Numb.

Make the thoughts stop.

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

The worse part: being almost two years clean, yet, recently, all that has been running through your mind is the persisting urge to make your skin flood with red.

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

Life’s crazy.

Just when you’ve gotten a grasp on reality, just when you’ve actually accustomed yourself to the way your road was mapped out, and feeling rather satisfied with its most recent outcomes... you had succefully climed out of a black pit, beaten and bruised from past events and memories. They started to scab over, finally, and you think “I can control this. I love this!”

Then, one sharp turn from the universe...and you’re right back into the black pit. Right back into the dark bloody massacre you once drowned in before.

Yeah.. life’s fucking crazy.

[apatheticfibs]

The problem with a mental illness is you can be fine for a while. Just completely and totally functional like a normal person. Then for no reason whatsoever you feel that overwhelming feeling of hopelessness, sadness, or worry. And it feels like you’re just back to square one. The sudden feeling that you don’t matter always comes back. The worst part is you can never explain to someone why, it’s just how your mind works.

[babyboy-dre]

Self harm is :

•making yourself sleep deprived •making yourself cold (not wearing warm clothes in the winter, sleeping without a blanket etc) •not eating •not drinking •eating too much •not looking before crossing the street •scratching •letting your skin be dry & break easily •picking at skin •over-exercising •substance abuse •over-working yourself •making yourself go out and do things even though you’re exhausted •putting yourself in anxiety-inducing situations (even if you have a choice to stay out of them) •triggering yourself •purposefully angering someone who you know will yell at you •entering relationships you don’t want to be in/being around people you don’t want to be around •having sex when you don’t want to •setting yourself punishments •not giving yourself time •not letting yourself spend time with the people you love & know will be good to you •yelling at yourself inside your head •pinching or bruising yourself instead of cutting •cutting •holding everything in even when you have the option of venting •over stressing •over thinking •staying in abusive relationships (friend wise or romantically)

STOP assuming that self-harm is visible and easy to notice. It’s NOT. Self harm isn’t always physical, it can be emotional, and mental as well

[iamquietlydrowning]

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

I decided I’m done.

I’m done all drained and numb.

I have no wish to die, nor a wish to stay

I just want to disappear, for it all to go away.

I’m done with the calories, the pain and the trauma.

I’m done with everything, especially my life drama.

I love you so much, happy your with me.

Which is why I can never tell you, or ever let you see just how damaged I can be.

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

via @extramadness

[letyourselfliveagain]

[love-317]

getyourfix.

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

Please

[br0ken-universe]

I can’t take it anymore. The waiting. The wanting. Something inside me snaps. I hate myself. I hate that I have to deal with this. I hate my life. And I hate how I can’t count on anyone to be completely there when I need them, exactly the way I need them to be.

Susane Colasanti (via br0ken-universe)

[queerlysad]

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

I found them The demons They were suppose to be hidden Away from my eyes, so I could not see I found them Please help me

[dr0wnmydem0ns-blog]

[e-hurt]

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

..I am.

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

I shouldn’t want the gashes, I shouldn’t want the sharp edge of a blade.

I shouldn’t want to drip red rubies, I shouldn’t want the self inflicted pain.

I shouldn’t want all these things…

But I want the relaxation they bring.

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

“But you, you’re special to me. When I’m with you I feel something is just right. I believe in you. I like you. I don’t want to let you go.” - Haruki Murakami

via @quotemadness

[xxannoyingmindsxx]

Always💕

[the-sad-boy]