Having a crush can be so depersonalizing. It’s like I’m watching myself from a third-person point of view - he would find this charming, or he would find this disturbing. It’s exhausting, performing when you’re alone, and you’ll never live up to what “he” thinks because the reality is you’re judging yourself. The guise is that it's from from another perspective but it’s really a spotlight you shine on your own insecurities.














