Anti-time in a Nursery Rhyme

ZAGREUS IS MY SECRET NAME ZAGREUS IS THE ONE TO BLAME ZAGREUS IS THE TIME LORD'S SHAME THE RP BLOG THAT I'VE BEEN KEEPING

[zagreus-the-beast]

Zagreus sits inside your head Zagreus lives among the dead Zagreus sees you in your bed And eats you when you're sleeping

Zagreus at the end of days Zagreus lies all other ways Zagreus comes when time's a maze And all of history's weeping

Zagreus taking time apart Zagreus fears the hero heart Zagreus seeks the final part The reward that he is reaping

Zagreus sings when all is lost Zagreus takes all those he's crossed Zagreus wins and all is cost The hero's hearts he's keeping

Zagreus seeks the hero's ship Zagreus needs the web to rip Zagreus sups time at a drip And life aside, he's sweeping

Zagreus waits at the end of the world For Zagreus is the end of the world His time is the end of time And his moment Time's undoing

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It/Its pronouns for mun, It/He/She pronouns for Zagreus, She/It pronouns for Perfection, It/She/He for Tardis.

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[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[evil-rocco]

…I’m not.

[zagreus-the-beast]

A liTtLe bIrdIe saYs othErWise.

I wAnT To belIeve YoU, I don'T ThiNk yOu'd puT yoUr hATchlIngs in DanGer. But I thInk yoU thINk yoU're SmArt enoUgh To gEt aWAy with It.

[evil-rocco]

*growls*

The only things I haven’t offered you are those I didn’t think you’d be interested in.

[zagreus-the-beast]

SSSUcH aAAaS?? DoN't Be Shy, I'Ll trY anYThinG onCe.

[evil-rocco]

There are a few empty hulls. Souls I all but completely absorbed. They wouldn’t taste like anything…

*subtly pushes Narvin’s remaining potential future lives further back into the furthest and darkest corner of her mindscape*

[zagreus-the-beast]

It DoeSn'T mAke SenSe.. WhY WoulD thEy cAlL thOse "tHe BesT" oF yoUR collEction?

[evil-rocco]

I don’t know. Has no one ever told you Conceptuals make a habit of lying or exaggerating just for the sake of creating drama?

[zagreus-the-beast]

...No. WhaT'S A ConCePtUaL.

[evil-rocco]

An idea with delusions of grandeur. Very nosy. Also quite tasty.

[zagreus-the-beast]

ARe ThEre Many Of TheM........ :)

[evil-rocco]

They’re like weeds… you rid yourself of one and another will soon take its place.

[zagreus-the-beast]

HmMMmM. I WouLD EaT TheM. BUt OnE TolD mE I ShoULD diG ArouND a LIttlE. ShouLD I HEeD ThEIr ADviCe?

[zagreus-the-beast]

She’s still not telling you everything… Maybe you should go searching yourself.

HoW DO I KnoW yOu'Re nOT LYing? Hm??

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[evil-rocco]

…I’m not.

[zagreus-the-beast]

A liTtLe bIrdIe saYs othErWise.

I wAnT To belIeve YoU, I don'T ThiNk yOu'd puT yoUr hATchlIngs in DanGer. But I thInk yoU thINk yoU're SmArt enoUgh To gEt aWAy with It.

[evil-rocco]

*growls*

The only things I haven’t offered you are those I didn’t think you’d be interested in.

[zagreus-the-beast]

SSSUcH aAAaS?? DoN't Be Shy, I'Ll trY anYThinG onCe.

[evil-rocco]

There are a few empty hulls. Souls I all but completely absorbed. They wouldn’t taste like anything…

*subtly pushes Narvin’s remaining potential future lives further back into the furthest and darkest corner of her mindscape*

[zagreus-the-beast]

It DoeSn'T mAke SenSe.. WhY WoulD thEy cAlL thOse "tHe BesT" oF yoUR collEction?

[evil-rocco]

I don’t know. Has no one ever told you Conceptuals make a habit of lying or exaggerating just for the sake of creating drama?

[zagreus-the-beast]

...No. WhaT'S A ConCePtUaL.

[evil-rocco]

An idea with delusions of grandeur. Very nosy. Also quite tasty.

[zagreus-the-beast]

ARe ThEre Many Of TheM........ :)

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[evil-rocco]

…I’m not.

[zagreus-the-beast]

A liTtLe bIrdIe saYs othErWise.

I wAnT To belIeve YoU, I don'T ThiNk yOu'd puT yoUr hATchlIngs in DanGer. But I thInk yoU thINk yoU're SmArt enoUgh To gEt aWAy with It.

[evil-rocco]

*growls*

The only things I haven’t offered you are those I didn’t think you’d be interested in.

[zagreus-the-beast]

SSSUcH aAAaS?? DoN't Be Shy, I'Ll trY anYThinG onCe.

[evil-rocco]

There are a few empty hulls. Souls I all but completely absorbed. They wouldn’t taste like anything…

*subtly pushes Narvin’s remaining potential future lives further back into the furthest and darkest corner of her mindscape*

[zagreus-the-beast]

It DoeSn'T mAke SenSe.. WhY WoulD thEy cAlL thOse "tHe BesT" oF yoUR collEction?

[evil-rocco]

I don’t know. Has no one ever told you Conceptuals make a habit of lying or exaggerating just for the sake of creating drama?

[zagreus-the-beast]

...No. WhaT'S A ConCePtUaL.

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[evil-rocco]

…I’m not.

[zagreus-the-beast]

A liTtLe bIrdIe saYs othErWise.

I wAnT To belIeve YoU, I don'T ThiNk yOu'd puT yoUr hATchlIngs in DanGer. But I thInk yoU thINk yoU're SmArt enoUgh To gEt aWAy with It.

[evil-rocco]

*growls*

The only things I haven’t offered you are those I didn’t think you’d be interested in.

[zagreus-the-beast]

SSSUcH aAAaS?? DoN't Be Shy, I'Ll trY anYThinG onCe.

[evil-rocco]

There are a few empty hulls. Souls I all but completely absorbed. They wouldn’t taste like anything…

*subtly pushes Narvin’s remaining potential future lives further back into the furthest and darkest corner of her mindscape*

[zagreus-the-beast]

It DoeSn'T mAke SenSe.. WhY WoulD thEy cAlL thOse "tHe BesT" oF yoUR collEction?

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[evil-rocco]

…I’m not.

[zagreus-the-beast]

A liTtLe bIrdIe saYs othErWise.

I wAnT To belIeve YoU, I don'T ThiNk yOu'd puT yoUr hATchlIngs in DanGer. But I thInk yoU thINk yoU're SmArt enoUgh To gEt aWAy with It.

[evil-rocco]

*growls*

The only things I haven’t offered you are those I didn’t think you’d be interested in.

[zagreus-the-beast]

SSSUcH aAAaS?? DoN't Be Shy, I'Ll trY anYThinG onCe.

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[evil-rocco]

…I’m not.

[zagreus-the-beast]

A liTtLe bIrdIe saYs othErWise.

I wAnT To belIeve YoU, I don'T ThiNk yOu'd puT yoUr hATchlIngs in DanGer. But I thInk yoU thINk yoU're SmArt enoUgh To gEt aWAy with It.

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[evil-rocco]

I… no. I would never!

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHY do I GeT the FeEling You'Re LyIng To Me, HmM?

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[evil-rocco]

*bristling* Yes?

[zagreus-the-beast]

HaVe YoU bEen keEPIng GoOd FOOd froM mE?

[zagreus-the-beast]

Rocco has been holding out on you. She’s been keeping the best of her collection for herself.

*It licks its lips and growls.*

ReAllY noW... @evil-rocco

[free-my-mindd]

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

...Hi.

I'M noT ANGry ANymoRe.

OR, WelL. I Am A LITtlE bIT. BUt Not As MUch. Do YoU WAnnA Talk OR SOmEthinG.

@zagreus-the-beast

Yeah... yeah, we could talk

[zagreus-the-beast]

OkAy. GoOD. So UHh.

...AboUT What I TolD yOU. ThE SeCRET. CouLD yoU. FOrgET iT? PlEasE.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I… don’t know

He wants me dead. He wants all of us dead, I don’t know… if I can be okay with that

[zagreus-the-beast]

PlEAse. I FuCKeD up ReAllY bAD By tElIiNG yoU. I TooK mY PUniSHmENt, bUT it DoeSn'T ChANGE thAT IT hAppNEd. JUSt- JUSt FORgEt IT. PLeASE?

I'M nOT aSKiNG yoU To BE okAY WIth IT. I'm ASKinG you TO FoRgEt.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I can’t forget I know it now and I’m sorry I told I just don’t know what to do

[zagreus-the-beast]

..IF yOU hAD TolD AnyONE ELSe, I ThiNk mY pUNIshmEnt WOuLD'VE BEEn way WorsE. So. IT'S GOoD ThAT yoU DIDn'T.

WhaT DO yoU mEAN YoU cAn'T FoRgEt iT? YoU CAn jUSt pUT IT AWay. RighT? You PUT The MEmoRy WhERE You CAN't ToUCh iT.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I can’t do that

What was your punishment?

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHAt- WHY Not.

...It.. IT DoeSn'T MAttEr. JUst. GET Rid Of ThE mEmORy. AnD Then nEitHEr oF uS hAVE To heAR thE nAme.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I just can’t

I’m sorry

[zagreus-the-beast]

It- IF yoU Don'T knOW hOW... I cAn Do IT foR yoU? IT's.. I'Ve bEEn in YOuR miND BEforE. I KnoW hOW to nAVigATe IT.

PleASe.

IT's sAfER ThiS Way.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*takes a step back, afraid*

[zagreus-the-beast]

...FinE! FInE. WHaTEvEr. Don'T buRy thE mEMoRy.

*It looks nervous, tail thrashing.*

...MY loRd BRaNDed mE. FoR thE rEcORd. So I CoulDN'T Say HIS naME agAin.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Branded?

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shifts from one paw to the other, head lowering in shame. It turns around and pulls the back of its waistcoat up until its shoulder blades are revealed. Between them lies the seal, now a burn scar.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*gasps in shock, and reaches out, stopping just short of touching it*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*Its tail tucks between its legs. It glances at xem over its shoulder.*

...IS iT bAD..?

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

…yeah

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It hurries to tug its waistcoat back down over the scar, shoulders hiking up to its ears.*

...WhaTEveR. BArely EvEN huRTs ANymORe.

ThAT'S a LIe. HURts a LOt.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

No! No, we have to treat it, help…

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It hugs itself around its middle and shakes its head.*

IT's FinE. I Ate rEAllY GooD and nOW I FeEl a lOT BETtER.

...PLEAsE DOn'T Tell LiLiTh. For REal ThiS tIME.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I won’t. I promise.

Can’t I put a balm on it? It looks like it really hurts

*winces as xe remembers the blisters*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It sniffs and ducks its head, contemplating. Eventually, it nods slowly.*

JuSt- Be.. gEnTle? I'm NoT usED to paIn yEt.

ThE more I eAt, thE moRe in tUNe with my FOrm I aM. And thE moRe iN tUNE with mY phYsicAl Form I aM, the More it Hurts.

AnD I juSt finiShed StrESS-eAtinG.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I’ll be gentle

Y-you shouldn’t be used to pain

[zagreus-the-beast]

..I WAs bEfore. In My OtHer BoDy.

*It seems ashamed to not be anymore.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Were you hurt often?

[zagreus-the-beast]

LoRd- My LOrd, uhM, uSed tO uSe it aS A mEaNs of conTRol bEfoRe my boDy AdjuSted.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

You didn’t deserve that

[zagreus-the-beast]

I uSeD to Be VEry POORly BehaVeD.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Me too but Carmilla never hurt me on purpose

[zagreus-the-beast]

I BehAVe loTs bETTer noW. BeCAuse oF WHat he Did. My LoRd is SmaRt.

..SoRRy. I ShouLd stOP talKing abOuT hIm, huH?

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Probably

Sorry

[zagreus-the-beast]

It'S... fiNe.. I'm JuSt noT uSeD to Not DoiNg iT.

..BaLm...? BacK HuRts.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Yeah, okay. How about you lie down?

*rummages around in one of the first aid kits that are always within arms reach*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It nods and tugs its waistcoat off, laying down on the couch.*

Is ThIs oKay..?

*It fusses with its tail, keeping it out of the way.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

That’s good… *kneels beside it, and puts on a glove, before tentatively touching the seal*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*Its fur raises in alarm and discomfort, claws digging into the couch. It doesn't move. Its claws bury in the fur of its tail for comfort.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*hisses as it burns xem even through the glove*

Okay, okay, maybe… we’ll try something else. Do you mind if your fur gets a little sticky?

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shakes its head, bringing its tail up to its mouth to chew on lightly.*

..No. Don'T ReALLy CaRE. ...ARE yoU okAy? YoU HIssEd.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It’s okay, I heal fast.

*sprays something cooling on its skin*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shivers at the sudden cooling of the still-warm flesh, face screwing up in discomfort for a moment before relaxing.*

FEeLs A lITtlE bETter...

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It should numb it, help with healing…

[zagreus-the-beast]

ThaNk You.

*It curls up on its side on the surface, facing xem.*

I'M soRRy foR ChasInG yoU wHEN I gOt maD. I wAs AnGRy anD sCaRed.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It’s okay, I chase people when I’m hungry

[zagreus-the-beast]

StiLl, You WeRe.. ScaRed toO. I thInk. My pIeCe of Me is in A Non emOtion-BasEd aRea in YoU So I can'T TelL.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Yeah, I was scared

But Lorell chases me… and sometimes Lilith…

I’m just scared a lot

[zagreus-the-beast]

Do yoU waNt me To gEt rid Of thAt. The FeaR. It CaN be My apolOgy.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

No! I-it’s alright, I’d just don’t want to mess with my head

[zagreus-the-beast]

AwW. OkayY. ThEre gOes My iDea.

If yoU ever ChanGe yoUt minD Let ME knOW.

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

Maybe i Should break some laws of time..

Go and see myself in the future.. go and punch my academy tutor for fun.. something like that..

[zagreus-the-beast]

YEEEeeEeEEsSSSSSSsss!!!!!!!!!!!

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

.. why are You encouraging me?

I'll ask you kindly not to eat my paradoxes...

Because i know that's probably why you're so excited about all that

[zagreus-the-beast]

...CAN I eAt paRAdoXeS ArOuNd yoU? The OneS yoU CreATe :)

PlUs, cAn'T an EnTiTy bE excITEd abOuT chAOs???

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

No- that's.. what i meant when i said My Paradoxes. Simply ignore my paradoxes that involve me.. you can eat other ones..

Chaos on a cosmic scale makes me nervous.. it's some sort of annoying psychological trait. But it does matter to me, i hope you understand

[zagreus-the-beast]

OHHhhHhH yOu'rE ClaiMing TheM. I mEaN if yOu wanNa eaT thEm I guESs sinCe you maKe TheM thaT'd Be yoUr riGht... :(

BleHhh okAYy YoU caN be bOrIng if yOu waNt. You'Ve bEEn niCe anD StuFf so I'lL be nIce Back. I thInk That's HoW it WoRks...

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

Thank you. If we ever encounter eachother hopefully not in a very bad someone's eating someone way I'll give you.. uh. Sweets?? That's what the Doctor gave to everyone and it seemed to work as a peace offering at least.

[zagreus-the-beast]

I caN't EAt tAngIbLe FOoD, oNly ThinGs LiKe mEmOries AnD MiNds and StuFf. SomEtimEs MeAt if I'm havInG a Good DaY. If YoU haVe a MemOry yoU wannA get Rid of I'D accEpT that! :)? I'm gOoD at GettIng Rid of MemOriEs.

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

I suppose I'll let you know about that then.. if ever the occasion arises

[zagreus-the-beast]

MosT TImE loRds have A MemOry or Two They'D RaTheR noT hAve. InformaTiOn and StufF. So I don'T DouBt it CouLd.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

...Hi.

I'M noT ANGry ANymoRe.

OR, WelL. I Am A LITtlE bIT. BUt Not As MUch. Do YoU WAnnA Talk OR SOmEthinG.

@zagreus-the-beast

Yeah... yeah, we could talk

[zagreus-the-beast]

OkAy. GoOD. So UHh.

...AboUT What I TolD yOU. ThE SeCRET. CouLD yoU. FOrgET iT? PlEasE.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I… don’t know

He wants me dead. He wants all of us dead, I don’t know… if I can be okay with that

[zagreus-the-beast]

PlEAse. I FuCKeD up ReAllY bAD By tElIiNG yoU. I TooK mY PUniSHmENt, bUT it DoeSn'T ChANGE thAT IT hAppNEd. JUSt- JUSt FORgEt IT. PLeASE?

I'M nOT aSKiNG yoU To BE okAY WIth IT. I'm ASKinG you TO FoRgEt.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I can’t forget I know it now and I’m sorry I told I just don’t know what to do

[zagreus-the-beast]

..IF yOU hAD TolD AnyONE ELSe, I ThiNk mY pUNIshmEnt WOuLD'VE BEEn way WorsE. So. IT'S GOoD ThAT yoU DIDn'T.

WhaT DO yoU mEAN YoU cAn'T FoRgEt iT? YoU CAn jUSt pUT IT AWay. RighT? You PUT The MEmoRy WhERE You CAN't ToUCh iT.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I can’t do that

What was your punishment?

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHAt- WHY Not.

...It.. IT DoeSn'T MAttEr. JUst. GET Rid Of ThE mEmORy. AnD Then nEitHEr oF uS hAVE To heAR thE nAme.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I just can’t

I’m sorry

[zagreus-the-beast]

It- IF yoU Don'T knOW hOW... I cAn Do IT foR yoU? IT's.. I'Ve bEEn in YOuR miND BEforE. I KnoW hOW to nAVigATe IT.

PleASe.

IT's sAfER ThiS Way.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*takes a step back, afraid*

[zagreus-the-beast]

...FinE! FInE. WHaTEvEr. Don'T buRy thE mEMoRy.

*It looks nervous, tail thrashing.*

...MY loRd BRaNDed mE. FoR thE rEcORd. So I CoulDN'T Say HIS naME agAin.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Branded?

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shifts from one paw to the other, head lowering in shame. It turns around and pulls the back of its waistcoat up until its shoulder blades are revealed. Between them lies the seal, now a burn scar.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*gasps in shock, and reaches out, stopping just short of touching it*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*Its tail tucks between its legs. It glances at xem over its shoulder.*

...IS iT bAD..?

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

…yeah

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It hurries to tug its waistcoat back down over the scar, shoulders hiking up to its ears.*

...WhaTEveR. BArely EvEN huRTs ANymORe.

ThAT'S a LIe. HURts a LOt.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

No! No, we have to treat it, help…

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It hugs itself around its middle and shakes its head.*

IT's FinE. I Ate rEAllY GooD and nOW I FeEl a lOT BETtER.

...PLEAsE DOn'T Tell LiLiTh. For REal ThiS tIME.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I won’t. I promise.

Can’t I put a balm on it? It looks like it really hurts

*winces as xe remembers the blisters*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It sniffs and ducks its head, contemplating. Eventually, it nods slowly.*

JuSt- Be.. gEnTle? I'm NoT usED to paIn yEt.

ThE more I eAt, thE moRe in tUNe with my FOrm I aM. And thE moRe iN tUNE with mY phYsicAl Form I aM, the More it Hurts.

AnD I juSt finiShed StrESS-eAtinG.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I’ll be gentle

Y-you shouldn’t be used to pain

[zagreus-the-beast]

..I WAs bEfore. In My OtHer BoDy.

*It seems ashamed to not be anymore.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Were you hurt often?

[zagreus-the-beast]

LoRd- My LOrd, uhM, uSed tO uSe it aS A mEaNs of conTRol bEfoRe my boDy AdjuSted.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

You didn’t deserve that

[zagreus-the-beast]

I uSeD to Be VEry POORly BehaVeD.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Me too but Carmilla never hurt me on purpose

[zagreus-the-beast]

I BehAVe loTs bETTer noW. BeCAuse oF WHat he Did. My LoRd is SmaRt.

..SoRRy. I ShouLd stOP talKing abOuT hIm, huH?

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Probably

Sorry

[zagreus-the-beast]

It'S... fiNe.. I'm JuSt noT uSeD to Not DoiNg iT.

..BaLm...? BacK HuRts.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Yeah, okay. How about you lie down?

*rummages around in one of the first aid kits that are always within arms reach*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It nods and tugs its waistcoat off, laying down on the couch.*

Is ThIs oKay..?

*It fusses with its tail, keeping it out of the way.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

That’s good… *kneels beside it, and puts on a glove, before tentatively touching the seal*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*Its fur raises in alarm and discomfort, claws digging into the couch. It doesn't move. Its claws bury in the fur of its tail for comfort.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*hisses as it burns xem even through the glove*

Okay, okay, maybe… we’ll try something else. Do you mind if your fur gets a little sticky?

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shakes its head, bringing its tail up to its mouth to chew on lightly.*

..No. Don'T ReALLy CaRE. ...ARE yoU okAy? YoU HIssEd.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It’s okay, I heal fast.

*sprays something cooling on its skin*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shivers at the sudden cooling of the still-warm flesh, face screwing up in discomfort for a moment before relaxing.*

FEeLs A lITtlE bETter...

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It should numb it, help with healing…

[zagreus-the-beast]

ThaNk You.

*It curls up on its side on the surface, facing xem.*

I'M soRRy foR ChasInG yoU wHEN I gOt maD. I wAs AnGRy anD sCaRed.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It’s okay, I chase people when I’m hungry

[zagreus-the-beast]

StiLl, You WeRe.. ScaRed toO. I thInk. My pIeCe of Me is in A Non emOtion-BasEd aRea in YoU So I can'T TelL.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Yeah, I was scared

But Lorell chases me… and sometimes Lilith…

I’m just scared a lot

[zagreus-the-beast]

Do yoU waNt me To gEt rid Of thAt. The FeaR. It CaN be My apolOgy.

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

Maybe i Should break some laws of time..

Go and see myself in the future.. go and punch my academy tutor for fun.. something like that..

[zagreus-the-beast]

YEEEeeEeEEsSSSSSSsss!!!!!!!!!!!

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

.. why are You encouraging me?

I'll ask you kindly not to eat my paradoxes...

Because i know that's probably why you're so excited about all that

[zagreus-the-beast]

...CAN I eAt paRAdoXeS ArOuNd yoU? The OneS yoU CreATe :)

PlUs, cAn'T an EnTiTy bE excITEd abOuT chAOs???

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

No- that's.. what i meant when i said My Paradoxes. Simply ignore my paradoxes that involve me.. you can eat other ones..

Chaos on a cosmic scale makes me nervous.. it's some sort of annoying psychological trait. But it does matter to me, i hope you understand

[zagreus-the-beast]

OHHhhHhH yOu'rE ClaiMing TheM. I mEaN if yOu wanNa eaT thEm I guESs sinCe you maKe TheM thaT'd Be yoUr riGht... :(

BleHhh okAYy YoU caN be bOrIng if yOu waNt. You'Ve bEEn niCe anD StuFf so I'lL be nIce Back. I thInk That's HoW it WoRks...

[you-may-not-call-me-fred]

Thank you. If we ever encounter eachother hopefully not in a very bad someone's eating someone way I'll give you.. uh. Sweets?? That's what the Doctor gave to everyone and it seemed to work as a peace offering at least.

[zagreus-the-beast]

I caN't EAt tAngIbLe FOoD, oNly ThinGs LiKe mEmOries AnD MiNds and StuFf. SomEtimEs MeAt if I'm havInG a Good DaY. If YoU haVe a MemOry yoU wannA get Rid of I'D accEpT that! :)? I'm gOoD at GettIng Rid of MemOriEs.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

...Hi.

I'M noT ANGry ANymoRe.

OR, WelL. I Am A LITtlE bIT. BUt Not As MUch. Do YoU WAnnA Talk OR SOmEthinG.

@zagreus-the-beast

Yeah... yeah, we could talk

[zagreus-the-beast]

OkAy. GoOD. So UHh.

...AboUT What I TolD yOU. ThE SeCRET. CouLD yoU. FOrgET iT? PlEasE.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I… don’t know

He wants me dead. He wants all of us dead, I don’t know… if I can be okay with that

[zagreus-the-beast]

PlEAse. I FuCKeD up ReAllY bAD By tElIiNG yoU. I TooK mY PUniSHmENt, bUT it DoeSn'T ChANGE thAT IT hAppNEd. JUSt- JUSt FORgEt IT. PLeASE?

I'M nOT aSKiNG yoU To BE okAY WIth IT. I'm ASKinG you TO FoRgEt.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I can’t forget I know it now and I’m sorry I told I just don’t know what to do

[zagreus-the-beast]

..IF yOU hAD TolD AnyONE ELSe, I ThiNk mY pUNIshmEnt WOuLD'VE BEEn way WorsE. So. IT'S GOoD ThAT yoU DIDn'T.

WhaT DO yoU mEAN YoU cAn'T FoRgEt iT? YoU CAn jUSt pUT IT AWay. RighT? You PUT The MEmoRy WhERE You CAN't ToUCh iT.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I can’t do that

What was your punishment?

[zagreus-the-beast]

WHAt- WHY Not.

...It.. IT DoeSn'T MAttEr. JUst. GET Rid Of ThE mEmORy. AnD Then nEitHEr oF uS hAVE To heAR thE nAme.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I just can’t

I’m sorry

[zagreus-the-beast]

It- IF yoU Don'T knOW hOW... I cAn Do IT foR yoU? IT's.. I'Ve bEEn in YOuR miND BEforE. I KnoW hOW to nAVigATe IT.

PleASe.

IT's sAfER ThiS Way.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*takes a step back, afraid*

[zagreus-the-beast]

...FinE! FInE. WHaTEvEr. Don'T buRy thE mEMoRy.

*It looks nervous, tail thrashing.*

...MY loRd BRaNDed mE. FoR thE rEcORd. So I CoulDN'T Say HIS naME agAin.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Branded?

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shifts from one paw to the other, head lowering in shame. It turns around and pulls the back of its waistcoat up until its shoulder blades are revealed. Between them lies the seal, now a burn scar.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*gasps in shock, and reaches out, stopping just short of touching it*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*Its tail tucks between its legs. It glances at xem over its shoulder.*

...IS iT bAD..?

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

…yeah

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It hurries to tug its waistcoat back down over the scar, shoulders hiking up to its ears.*

...WhaTEveR. BArely EvEN huRTs ANymORe.

ThAT'S a LIe. HURts a LOt.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

No! No, we have to treat it, help…

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It hugs itself around its middle and shakes its head.*

IT's FinE. I Ate rEAllY GooD and nOW I FeEl a lOT BETtER.

...PLEAsE DOn'T Tell LiLiTh. For REal ThiS tIME.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I won’t. I promise.

Can’t I put a balm on it? It looks like it really hurts

*winces as xe remembers the blisters*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It sniffs and ducks its head, contemplating. Eventually, it nods slowly.*

JuSt- Be.. gEnTle? I'm NoT usED to paIn yEt.

ThE more I eAt, thE moRe in tUNe with my FOrm I aM. And thE moRe iN tUNE with mY phYsicAl Form I aM, the More it Hurts.

AnD I juSt finiShed StrESS-eAtinG.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

I’ll be gentle

Y-you shouldn’t be used to pain

[zagreus-the-beast]

..I WAs bEfore. In My OtHer BoDy.

*It seems ashamed to not be anymore.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Were you hurt often?

[zagreus-the-beast]

LoRd- My LOrd, uhM, uSed tO uSe it aS A mEaNs of conTRol bEfoRe my boDy AdjuSted.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

You didn’t deserve that

[zagreus-the-beast]

I uSeD to Be VEry POORly BehaVeD.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Me too but Carmilla never hurt me on purpose

[zagreus-the-beast]

I BehAVe loTs bETTer noW. BeCAuse oF WHat he Did. My LoRd is SmaRt.

..SoRRy. I ShouLd stOP talKing abOuT hIm, huH?

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Probably

Sorry

[zagreus-the-beast]

It'S... fiNe.. I'm JuSt noT uSeD to Not DoiNg iT.

..BaLm...? BacK HuRts.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

Yeah, okay. How about you lie down?

*rummages around in one of the first aid kits that are always within arms reach*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It nods and tugs its waistcoat off, laying down on the couch.*

Is ThIs oKay..?

*It fusses with its tail, keeping it out of the way.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

That’s good… *kneels beside it, and puts on a glove, before tentatively touching the seal*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*Its fur raises in alarm and discomfort, claws digging into the couch. It doesn't move. Its claws bury in the fur of its tail for comfort.*

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

*hisses as it burns xem even through the glove*

Okay, okay, maybe… we’ll try something else. Do you mind if your fur gets a little sticky?

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shakes its head, bringing its tail up to its mouth to chew on lightly.*

..No. Don'T ReALLy CaRE. ...ARE yoU okAy? YoU HIssEd.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It’s okay, I heal fast.

*sprays something cooling on its skin*

[zagreus-the-beast]

*It shivers at the sudden cooling of the still-warm flesh, face screwing up in discomfort for a moment before relaxing.*

FEeLs A lITtlE bETter...

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It should numb it, help with healing…

[zagreus-the-beast]

ThaNk You.

*It curls up on its side on the surface, facing xem.*

I'M soRRy foR ChasInG yoU wHEN I gOt maD. I wAs AnGRy anD sCaRed.

[nianaderovelselpeshxiatrephian]

It’s okay, I chase people when I’m hungry

[zagreus-the-beast]

StiLl, You WeRe.. ScaRed toO. I thInk. My pIeCe of Me is in A Non emOtion-BasEd aRea in YoU So I can'T TelL.