sadness

my rain of thoughts

[ydoiwrite]

I tell myself "basi initial reaction ko lang ni" but you know what, hindi.

Sakit. You know why? You said hndi mo na pagliwat, yet you did. Ari man ko best in pati nga tuod. How could you nu?

[ydoiwrite]

He cheated on me.

[ydoiwrite]

There so much more than just being sad...

I hope I remember that.

[ydoiwrite]

I dreamt about taking care of a fish tank.

It was in my room, somewhere personal to me. I was taking care of fish, big and small, both were important to me. There were lots of them too many to count one by one. Then, one day, it broke because I was not too careful..

I was asking for my partner for help. He was helping and he was, but still upset.

[ydoiwrite]

She was always sad.

She didn't know why. She just is.

[maureen2musings]

fine_eye_imagery

[ydoiwrite]

Not talking when you have everything to say was the hardest...

[ydoiwrite]

Was she worth hurting me?

[ydoiwrite]

I was already dead.

Thought you were going to bring me back to life, but no.

You just threw me six feet deeper.

[ydoiwrite]

Was the thrill worth it when deep down you knew it was going to kill me inside?

[ydoiwrite]

You made me feel I was never enough,

... and I will never forget that.

[ydoiwrite]

You know that thing that you're so scared to let go is holding you back, the sooner you let go, hon, the happier you'll be.

I swear.

[ydoiwrite]

Jaro, Iloilo City 💝

[ydoiwrite]

Dear self,

We're happier now. Keep moving forward, we'll get there.

[ydoiwrite]

you do you,

for you.

[ydoiwrite]

Married and so fucking confused.

I tell you, this feels like i'm cursed or something.

[ydoiwrite]

Why did I let myself go?