Zeke|18|Graduate My real name is Ezekiel but I prefer to go by the name Zeke. I'm a simple guy who enjoys everything in life. Technology, video games, and computers are my strengths. I'm a changed man, for the better. I'm just trying to make it through...
You think when crossing the street that some drivers would know the difference between pedestrian crossing the street or not. Sheesh. Could have almost gotten hit by a car.
After a long hiatus of taking care of himself. Zeke finally decides to ask the question that has been on his mind the entire time.
It had been months since Zeke finally decided to allow Clare to finally have her own space. Even though at least a month of it was him in the hospital as his parents awaited for him to get out of his coma. The moment he woke up, Zeke knew the first thing he had to do was organize his priorities. However, little did the young boy know about the bombshell he was going to face.
During the first month of renovation, Zeke spent most of his time, saving his money and looking for a better apartment. Zeke was thinking about getting a two-bedroom apartment because he could have a room just for Ian. Even though Charlotte never really allowed him to see his son, he wanted to make sure when he had the chance to have Ian over to make Ian’s stay much more enjoyable. As far as his education went, Zeke decided it was best to do online schooling. The downside to online schooling was not being able to participate in the physical labs and the online labs were already draining to begin with. The upside was that Zeke could find a job easily in order to get the income to support his apartment and he more importantly, spend quality time with Ian.
Zeke managed to get a text message from one of his friends that he met recently at his job. The job Zeke was lucky to get was at a family owned bakery. Although he had to work his way in order to actually use his culinary skills to the test, he was given the position of being a server. Zeke didn’t mind his position because it allowed him to understand the customer base more. Reading the text message, Zeke started having his doubts about Charlotte. Ever since he told his friends about the situation, they managed to let him know he should have tested to be Ian’s father. Just because Zeke was the one who was caught cheating, doesn’t mean Charlotte could have been innocent as well.
In fact, one of his friends managed to call Charlotte manipulative. Maybe she was waiting for an outing and this was the way out of it, or maybe she recently found someone while they were on a short break and ended up getting pregnant. Zeke managed to have the courage to call Charlotte. He had no idea who to believe. He felt like his inner anger towards the entire thing was irrational and that he was making up all the possible worse case scenarios in his head. Finally Zeke managed to hear Charlotte from the other end.
“Zeke…? What do you need?” the young girl sighed, as he was tending to Ian who was making a mess in the kitchen. Zeke tapped his index finger against the counter. Taking a deep breath he opened his mouth, “Char, I was wondering. How come you decided to never let me see Ian again? Like I know what I did to you was absolutely horrible and that I deserve everything horrible that will come my way but you cannot forbid me from seeing my son. Charlotte glanced at the man who decided to grab Ian and give him a bath. Before the man left, he gave Charlotte a kiss on the lips before making his way towards the bathroom.
“Because Zeke, you already were proved to be unfit.” Zeke sighed, not getting the answer he wanted, but then again he didn’t ask Charlotte directly. “You know Charlotte. During the whole escapade with Clare, I know what I did was absolutely wrong. However, I can’t help remember that you had one of your male friends over for the longest. Even when we were on break.” Before Charlotte could interrupt him, Zeke continued. “I don’t get it, you felt threatened by my ex from the start, and yet, I never felt threatened from your friend. Part of me is actually starting to wonder if Ian really is mine. Mainly because during our short break you could have hooked up out of the anger I put you through when I told you I wasn’t ready for commitment. This was before the whole you magically getting pregnant and me cheating on you thing.” Charlotte hesitated. “How dare you question whether or not Ian is yours? You know exactly what you did…”
Becoming irritated, Zeke could feel his hands calming up. Although he brought the conversation up with Charlotte, little did she know that one of his friends came in contact with the young man, asking him about his brief relationship with Charlotte. “Funny, because I actually had a friend go talk to him. From what she told me, you two did have a few moments of intimacy. Like I’m not mad about you having a short relationship because we were on a break, I get that, but the thing is. Is Ian really mine or is it his?” Charlotte could feel herself tense up on the other end, she thought she managed to keep her secret under wraps. As she continued thinking about what to say, Zeke decided to ask once again. “Is Ian really mine?” Zeke noticed that Charlotte immediately hung up. Her response alone gave him the answer he needed. He was never the father and Charlotte only did it out of guilt.
Zeke grabbed the already built crib he had and went outside. He threw the crib into the alleyway. The boy’s eyes teared up because the entire time he thought Ian was his. Charlotte was keeping her mouth shut as if he was the one who was horrible for ruining the relationship he had. In fact she was just as bad as he was, lying to him about the baby. Zeke really felt like Ian was actually his and wanted to step up, but the thing was, Ian wasn’t. He never was going to see Ian again, nor did he want to. He only hoped that Charlotte isn’t going to feed her son the same lies as she did Zeke. Zeke managed to grab all the baby stuff he got and just threw it out. He didn’t want to think about anything anymore, he was crushed. He truly did love Ian but he couldn’t believe how betrayed he felt. Zeke never knew that Charlotte was so two-faced. The entire time Zeke was beating himself over not being a better father or the fact he cheated on her. Charlotte was always two steps ahead, making sure Zeke didn’t find out about Ian. And yet he did, all the brown haired boy could do was cry, he didn’t know what to do but to blame himself. After all, he was selfish the entire time so he probably deserved it. The only thing Zeke knew now was the let his friends know the truth as well as his parents. At least Zeke was finally going to be somewhat at peace with himself, even if his heart was breaking.
It’s about more than just apologizing. I’m not hanging onto anything. I just don’t understand how you can move on and pretend that everything that happened between us and what we did to Charlotte is so forgettable. At this point… I don’t think anything is going to make living with this easier.
That’s not true and you know it, Zeke. I did trust you until I found out about Charlotte and found out that you had lied to me about everything. How was I supposed to trust you again after that? I told you things when we were together too. You didn’t understand why I didn’t want to see Ian I don’t see how you would understand why I’m still upset about… about everything.
Okay. Yes, I did make my mistakes, but obviously sorry will never cut it. I tried moving on, but instead you try hanging onto what I did in the past. Clare...I'm sorry, just for everything. Would it be easier if I stopped talking to you?
Of course, because you'll never talk about it. You never talk about anything to be honest when we were together actually. It was obvious that you never trusted me, even when you said you did. It's just so weird how much you would tell me when we were friends and the moment we actually dated things changed, still don't understand why you think I wouldn't understand.
I mean, yeah I will probably get to see him on occasion but money is usually hard to earn at this point. Fine, we can drop it, obviously since you're never going to talk about it anyway.
Because Ian’s your child too. You aren’t upset that she’s moving that far away and that you’ll rarely get to see him? I’m not mad. It’s… complicated, Zeke, you out of everyone should know that.
I am upset, but I have to understand why she did it. Plus, Ian came from her, as much as I can have somewhat of a say, it's for the best. It's complicated? Okay. No, I hardly know anything. Hell,I don't even understand what it means half the time when a girl tells me she's fine because for some reason it's always the opposite.
I know she isn't, but she is taking advantage by going to school somewhere else and living with her new boyfriend. Why would I go with her? We're not together, besides I think it's for the best if she goes on her own. I think Ian will do fine, I'm sure the visits will be limited but I'm okay with that. No, I'm sick of this whole you always being mad but never truly being honest.
Yes you are! Oh, I didn’t know that she was moving and taking Ian with her. I’m sorry, Zeke. It’s not about Ian doing anything to me! It’s that every time you talk about him or if I had to see him it would be a constant reminder of what happened between you two and the lies that you told me about how I was the only girl that you had ever loved. Don’t you get that?
No I’m not! Yeah, she wants a change in scenery and I think that it is probably best for her to do so since Toronto brings her bad memories. Clare...I didn't mean to hurt you...
No I'm not! Yeah, her opinion should matter, but last time I checked recently in my life. Charlotte is happily dating someone who treats her right. She is actually planning to move to Seattle, so the chances of me seeing Ian as much as I used to are slim to none. No, I don't understand. Ian hasn't done anything to you.
Yes you are! It certainly seems like you forgot about everything. If you didn’t forget everything then you should be able to understand why my seeing Ian is a horrible idea that would do more harm than good to everybody involved. Not only would Charlotte hate the idea of my seeing your son, but I wouldn’t feel comfortable with it either.
No I'm not! Well, I haven't. I just decided that it was best to acknowledge what happened and move on from everything with better things to look forward to. Okay, you won't ever get to see Ian okay? I understand why you are so uncomfortable with it. Even if Charlotte's opinion doesn't really matter much to me, yours is way more important. I never will understand why Ian is so ruined for you.
Yes you are! I just can’t believe that you’re able to forget about everything that happened so quickly. I know that he’s a baby, Zeke, but someday he’s going to start asking questions and you’re going to have to explain everything to him.
No I'm not! Clare, I didn't forget anything. I remember exactly what I did and the mistakes I've made. However, I'm not going to let the past define me, if I choose to live in the past, then I will never be satisfied with any future outcome. To live in the past to me is more like a self inflicted wound, people prefer to stay there because they're afraid of what the future holds and that nobody will ever compare to the people they've met and loved, however, that isn't always the case. I know, but when that day comes, I will explain it to him.
Yes you are! You really don’t know why I wouldn’t feel comfortable with this? I know that he’s a child, but… he’s a constant reminder of everything that happened. I can’t believe that you’re completely okay with everything. He’s eventually going to find out, Zeke.
No I'm not! No, not really. I am okay with everything because I put it behind me. Why would I let my past control my future? I rather live in the moment than be stuck in the past, otherwise, I would never learn to do things again or that I can find happiness. I would be stuck always wondering what if rather than what now. I know, but for now he's a baby.
Yes you are! I wouldn’t feel… comfortable seeing Ian. Maybe Charlotte has the right idea. This whole thing is messy, Zeke and maybe it would be better if I didn’t meet him at all. Wow. I’m glad that you’re able to get over this situation and not feel guilt anymore about how we ruined people’s lives. Ian’s going to find out about this situation sometime. Especially when he gets older.
No I'm not! Clare, I don't get why you wouldn't feel comfortable? Ian is a child, he is completely innocent in this entire situation. Well, sometimes its best to let go of the past and move on towards the future. Yes, it was a horrible situation and I should have known better at the time, but I'm trying to focus on being a better person. Well, not everyone will find out about the situation. I don't know why he has to know.
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