” Pausing Winn took a deep breath, hesitantly taking a few steps forward. “The truth is... I’ve been in love with you for as long. I don’t even remember when it happened. The feelings just kind of crept up on me until it was the only thing I knew. And I know, that makes me a horrible person, telling you this now and I’m sorry. But you have the right to know.”

#ofrcgency #SAME!!!!!!!!!!#he said it omg XD #i've missed winnara more than I thought

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