Over You

Fun.Fresh.Fierce Biology Student - Pre Med 18 Years Existing ; Single ~Creative yet destructive~talented~outgoing~good friend~loving~caring~fighter~definitely naughty sweet ;)

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I'll surely miss you best! :'( you're the weirdest of them all. Too bad we havent seen each other since forever. Di na nasundan ang bestfriend day natin. :'( Thanks for the unique friendship we had. May you rest in peace. 04/07/92 - 08/18/16 #superhuman #engineerchinito #paeng

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The Waiting Game

We've been talking about going out at an after party on Nov. 30 months before. We were planning what to where, what to do, who to go with. 

It was just this week that I was reminded that NMAT examinations will be on Sunday, and the after party will be on Friday. I planned my schedule already to make ways for my plans. 

I asked my parents' permission to go out today. I really want to go. I really want to be with him tonight. Good thing I have considerate parents and they allowed me to go out even if its late.

I reviewed for NMAT the whole day so that at night I will be partying with him. I was planning to meet up with him the next day so that i will be relaxed for Sunday. 

It was 10pm, I started getting ready. I was so excited. I tried on a lot of dresses to wear this evening. I was ready at 11. I was waiting for him to call. He told me that the program hasn't finished yet. He told me he'd call again. The next phone call I receive from him was at 12am. He told me that the program was still on going. He said he'd call me back. I received his next call at 12:30. I was sleepy and tired. I wasn't comfortable because I was wearing a white dress and I have my make up on. He told me that our plans might not come along. I told him that its okay.

I waited for him. I was willing to wait for him cause he told me that even if the after party will not be held, we'll go out, just the two of us. I just got annoyed, frustrated, mad. I cried. I was sad. He said that he can come at home and stay even for a few minutes. I refused for him to come. I was mad at him. I don't want to see him. He knows that I don't like waiting. I don't want to get disappointed. I don't want to expect things that aren't gonna happen. I held on to hi words but I got disappointed. 

He apologized. I was tired. Annoyed, dressed up for nothing. Got excited for nothing. I was really tired. T_T

What a way to get to start this month.

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We just celebrated our first month as a couple. We went to Robinsons' Ermita to have lunch and watch a movie. We ate at Kenny Roger's and went to the cinema. Too bad that they are not showing Resident Evil at Midtown, so we decided to go at the Mall of Asia. We arrived early for the next showing so we hanged out at the concert hall. We went to buy our snacks then head back to the cinema to fall in line. We were the first person in line :))) It was the first time for us to be in front of the line since most of the movies we watch are blockbusters. After the movie, we head back home. This i where the real surprise happened.

I thought that we celebrated our first monthsary as a typical date. Movie, lunch, and the likes. I wasn't expecting to receive a surprise from him. I opened the fridge and saw a box of cake. I was from BREADTALK. So i thought that it is either from him or my aunt. That was his surprise for me. He bought me the cake I like. It was a larger version of the cake he bought me when we were getting comfortable with each other. I was so happy that I didn't know how to react. Nobody put an effort to make a surprise for me except him. Along with the cake, he gave me a love letter. I cried because I was so happy.

I asked him how  did he managed to place the cake on the fridge. He went on an adventure just to get the cake. He waited for 2 hours to get it yesterday. Today, he went to school just to pass his requirements and went to my house to put the cake in. He was holding the cake for at least 2 hours. He was worried that it will melt because it can stay in for at least 2-3 hours, but with the temperature here, it he be halved. When he got into the house, he was knocking for 10 mins. No one answered him, so he entered into the gate and knocked on the door. Still, there was no one answering. Good thing that my mom didn't locked the door.  He was able to come in and placed the cake in the fridge. There was a note that the cake is for me. The he went back to school. After a few moments I called him that we were dismissed early, so he rushed to my school to pick me up.

He did all these things for me. He put so much of his effort to surprise me. He is the only guy to do this for me. I can see and feel that his love for me is sincere. I really appreciate what this man i doing for me. My love for him will never fade. I can see that he has the guts to live up to me. I love him so much.

I love you so much Aljohn Salonga Pacasum! I will hold on to you till forever. I will never ever leave you or do anything to hurt you. I love you so much babe! :*

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You Got Me...

It was Friday. I was planning this day for months. I had my drawing, flowers, balloons and guitar ready. That morning, things didn't go so smoothly. We have to visit our best friend who was sick. Then, Yna, was having a fight with her boyfriend. Today was full of NEGATIVITY that I didn't need.

Yna and I took a taxi to Aljohn's house. We rested for a moment and waited for him to come home. My heart was pounding so hard. I was so nervous. Yna is with me to film the surprise and help me with the things to be set up. He was running late. I was nervous because I don't want him to spoil the surprise.

When I saw him coming, we scattered the balloons and rose petals I've prepared. I was so nervous that Yna had to finish it. I sat on a chair with my guitar and waited for him to open the gate. 

As the gate opened, I strummed the guitar, and began playing. I practiced this song for when this moment come, it would be perfect. I was disappointed because I wasn't able to serenade him perfectly. I was nervous. When he saw me, he kissed me and asked me what was I doing there. BLAH! He ruined my plan. I told him to stop talking and just watch and listen to me. I wasn't able to finish the song. He hugged me. I gave him my drawing as a sign of the beginning of our relationship. 

He had a lot of things running through his mind since he know that I wasn't going to be his girlfriend until next month. He knew that today was the day I wanted to have a relationship with him. He knelt down on his knees and asked me to be with him. Of course I said yes. I can see he was nervous. Sweat was dripping all over him. He was lost for word. I can see that he is happy. I am happy.

I will never stop thinking of surprise for him. I know that he appreciates the things I do for him. I am very lucky to find the one that is willing to be with me and will do everything for me. I am happy that the man I love, loves me back. Thank you for being with me babe. I promise not to leave your side and love you till forever. 08.24.12

Thanks for the video Yna! I was the one who edited the film :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RUImirS8qb0&feature=g-upl

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Make You Feel My Love...

My boyfriend and I had a talk about things we have experienced and things we wanted to experience. One thing we have in common is tht we never had a proper slow dance with the one we love.

It was a typical afternoon at my house when the idea of giving him his first slow dance came to my mind while I was busy preparing our snack. I started browsing my phone for a nice and somewhat romantic and memorable music to dance to. There it was, Adele.

After having our snack, I waited for a little while until I know we can dance off our feet. It was a good timing, no one was down stairs, we were alone. He had no clue on what was about to happen. I started playing the music, put the tv on mute and turned the dim lights on. I took his hand, and I knew what I wanted to happen that moment.

It was weird yet perfect. We danced to Adele, wearing only my shorts and shirt. Good for him that he was in his polo shirt and pants. It felt like the time ha stopped to give way for our moment. I was looking straight at him. My arms on his shoulder, and his' are on my waist. We were hugging and kissing. We just followed the beat of the music, dancing in circles. Its just wonderful. Having the person you love most, sharing the moment with you, knowing that he'll never leave your side. 

As the music neared to end, we kissed. Thanked each other for sharing a special dance. I rushed off to open the lights and turned off the phone before it plays born this way. After a while, my brother came home and "interfered" with us. We both knew it was the perfect timing. That somewhat a force wanted us to have that moment.

I'm glad that I will have forever to create beautiful moment with the person I love. I love you babe. I promise to keep you in my heart. :*

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You were like a my sister from another mother. You're older than me, but I'm older based on experience. I'm really happy that you became my best friend. I remembered taunting you during our first year in college up until now. You never get angry easily. That's what I like about you. 

I saw how you've changed your look and the the way you interact with others. You were always my buddy. We always seat beside each other in class, in the bus, we even walk home together with our pinkies crossed each others. We go to trips together, take lots of pics together, and even cyber bully bully each other. We had the wackiest trips ever. I'm confident that you'll do these thing with me.

Many problems have challenged our friendship and I'm glad that we are still together. You've witnessed the smiles and the tears that I've shed and you've been part of the important events in my college life.

I wish that you enjoy another year in your life with your fiends and family. I will always be here for you no matter what. I'll be always here when you need me. I will listen to your stories and give you advice when you needed it. I will not leave your side because you're my best friend and I will kill those who will hurt you. Thanks for the wonderful years of friendship. I'll treasure the moments I had with you. Always have faith, trust and pixie dust! 

Happy 20th Birthday Yna! Hope you're done with your thesis proposal! :))))))

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How I see you this past few months :")

My boyfriend asked me to write something for his yearbook write-up. Within a few minutes, I came up with this: 

"You may think of Aljohn as a snobbish playboy at first impression. But once you get to know him, you’ll discover a sweet and sensible person. He is thoughtful, caring, and fun to be with. He’ll never leave a friend behind. Although he’s a bit narcisstic, he admits the faults he’d made and remain humble. He genuinely shows what he feels towards the people he loves. He will never give up on things he likes and will work hard to reach his goals."

I'm so glad that he didn't changed anything or added up somethings. I'm proud to do the description for him. He even let his friend read it and thought it was great. I'm happy about it because he trusted me with something that will reflect upon him. 

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Alone

I just can't be alone. Simple as that. 

Other people can bear to go out all by theirselves. I can't. I came home mad. Frustrated, angry, lonely.

I've spent an entire afternoon feeling lonely. I just watched and cheered the players on the field. I've learned that my best friend went home early because she was depressed and my other best friend was with her love and I don't want to interrupt them. 

I walked a long path home with no one to speak with. I went to the mall and eat with no one beside me. I rode the bus with no one to converse with. I feel tired and stressed out.

I went home. He called me. I was mad at him for not calling earlier when I was with nobody. I didn't speak to him for at least an hour. He called me by 10pm. I picked up and told him I was better. 

I told him that I'm not mad. Not angry. I'm just LONELY. I missed my best friends. I missed the good old days when we aren't busy. We are distracted by lot of things like boyfriends, thesis, bullies, etc., that we find it hard to REALLY communicate with each other. 

There was nothing left to do but CRY. I felt better. I just wanted someone to know how my day went. I just wanted someone to talk to. I wanted to feel a company. A friend. It came clear to me, that if they do not show up, I'll be left alone. Lonely and sad. Desperate for someone to be with.

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Letting go.

I was going to lose you. I never thought this day would come. Yesterday, we've spent a whole day together, and now, you're telling me the that you're leaving today?! That's bullshit!

I was in the car with my mom. We are going to the mall and watch something nice. My phone rang. It was your number that registered. As usual, I answered it happily, but along our conversation, I've sensed that something was wrong. You told me that you're leaving. You're migrating to Canada cause your mom lives there and you are going to study law there. 

I was shocked. My heart was breaking. I can feel the pain of the thought of you leaving. I told my mom to stop the car and go on without me. I ran back home. I was panicking. I opened my laptop and opened skype. You were online and was able to answer my call. You told me that you already knew from the beginning that you were going to leave. What about me? Do you expect me to go on without you? I told you that I don't want to be used to it! I don't want you to visit me almost everyday because I will surely miss it if you will leave me. But no, you've insisted cause you told me that you're not leaving me. I was devastated. I was crushed. I don't know what I was going to do.

I've noticed the background. I saw people waving goodbye. Then I saw my friends, leaving. OMG. You threw a farewell party and didn't invite me. My friends knew you were leaving but I don't. You told me that you can't bear to see me cause you knew was going to get hurt. You can't bear to watch me cry. You just can't handle it. How dare you! I was so happy thinking that I would be able to see you this Wednesday and Friday. You've let me plan things for us, knowing that you were leaving. What about my sister's birthday, our DAY, the vacation were going to have? Did you assume that we're going to celebrate it on skype?! How can we continue with our relationship when you're on the other side of the world?!

I was crying. I was angry, mad, confused, hurt. I don't know what to do. I really love you. I felt like it was the end for me. I was scared. I was scared to have a long distance relationship. What if one of us can't take it anymore and finds refuge to the arms of others? I just can't simply accept it. I was going to tell you to go on with out me, when suddenly I woke up in tears. I was so relieved. Its was just a dream. No, it was a nightmare.

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You were always there for me. I've never felt the feeling of you abandoning me over. You've instantly gained my trust. I thought that it will be hard for me to forget. But you've helped me. 

I was never sure of my feelings towards you then. It was all to fast for me. I wasn't used to it. I thought that your timing was bad, so I've made you wait. And you did. But then, I realized that you've always been there, even at times when I needed you the most.

You've given me the greatest gift of all. You were PROUD of me. You've showed me to your family and friends without the slightest hint of shame. I felt like I was being a part of another world. For a long time, I've waited for something like this. But you've given it to m in an instant. I knew right then, that there is no turning back.

I do not wish to run away from you. I wanted to be with you. I wanted to be a part of you. If time permits, I wanted to be with you for as long as possible. It is up to you, whether you'll keep me or let me free. As long as I see hope, faith, trust and love, I promise no to let go. I will hold on and never let go

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Dear Best,

dahil sa mga posts mo, binuhay mo mga accounts ko :))))))))

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new shirt. thanks for today :")

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One of the Boys. :)))

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How powerful was beauty?

People around us, have different perception towards BEAUTY. They have different standards and basis on what to consider beautiful. 

We can't deny the facts that some of these "beautiful people", take advantage on their assets. I have observed a girl who uses her face to get what she wanted. She was using her face to cheat on exams, to make others do work for her, and just to toy them around. I wondered how far would anyone go to be deceived by such face. Is there politics in beauty? 

Comparison of faces puts one in glory and the other one in the dump. Those who are "ugly" are being prioritized less in this narcissist community. FUCK THEM! Fuck those people who criticize base on the appearance. 

I believe that we shouldn't be judged on how we look, we are not in a beauty contest . Appearance is just a factor, the personality and the capability of a person is what make him/her real. True beauty really does comes from within.