i’m in your flesh and blood, in your bones.

i'll teach you that's love.

[yuechihua]

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[yuechihua]

You take a deep breath, then let it out, and lean in closer to him, until you’re face to face, so close that if you lean in further, your noses might have brushed. “I want you to go out with me, Kenma.” He doesn’t speak, and you take this as your cue to go on. “I need someone to practice with, and you’re the only one I could think of! What happens if I date someone in the future and I don’t know what to do? Besides, I’ve played so many dating sims, I think it’s only right that I actually get to experience it for myself!” Kenma closes his eyes and lets out a long groan, burying his face in his hands. It’s not the reaction you were expecting. “Kenma?” you ask. His voice is muffled as he says, “I don’t want to.” “What? Why not?” “It sounds annoying. I don’t want to do it.” You lean back on his bed, frowning. “Come on, Kenma! It’ll be easy. You just gotta act like my boyfriend for a few weeks. And go on some dates, too. It’s fine! It’s just practice. It’s not real!” Kenma lets out another long-suffering sigh at that. “I don’t want to do it.” “Come on!” You smack at his shoulder with the flat of your palm, but Kenma doesn’t budge. “Kenma, please! I can’t ask anyone else.” “No.” You finger the ends of his bleached hair, twining them around your own. The strands are dry and split at the ends; Kenma doesn’t take good care of his hair at all. You’ve known him long enough to know that Kenma is unrelentingly stubborn; if he doesn’t want to do something, then he won’t do it, and nothing can convince him otherwise.  “Fine,” you say. “You don’t have to. I can ask Kuroo instead. Do you think he would mind?” “Don’t ask Kuroo.” “Why?” Kenma is still staring down at his lap, but he finally looks up at your question. His eyes are narrowed to a cat-like slit, glittering like marbles. “Because I’ll do it.”

kenma fic wip but i've decided to overhaul my current concept and go in a new direction so this will likely never see the light of day + i'll need to repurpose it but i thought it was really cute and wanted to share it as it is lol <3

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bite risk

Commissioned from vy!

[yuechihua]

it's never goodbye, just see you later.

(commissioned from schribless)

[yuechihua]

okay everyone compass ch4 is 8k words and i think i'm roughly halfway through my outline yippee yippee!!! i'm really trying to lock in and finish it this summer so everyone cross their fingers for me ....

[yuechihua]

Uhsuehukk I just come back after reading ur Anaxa fic again (thanks to that anon, but I'm reading the first Anaxa fic on ao3, I'm to lazy wandering in Tumblr lol).

Anyway I just wanna say that ... ur Anaxa fic is still one of the best Anaxa fanfic I've ever read. No words can describe how well ur fanfic is.

(Btw I cried and I feel empty after reading ur fic again)

Okey bye bye have a great day 🐠🍞🍞

thank you so much bellow!!! it means a lot that you enjoy it so much <3 !!!!! i'm really flattered that you still like it!! i hope you have a good day as well!!

[yuechihua]

Fuckkkkkl dude your anaxa fics have my brain in a choke hold its not even funny anymore…

But also, what do you think would happen/wish to happen in a scenario where the soul exchange thing did happen and then anaxa went on to become the titan of reason of the next ?cycle? (I forgot what it’s exactly called when the heirs and the main trio ascended)

thank you for enjoying my anaxa fics so much!!! :) i'm always glad to hear when people like the things i've written!!!!

in a scenario where the soul exchange happened, and anaxa went on to become the titan of reason, i can think of a few possibilities. let's assume there's no interference from lygus or irontomb, and the world is reborn, like it is in the previous cycles, but everyone keeps their memories.

if reader is still alive, the most boring possibility is that it doesn't really affect anaxa or reader in any way. he's immortal, and they're human, but he's still veryyyy fond of his favorite librarian and likes to pester them often. a juicier possibility, though, is that due to having shared parts of their soul with each other, reader and anaxa both ascend due to some glitch in the system which processes them as one being, and they share the position of the titan of reason: one who seeks knowledge, and one who preserves it.

however, if reader is dead, i can imagine this going one of two ways: either they also posthumously receive some divine power (due to the shared soul) and revive and they and anaxa share the titan of reason role. OR they remain dead bc they're still very much mortal, and anaxa always feels like a piece of him is missing, and resumes his very blasphemous mission to revive them and bring them back to his side at any cost, this time with the fun addition of having godlike powers <3

oh, and as a special bonus, i think there's also a possibility that the soul exchange makes their roles all weird which means reader becomes anaxa's literal soft spot/his physical achilles heel, which means to kill one of them you have to kill both of them. lol. and maybe anaxa doesn't have full control over his powers, and reader gets some weird faux-divinity and neither of them are fully human OR god but they are each other's <3

[yuechihua]

okay i played harumasa's agent quest w my friend and it put me in my feelings about him again so here r my assorted thoughts:

the idea that harumasa wanted to be a genius / acted like a good kid (super diligent and hardworking) with his master because he doesn't want to be abandoned again by a parental figure only to seemingly be "thrown away" when his master left him anyways... perhaps he realizes the way he acts doesn't matter when it comes to keeping people close to him.... #HISABANDONMENTISSUES !!!!

in the eng dub, how he's usually kind of high-pitched, whiny, and light-hearted, but his voice drops and he speaks more slowly when he gets serious.... i <3 contrasts...

i like how harumasa is so crafty and sets up plans from the beginning before he even takes seemingly his first step towards achieving something. and ALSO he has a habit of lying/never being honest, but his lies are usually for the sake of someone else... a kindhearted liar...

ON THE NOTE OF HIM BEING CRAFTY. i enjoy how he tested seth by poking/ provoking at him to get a sense of who he was and to check if he could trust seth with raiding kirishima's sanatorium. he wants to ensure seth was the sort of person who would prioritize protecting the kids and wouldn't be tempted by the ether enhancing drugs,,, also, the argument he uses with seth (who cares if a few kids who are going to die get hurt when the majority benefits) are probably words he's heard himself/an argument he's internalized so it means a lot when seth fights against it,,,

the way he calls himself a bad guy and says it with such honesty and seriousness bc he genuinely believes it... he's willing to get his hands dirty / act more unscrupulously so his colleagues don't have to, and he knows that he's dishonest and a liar.... more than that, he's afraid of his capacity to turn into an ethereal and hurt other people and to truly become a "monster." and he's so self-aware about everything!!

i also have feelings on the thematic examination of who / what are we willing to sacrifice for the sake of progress in his story quest and we see it in watt commenting that the ether enhancing drug wouldn't be such a bad thing if it could help them and seth biting back that sacrificing other people for it isn't it okay... his master's entire conflict between making a drug to save others vs sacrificing harumasa for it... even harumasa wavering bc he doesn't want to sacrifice other people but he believes it's okay to sacrifice himself (his self-sacrificial tendencies and utilitarian mindset towards himself ie i'm going to die anyways so it's fine to use me), only to learn he's someone worth saving through seth's words, the proxy's support, his master deciding to make him a cure, and even section six's support....

also the throwback to harumasa's childhood belief the headband would make him netter at archery and then the headband being a symbol of his master's support / reminder of his words in the scene where he shoots at kirishima...

the two sides of harumasa's master reflected in the cgs we get... the first one where he's cast in shadow and hiding the syringe behind his back and we cant see his face and the scene is cast in very cold lighting vs the second one with the gentle yellows and close up of his face as he pats harumasa's head where he's finally humanized for the first time.... it reflects the two sides of his master, the cruelty and the kindness, and the conflicting feelings that harumasa holds between love + hate...

for someone who is sooo afraid of being alone / left behind, he refuses to let others close to him because he doesn't want them to be left behind when he passes............ he is a hypocrite and both so selfish and unbearably selfless..................

[yuechihua]

okay bridgerton-hq au has been haunting me so (keep in mind that i have only watched s4 and have passing knowledge of the others):

season 2 with atsumu as anthony (high standards, annoying, rivals/enemies to lovers, can't stay away from each other and when you put him in his place he does feel smth, yes he is the mf to sniff the air after you pass by to get a whiff of your cologne/perfume/scent lmfao)

season 3 with osamu as colin (best friends, pining, osamu is markedly less insecure than colin but does take your rls for granted, you think he doesn't love you back and you're trying to move on and he's offering to help you find someone to marry but...)

season 4 with oikawa as benedict (yearning, oikawa goes on an entire odyssey to find you while you're convinced it'll never work out, something about a guy that everyone thinks is a rake but genuinely cares about others and feels like he lives in someone else's shadow lol...)

[yuechihua]

hai haii im here to pick at your brain again !! could i ask what do you think would be the miya twins' type? :D i have a small hc that osamu is a chubby girl lover idk why he just strikes me as one

hi anon!!!! welcome back!!! i have to start off by saying that though i think the twins have preferences for the sort of person they like in terms of personality and appearance, i don't think these are set in stone lol. like, you don't have to be xyz for them to be attracted to you. in fact, it's interesting to think about how they would fall for someone that doesn't meet their criteria at all! also, these are my interpretations for the twins and the sort of person they would like.

also, though it doesn't quite cover their type, i have thought about the best sort of relationship the twins function in, which is related to their type!

atsumu is, unfortunately, shallow. lol. he hasn't really thought about his type much more than he just wants them to be 1. hot and 2. someone he can show off to others. when he's younger especially, a relationship is more of a status symbol to him than an actual partnership with someone else born out of mutual love and care. he has such typical teenage boy taste in that he just wants the hottest person at the function to throw themselves at him (expects it, sometimes) and doesn't think about it beyond that.

that's what he says he wants, though. i think in actuality, atsumu is attracted to people who challenge him (obviously, since he's a brat), but also people who are extremely dedicated to and passionate about their goals. he likes intense people, regardless if they're outwardly quiet or loud lol. also, in a similar vein, he likes meticulous people who put care into what they do, and pays attention to the small details! also, weirdly, he likes people who don't like him lol. probably bc a part of him sees it as a challenge.

osamu is a bit better in the sense that he's not as shallow as atsumu and won't tell people that his type is whoever's hottest. however, he also doesn't really... outwardly express an opinion about the sort of person he likes. i don't think osamu is too preoccupied with the concept of a type, and doesn't have an answer when people asks. he likes who he likes, and it's as simple as that.

anyways. i think osamu is lying. lol. he might not be as aware of it, but i think he IS more picky than atsumu when it comes to the sort of person he likes. that's because osamu tends to think about things more deeply and as such, gets the ick more easily. instead of knowing what he likes, he knows what he doesn't like: people who are too rude, who are too loud, who are careless, who litter, who don't appreciate their food, who can't read a room, and so on and so forth. anyways! like you said, i do think he likes chubby people AND prefers people who are a bit more quiet/introspective but it's not a hard and fast rule for him lol.

[yuechihua]

taps the mic liya i demand to know more about the aventurine hanahaki fic <3

omg hi div!!!!!!!! <3 bc you have asked so you will receive more info about my aventurine fic!! rn the fic lowk is a combination of a weird pseudo-historical setting (mainly british inspired bc the strict hierarchy of the gentry has been on my mind but it makes integrating hanahaki a challenge) alongside my fascination with marriage as both an institution and business transaction, and how that impacts woman specifically.

i know how it's going to end, but i'm not quite sure how i'm going to get there, and it's definitely something i'm writing very slowly. it's my first time writing a female reader, which changes how i approach the piece as well. i also just can never resist putting aventurine through the wringer lol. i just cannot see him in a normal rls and it's more fun for me when he isn't in one!!

anyways. here's a snippet:

All that matters is that he is here now, at the mercy of your tender hands. If you want to, you could grasp his neck, force the air from his lungs. You could dig into his wounds, press your fingers right into his bullet holes. You could slit his throat, slip poison into his medicine, end this vulnerable creature in a thousand ways. But you don’t. For the rest of the night, you lovingly wipe away his sweat with a cold, wetted towel, tuck the covers around him when he kicks them off in his delirium. You tend to him in the same way you once tended to your dolls as a girl; your powerful husband, now brought low.

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“your majesty, I’ve returned from the quest and successfully laid the dragon!” “…what.” “…you. you did say… lay the dragon, right?”

commissioned from @loundrey!

[yuechihua]

i really really like when a character's relationship to someone else moves past faith into pure simple surety. it's not "i believe you'll be there" but "i know you'll be there." an unwavering, uncompromising confidence in someone else, a trust that codifies into fact...

[yuechihua]

zzz you will be absolved of all your crimes by me if you 1. rerun harumasa and 2. give him a swimsuit alt WITH the bare minimum required fabric to keep this a 12+ rated game and 3. HE MUST look like he will be blown away from the shockwaves the next time miyabi uses tailless.

[yuechihua]

Inspired by that anon, how do you think phainon and anaxa (I'm gonna ask Harumasa too if that's fine-) react if the reader called them petnames instead? Can be a common occurrence or a special occasion when they did so

so, for phainon, i def think he gets a little too excited if you call him by a pet name regardless of circumstance lmfao. at the sound of your voice, nearby passerby can swear they see dog ears and a tail appear on his head bc he's bounding right over to you like "yes honey? did you need me? :D" he's not afraid of sappy nicknames, and seems to actively delight in when you call him by something that makes other people cringe. at the end of the day, he has NO shame, and he's just really happy to be yours!

i think anaxa reacts to being called by a pet name with the same sort of fond exasperation he reacts to being called by his nickname: a flat stare, with some comment about how "that's not his name." he doesn't mind it, though, otherwise he wouldn't have bothered you with a response. again, i don't think he particularly cares for pet names, but he also doesn't mind if you want to call him one. i will mention again i think he actually gets a kick out of you calling him by one of the names the grove scholars use to insult him lol, bc he's weird like that.

harumasa generally takes being called pet names in stride, and is sure to return the favor twofold. call him "honey" and he's hitting you with a "yes, honeybuns?" in return. he especially likes being overly affectionate if it makes people in the nearby vicinity cringe from how sappy the two of you are being. however! i do think you can catch him off-guard by calling him something like "my love" in a really soft, genuine moment where it makes his heart flutter more than he'd like to admit. like oh! this isn't just a semi-ironic joke. you actually do love him like that... and then he breaks the tension by trying to gross you out with some over-the-top pet name lmfaoooo.

[yuechihua]

heads up everyone, im doing some quick housekeeping where i'm changing the way i do fic formatting + making a masterlist for my multichapter fic lol!! so if you see my old fics slowly change format... dw about it

[yuechihua]

☾ - title: a compass always points towards home

☾ - pairing: miya atsumu x reader, miya osamu x reader

☾ - summary: After your father loses his job in Kyoto, you move in with your grandparents in Hyogo prefecture, right across from a pair of twins who just can't seem to leave you alone.

☾ - total word count: 41k

chapter one: north || 7.9k words

You're eight when you befriend the two twins who live across from you, and experience the most exciting summer of your life so far.

chapter two: northeast || 15.4k words

You return to elementary school in the fall alongside your two neighbors, who seem decidedly uninterested in anyone outside of their small circle.

chapter three: east || 18.1k words

You graduate elementary school and start middle school, but the transition from childhood comes with its unique changes and growing pains.