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What’s wrong with me

I want to disappear

life isn’t the same the way my hands are cold without yours the way my lips ache for you. you are gone and gone for good I still can’t get over it, through this pain I long for you like a book needs words and nothing I can do helps life has become broken I’m not the same person I was and I’ve lost more than my favorite person I’ve lost the ability to hope I’ve lost my job I’ve lost my house and none of this compares to loosing you I’m happy your smiling and I’m so so so happy that you are happy but my heart feels like it’s lost itself like a person without a home a dog without a bark and food without taste so I keep writing you into poetry thinking that one day just one day I’ll be okay without you god I miss you more than I want to breathe these days I love you so so so much and I hope one day I can be as happy and over you like you are to me thank you for making me realize I need to be better if I ever wanted anything as great as you. Thank you for giving me the time I got it’s more than I could have ever asked for …. C

I am so lost

The hardest part is being your past

I look for you in everything I do and I don’t care about repercussions I don’t care about people I don’t care about me I just wish I was better

You are the best and worst thing in my life you thought me how I need to care and treat someone that I didn’t know I needed

And you are the only person I have ever missed and cared about this much

God I miss you and I am so close to just not trying to move on I don’t know what to do my life isn’t bad and I am very very fortunate but nothing compares to the idea of me coming home to you and As sad as I am I’m just happy that you are too and I just wish I was the one that could give that to you I miss you so so so much