metanoia (n.)

Journey of changing one's mind 24 | SoCal⇄TN | IG: @a3ys_ Me | Personal

[za3ys]

For once, I just want someone to listen and not make it about themselves. I’m so tired. I’m tired of holding in my own feelings and emotions and being strong for people when they can’t even do it for me…

[za3ys]

I wish i were dead

[za3ys]

When people judge you for mentally helping others out.

[za3ys]

Im saddened how love is taken for granted in our generation.

[za3ys]

Been hurting so much lately, but i rather just hide it. I grew up being turned down consistently that i’m so scared to open up. It’s so hard to express myself because i never learned how to. It’s affecting how i interact with people and i hurt seeing people reach out to me, but i just can’t seem to do anything about it no matter how much i try. I’m terrified and i’m scared. My thoughts were always twisted back on me and i felt like i was always in the wrong. Why even try to express myself when no one will genuinely hear. I don’t want to burden others anyways; one of the biggest factors i rather just keep things to myself.

You know that saying, “the more they say it, the more you believe it”? Maybe they were all right. Maybe it’s all my fault and there’s just something wrong with me.

[za3ys]

Secrets and lies kill relationships. No matter how careful you are, you will get caught. Stay loyal and have high respect for the one you love. They deserve that.

[za3ys]

Finding someone who’s proud to have you is hard to come by these days.

[za3ys]

In the end, nobody really cares about me

[za3ys]

Maybe, i’m just a fool.

[za3ys]

Theres probably something wrong with me for people to walk away so easily from my life...I get used, taken for granted, and made fun of. People are nice in front of me, but when i’m not around and talk to other people, they take back all the things they’ve said to me. I just want someone who would be scared to lose me, just how i’m scared to lose them. It hurts seeing people walk away and every single time, it cuts deeper. I barely have close people in my life, so i cherish every single one of them and not take them for granted. i just want someone who would stay despite how imperfect i am.

[za3ys]

Broken and in pain. It’s all my fault

[thegoodvybe]

[za3ys]

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[za3ys]

When the attention of others is more important than the attention of the one who gives it the most.

[za3ys]

“I am lost

and I don't know where to go no more

I've been hurt but I've never been hurt this much before

I feel lonely, lonely, lonely traveling down this road

They say through time I'll find some healing but the clock goes slow

I didn't know that I could get this low

And I don’t know where to go”🎶

[za3ys]

A smile so deceiving