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i like megumu a normal amount writing (AO3) art budew!

[yoshizora]

i actually never watched any backrooms videos but the movie was cool!

[yoshizora]

rainbow flag emoji

[yoshizora]

[yoshizora]

can you feel june approaching?

[yoshizora]

i haven't written anything in months and the feeling kinda fucking sucks especially when i run ideas and drafts through my head literally every day, and i used to slam it all out to the point where i was writing all the time, but i think something changed after a few stints in the fandom zine scene a few years back. suddenly i was surrounded by people who held fanfiction to literal academic standards and shredded apart writers who i had thought were perfectly decent, in the name of securing the "best of the best" for the sake of selling zines, and when i tried to push back and say these fandom projects shouldn't be so harsh on writing, i got diplomas and academic credentials waved in my face. and i realized that everything i know about writing is self-taught and i became so self-conscious about my own writing, i found myself doubting every single sentence and every single word i used, wondering if i was also not worthy enough in the eyes of these apparent academics.

it was all a bunch of bullshit, of course. it really should not fucking matter if you have a degree or not when you're writing about twinky anime boys making out in coffee shops. and that's the most frustrating part, i think, that i know that it was just a bunch of bullshit, and i always wrote what i write for my own self-gratification, but there remains this lingering thought that i'm not doing good enough for myself because i just don't understand what makes good writing good. i understand grammar. i understand proper formatting. and i have a million unwritten ideas piled up that i'm still simmering on the daily but it turns out that i just got kinda tired of second-guessing myself so i put my energy into other things to excuse myself from Just Writing.

[yoshizora]

momomegu

[yoshizora]

momomegu

[yoshizora]

i went to a drag show the other day and was given the highest privilege of witnessing nonbinary gollum in a balenciaga thong throwing it back for tips

[yoshizora]

the pokemon popup store at pudong airport is GONE and i am UPSET

[yoshizora]

mandai bird paradise!

[yoshizora]

budew at the sentosa oceanarium!

[yoshizora]

budew…….. in singapore 😳

[yoshizora]

momomegu

[yoshizora]

if anyone calls me "oomf" or "moot" to my face i will kill you

[genkyouhasegawa]

HA

[yoshizora]

i love the studio i go to because last week an older woman randomly started telling me about her dating disasters, completely unprompted, while she was sculpting miniature nude models. it was such a magical experience. i didn't find out what her name was until she left. i hope i get to see her again.

[yoshizora]

momomegu