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Call me worm or rlly whatever you want He/they Tourettic Bi 18

[yoursistersbrother]

Intro Post

I just realized I never made one (I just remembered I deleted it because it was cringe)

⭑ Hi my name is nobody's business but for convenience you can call me worm or just bro

Im transmasc I go by he/him/they

I have a few mental illnesses (if that wasn't already obvious) so this account is sort of for venting but also a place for me to share my poems and maybe make some friends!

I do want to remain anonymous so I don't really want to say stuff that might make any of my irls think "hey that sounds like [worm]!" so you'll get bits of my personality and interests here and there

Im also on instagram @your_sisters_brother in case you want a place with just my poems

⭑ That's all I have to say for now I hope I sound cool feel free to ask me anything just yk dont be weird ;p

[yoursistersbrother]

Vent warning I guess

I don't normally do long vent posts bc I try to talk to people first but it's one of those situations where like my safe person isn't really in a spot to hear about this which is fine I understand that and Im fine with waiting but it's also kind of tearing me apart.

I cut off a friend that I really should have never become friends with in the first place and it's like now Im retroactively feeling years of pent up anger and frustration for the things they've done to me and my friends and my boyfriend and I just feel all this guilt about staying their friend and Im just sick at the thought of how my generosity was abused by this person time and time again and I let it happen. I just kept pushing forward like nothing was wrong like there was no survival instinct and I just keep thinking what was wrong with me, how did I just let myself be blind and numb to everything when it was hurting the people around me I just don't understand any of it even though it's my own actions

[victusinveritas]

[black-crested-jaybird]

I always think of the description I saw years ago: Self-imposed deadlines don't help me, because I know the person who set them, and they're full of shit.

[37q]

[antisocial-transfag]

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[i-give-chess-pieces-to-people]

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[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[tikkunolamorgtfo]

Just want to add that if you're on the spectrum, you may also experience Autistic Rumination, which is distinct from the obsessive variety, despite the two having some overlapping characteristics!

[insomniacshado]

We need more characters with Tourette’s in the world

[yoursistersbrother]

"I want you" - A poem by me

I want what she has

I want to be the girl who can strike up a conversation

She can walk into a group a strangers and leave with new friends

She smells sweet and soft like peaches

She carries bandaids in her bag

She has so many people she cares about And so many who care about her

She can cry on someones shoulder

With comfort And security

Without fear or discrimination

I want what she has

I want to be her live her life

I want her

[yoursistersbrother]

Having this account is so weird because it's so different to how I post/act on all my other socials

In this space I manage to create a version of myself that feels the most sincere but also the most unfamiliar to me

It's an interesting contradiction

[yoursistersbrother]

I always see people doing those like "rejection therapy challenges" but like I need something like that for like practice setting boundaries. Like I need someone who will like push my buttons and then tell me what Im doing wrong when I don't express my grievances properly.

Like give me a shock collar and tell me to communicate better experiencing long term consequences is NOT as fun

[yoursistersbrother]

This aged horribly thank god none of my irls know about this account

[sandmandaddy69]

[captain-talla]

Hey it's me explaining the joke. This gets infinitely funnier when you realize that this is the art for a magic the gathering card named homicidal seclusion.

[hydeingpurples]

Considering Tourettes isn't actually that rare, I feel really alone in person.

I know lots of people with Tourette syndrome but I don't know anyone. Plus all of those individuals are online.

It'd be so nice to have a Tourettes friend. A close one 😔

[boldlyawkward]

I made stew. It was awesome. I love potatoes.

[potato]

i luv u too

[potato]

wait what was in the stew

[harbingerdiana]

For the last time dude, my leitmotif sounds exactly like it always has. There is no symbolism for creeping corruption in there

[pinnipetal]

You need to start moisturizing before it's too late. I'm not talking about wrinkles or any of that nonsense. Winter is fucking coming you need to grease up or you are going to dry out like a raisin. It's too late for me but you can still save yourself. Please don't end up like me

[yoursistersbrother]

I wish it were easier to talk about suppression and like sort of "unmasking it" idk if thats the right word.

But like first off it's so hard to explain to non tourettic people and it just sort of makes me feel kinda alienated or like inhuman. Because i mean no matter the language I use, someone who's never had my experience will never truly be able to ascribe it to a particular feeling. It's like describing color to someone who's never seen it or I guess pain to someone who's never felt it. No matter how well i compare to things people do know they're never truly going to "know".

Second is just sort of the way suppression has practically been conditioned into me as well as a lot of other tourettic people. Because now it's like I almost can't help myself from making things worse. I mean, you're giving the ability to essentially hide one's disability to someone who never wanted to be disabled? Of course unmasking isn't going to be easy when reality is a lot harder to deal with than simply being sort of "situationally disabled".

[dreamsy990]

i saw someone say nobody needs to know what a .txt file is anymore. what the fuck is the world coming to

[dreamsy990]

unironically i think we need to bring back computer labs because APPARENTLY some people WERENT taught basic computer literacy and internet safety in school

[dreamsy990]

things about computers/the internet i think kids should be formally taught in schools because theyre important to know and the amount of soon to be grown adults i know who know NOTHING about any of these is quite frankly almost all of them (and resources to learn if you dont know these things, because its never to late to get better with computers)

how to troubleshoot by yourself when you have a technical problem

what common file types are

some very basics on how to use ""developer tools"" on your computer (because i cant think of a better way to refer to them) like task manager and command prompt (and their mac equivalents, terminal and activity monitor ofc)

how to read and understand a privacy policy and what your personal data is, as well as what it being collected actually means and steps you can take to keep it private

how to understand terms of service (hey. if you have trouble with reading legalese and worry about being able to understand these policies anyways, here's a site that gives basic summaries of privacy policies and ToS)

what a cookie actually is

internet privacy and your digital footprint!! seriously i dont know why we stopped teaching people that they shouldnt be putting their entire real identity online in a world where your online actions can ruin you irl

basic safety measures like antivirus software (and why you should use it or if the built in one on windows or mac is enough for you) and backing up your computer (also a mac guide)

common keyboard shortcuts (and on mac)

as an additional note: things i think everyone should know on computers and the internet but schools may bit hesitant to teach about for whatever moral/legal standards schools pretend to operate on

vpns and adblockers! (btw for most of these where you can pay for things im purposefully not recommending any specific software but seriously just use ublock origin for an adblocker)

how to not get a virus while pirating something

what a temporary email is and when to use one

red flags that you shouldn't trust a website (and how to quickly check the security of a site)

what javascript on a website does and how to disable it to get around paywalls

[dreamsy990]

ok one last addition! if you want to take it one level higher, i think learning the very basics of at least one programming language is good for people. it makes computers less scary and it makes you feel very cool, and a lot of people get discouraged about it because it seems overly complicated and hard to learn outside a formal classroom setting, so heres some resources for learning the very basics of python (because i consider it the easiest language to learn and knowing one language will make it easier to learn others)

an online compiler so you dont need to download anything or worry about running code directly on your computer if that makes you nervous

a basic video guide to introduce you to python and walk you through beginner steps

a guide to some syntax and commands you should know (this was literally my lifeline in my first CS class)

some performance tasks to give you things to code to practice and assess yourself

[mrsterlingeverything]

I treat this like my own jeremy renner app

[satan-offical]

I need attention from strangers at all times please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please