Reality Bytes

If you listen close enough you'll hear that my style is a culmination of all musical inspiration & influence I've encountered along lifes journey. Music always has been and always will be subjective….different strokes for different folks. I understand the reality that my music won't vibe with the masses. But my words, my music, & my message aren't for the masses. Music has always meant more to me than just the sound. Music sets the vibe & drives the narrative which is vital to people who love music. But for me the draw has always been the message, the personal feelings, raw human emotion transformed into poetry drawn from real life experiences. All I hope for is to connect with like minded people on a meaningful level while building a family and culture where everyone is comfortable to be themselves, no matter how different they are from the societal norms. #DontPickPixels #HobbitHandsAreShaky #WatchOutForTheSlimJims #SwiggingTitosAndSwingingWithAnger

[yourboyjerzee]

Trapped

Cause ya see a high percent of the time

I'm trapped in this room I designed in my mind

And there I have spent, significant time

Which means I've drawn many intricate lines

and I'm fully aware that this guise where I hide

could potentially lead me to my own demise

So before your eyes try to define

There are some things you'll need to realize

If I'm being honest, I tell myself lies

Which has broke my own heart, and fractured my mind

Which in turn has made me so hard to find

And scared I've worn it so long, I've now become my disguise

I fear nothing of death, cause there's no proof I'm alive

Never finding the pulse, no matter how hard I've tried

But if ya promise to pause, and look deep in my eyes

You'll see all that I am, and that I am worth the time

[yourboyjerzee]

People are going to talk behind your back and/or create lies about you, especially with their backs on the wall after being caught in their own lies.

Now they have to protect the lie at all costs, right? Because if the facts were to ever come to light, well...that would change everything wouldn't it? Doesn't it?

I mean.....Shouldn't it?

[yourboyjerzee]

The Unrealized or Unacknowledged Realities of Relationships In Our Modern World

The profound truth about the single experience in our current age often eludes common perception. Some individuals find themselves single not by chance or bad luck, but rather through a deliberate journey of self-discovery and healing. This transformative process renders many of us incompatible with the prevailing dynamic of trauma-based bonds that sadly permeate our society, acting as a disheartening template for our fractured culture.

Regrettably, many who prioritize inner healing and emotional well-being encounter challenges in finding compatibility within the realms of relationships. This predicament exists because a substantial portion of the individuals they cross paths with carry deep emotional wounds that have yet to be realized and/or resolved. Those who have embarked on the path to healing are often in pursuit of connections that transcend the ordinary, seeking bonds that emanate authenticity and foster personal growth. And therein lies a paradoxical phenomenon.

The stark reality is that a significant majority of the relationships and marriages witnessed today are, in essence, trauma bonds. In most cases I believe this stems from a subconscious need of finding a counterpart to fill voids left by internal wounds, as both parties involved may bear the weight of mental, spiritual, or emotional scars. This should invite all of us to consider the complexities of human connection and the profound journey of self-discovery that many souls have yet to embark upon. It is indeed a reflection worthy of contemplation.

[yourboyjerzee]

In the quest for a better life, there’s one fundamental truth & it is THE most vital thing we must always keep in our minds & hearts.....belief in ourselves. Belief is the very foundation upon which our destinies are built.

Our self-image is a force more powerful than most realize, as it draws us to circumstances aligned with our deepest convictions. When we harbor an unwavering faith in our own abilities, the opinions of others cease to hold us hostage. It is only when we correctly believe in ourselves that we can move forward, unperturbed by the judgments of those around us.

In the grand theater of life, we need not fret over the opinions of others. Even though the world has a way of conditioning our minds, we must remember that we hold the power to consciously and deliberately shape our mental landscapes. Our minds, given the right purpose, can move mountains. What truly matters is how we perceive ourselves, for this perception is the compass that guides our journey.

We must also cast aside the heavy chains of self-definitions and labels that hinder our potential, as the words we choose to describe ourselves shape the world we inhabit. Our life’s experiences are deeply entwined with our self-belief. Whether we impress upon ourselves a positive image or one birthed in negativity, we become architects of our own fate. Let us not underestimate our own worth, but instead, let us take pride in our achievements.

To achieve greatness, we must first envision it within our minds. What we desire, we must see clearly. Every decision we make is a stepping stone towards that vision. We must communicate our desires from our conscious mind to the deep reservoirs of our subconscious. This, my friends, is what we say to ourselves, within ourselves. Or simply put, as I've heard many times throughout the years from my mother, Whether you say you can or can't....you're right.

The universe is filled with endless opportunities, just waiting to be seized. The moment we accept an idea, the universe conspires to make it a reality. We must always be sure to affirm the desires within our minds, for this is the practice of harnessing the immense power of our inner selves. And it's my belief, that with self-awareness and a clear purpose, we can achieve greatness beyond our wildest dreams.

[yourboyjerzee]

WHY I STARTED WRITING

With a never ending stream of materialism & emptiness that pervades mainstream music, I’ve found a lack of relatable and meaningful songs to add to my personal playlists. Not many songs these days resonate with the ebbs and flows of my life. I desperately miss the soulful connections I once forged through music. This has been a driving force behind my music. A desire to craft music that strikes deeper chords, resonating profoundly with listeners. The connection has been a top priority since the inception of my journey.

As I received feedback from many, attesting that my music eased their sense of solitude in this world, my purpose gained newfound significance. I fully & completely understand the weight of navigating life, perpetually feeling like an outsider & misunderstood. Even those close to me would be surprised by the depth of this sentiment within me. To me, helping one solitary soul justifies the entirety of my creative endeavor. Knowing that I’ve helped multiple individuals through darkest times has become an undeniable calling to me.

I now move forward with the intention of constructing an ambiance, a vibe, a tribe where all may find refuge, acceptance, and unity in this world. After years of searching, it begins to dawn on me that this may have been my calling all along. I've spent so much time searching for a place to call home, oblivious to the power within me to shape that which I’ve so fervently sought.

[yourboyjerzee]

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[yourboyjerzee]

[yourboyjerzee]

Truth Is...

I am not an easy person to love, as my past has left me cautious and guarded. I mention this so you understand the importance of showing not only through words, but also through actions, that you are trustworthy and honest, because what I've experienced from people in the past makes it easy to overthink and imagine soul crushing scenarios when actions leave me with doubt.

I am always working on self-love and always will be, but at the same time I need you to understand that I am actively dealing with anxiety and depression. Some days it's a battle just trying to get out of bed, but I am willing to fight for what I love, and I will fight for you...if you show that you're worth fighting for.

[yourboyjerzee]

Letting Go

If someone or something exits your life while you're actively manifesting.....Let go of that which has vanished. They/It are not part of the master plan or it is not the right time for them/it to be present or active in this phase. Do not cling to what is leaving or that which has left. Let it float away on the winds of change & turn to face the storm as it ushers in new ideas & ideals that will help guide you to the next level.

As the existing constructs you've built start to crumble, remain still & steadfast in your convictions. Slowly close your eyes while turning your focus towards opening the third. Be sure to listen & feel the deconstruction of the life you'll no longer be living. Inhale the world around you one last time and upon this air take everything positive you've felt and experienced and guide it to the furthest depths of your being. Briefly take pause to concentrate on these elements as they now only exist and reside within your soul. Let them take over & consume your being until you are filled and overflowing, then upon your exhale let this breath slowly calm the chaos around you. Do not rush to open your eyes, be sure to remain as you are until you feel the vibrations within you have synched with the new existence created around you.

Once your have become attuned & reached your new vibrational harmony, open your eyes and gaze upon the curtain as it draws, slowly revealing the finality of who you once were. Watch the ashes fall like snowflakes as you walk amongst the rubble. Take note of the destruction but do not mourn the collapse, because what once was is never forever gone. It has only changed forms and has now becomes the soil to sow new seeds. It has reshaped a new landscape forming a more solid foundation, reinforcing the pillars & strengthening constructs as your new temple is built, serving as a reminder of who you were and needed to let go of. Never attempting to forget or erase the past, but remembering your choices and regrets to aid you on your path and nurture the soul as you work towards resonating a greater existence.

Just like the tiny sapling that stands firm as the storm rages.... Let your roots run deep.

[yourboyjerzee]

New song I’ve been working on called sinking.

(hook x1)

Still.Awake.Here - With the sec-ond.Hand.Ticki

As.I.Lay.Here- Yo.My.Brain starts to thinking

I.Cant.Stay.Here - Cause I'm not really li-ving

I'm.Not.Safe.Here - Cause.it.feels.like.I'm sink-ing

(Vs1)

While the pain sets in, tell.me.where.do.I be-gin

Cause my soul cries outlike.the.stringsof.vi-o-lins,

It's like the suff-er-ing - has-been-built-in

It re-sides from with-in, since-way-back-when

So.I.make.another.joke, As.I.take.another toke-

Cause these dreams are about vanish all up in a cloud of smoke -

I know there's different strokes, for all these different kinda folks

But.it's.just the way.I.cope, when cert-ain feel-ings are e-voked-

And it's my favorite way, to diss-a-ppear behind the curtain

This heart was made for pain, of this I'm ab-so-lutely certain

For.sure.an em-path, it's be-come a heavy burden

Ig-no-rance is bliss but I'm no absent.minded.person.

I learned that long ago, to this pain I am be-spoken-

Looking deep into my soul re-veals all that is be-token--

Don’t.Care.hoooow.low.Im floating. or how ba-dly I am broken-

I stea...dy cling to hope, that my soul will al-ways open

(hook x 2)

Still.Awake.Here - With the sec-ond.Hand.Tickin

As.I.Lay.Here- Yo.My.Brain starts to thinking

I.Cant.Stay.Here - Cause I't’s looking like a prison

I'm.Not.Safe.Here - Cause.it.feels.like.I'm sink-ing

(Vs3)

Some.day its hard to flow, with the lows and the highs

Sometimes it feels best, when I just don’t try

And some-times I cry but I don’t know why,

Like I’m floating through the ether, just a-long for the ride

So I- dry-my eyes - grit my teeth

Find the edge of bed then floor with my feet

Then I walk outside and listen out for the beat-

Sear-ching.for.the mel-o-dy play-ing on re-peat

A beautiful tune like waves crash-ing on the beach-

And once it hits my ears yo it sounds-so-sweet

So I take me a seat and feel the breeze on my skin

And I think about things that I do struggle with

Try to come to terms with the things I can't fix

Take a deep breath and I hold it all it in-

Grabbing on to good-vibes try to weave em-all-in

Exhale hoping.I.can.find.the.peace with-in

(Hook)

Still.Awake.Here - With the sec-ond.Hand.Tickin

As.I.Lay.Here- Yo.My.Brain starts to thinking

I.Can't.Stay.Here - Cause I think the thoughts are winning

I'm.Not.Safe.Here - Cause.it.feels.like.I'm sink-ing

(Vs3)

As I march into battle. the thoughts and feelings are scattered

Yo, I try to move forward but the paces are staggered-

I'm feeling broken and battered, like the glass has been shattered-

And as the pieces are gathered, I wonder if it all matters -

Ana-lyzing the factors- as I make my a-pproach

Never giving up hope, just tryna keep it a float

So I'm grabbing the loop as I hang on to the rope-

And I hope it doesn't slip around my head to my throat -

So with the words that I wrote - and with the words I will write -

I ho-ping they might- just light a beacon so bright-

And hope they start spark-ing flames that are flick-er-ing white-

So it can be you guide through-out the dark-est of nights-

One of the re-asons I write - I don't.need.to.know names-

Cause I can see all your faces and I rec-og-nze pain--

I'll help you carry theses chains, through the fire & flames-

Just so.ya.know you're not alone when you're going insane

Still.Awake.Here - With the sec-ond.Hand.Tickin

As.I.Lay.Here- Yo.My.Brain starts to thinking

I.Cant.Stay.Here - Cause I'm not really li-ving

I'm.Not.Safe.Here - Cause.it.feels.like.I'm sink-ing

Still.Awake.Here - With the sec-ond.Hand.Tickin

As.I.Lay.Here- Yo.My.Brain starts to thinking

I.Cant.Stay.Here - Cause I't’s looking like a prison

I'm.Not.Safe.Here - Cause.it.feels.like.I'm sink-ing

Still.Awake.Here - With the sec-ond.Hand.Tickin

As.I.Lay.Here- Yo.My.Brain starts to thinking

I.Can't.Stay.Here - Cause I think the thoughts are winning

I'm.Not.Safe.Here - Cause.it.feels.like.I'm sink-ing

[yourboyjerzee]

For those that know me well…

Have we ever been hanging out having a discussion, or maybe I was trying to teach/explain something…and how I got from point A to point B left you confused… thinking maybe I’m just a little weirder than you originally thought?

Have you ever ran a scenario about someone by me, and I was able to figure out their motives or reasoning with a decently high level of accuracy? Ever been around when I myself, figured out someones bullshit?

Do you know how many times I’ve been told I think way too far into things…. usually by people who got called on their bullshit? You know who you are .!..

Like 8 Tracks and Cadillacs….since way back…I’ve asked myself the same question I’m sure a lot of you have….What is going on up there in that skull of his?

I came across this recently & I’ve been digging into it. This is probably the most accurate description of how my brain processes information. I’ve found more dead on descriptions here than with ADHD, which I’ve always assumed I had (as most of you probably assumed I had). A lot of the pros and cons are dead on as well. I’m definitely digging into this further & post updates.

https://www.lowlatentinhibition.org/what-is-lli/

https://www.lowlatentinhibition.org/pros-and-cons/