Wasn't me

Indie Swordsman!Komaeda

[zekkxu-blog]

Junko-sama! I bought those earrings like you asked, would you like me to give them to you now?

[nanonmi]

… That was the worst way to invite me to run with you, Komaeda-kun. You can’t just insult me and still act cordial about that, you know. It… doesn’t work that way as far as I know. People with common ‘trashiness’ probably… aren’t the best of friends either. 

I’ll join you though. I don’t have much else to do anyways.

[zekkxu-blog]

It’s not an insult if it’s true..Say you were to call me a nobody, a bottom feeder. Someone who rides on Junko-sama’s coattails. I would agree with all of it! Cause it’s all true! We’re in the same boat Nanami-san. I finally have someone as disgusting as me roaming around the school.

Fantastic, why not look at the sights of hope’s peak on our way there hm?

[hetamoji]

I’m pretty sure I told you to shut up if you couldn’t say anything nice!

[zekkxu-blog]

.....Mmm

[hetamoji]

Nagito-kun?

[zekkxu-blog]

Y-Yes Junko-sama?

[hetamoji]

Then get better at lying, sheesh! Even if you don’t really mean the things you say, you could at least make an effort not to deliberately tell me things that upset me…. I know it’s asking too much of you just to think kindly of me at all, but…. I really did think you were different… 

[zekkxu-blog]

N-n-n-n-n-n-n-n..It's not. I'm not saying this I think one thing and the other comes out. Th-this useless body isn't cooperating! I do nothing but think kindly of you, I would never say something s-so disgusting! Truly please forgive me, I don't mean it! I don't!

[hetamoji]

Hmmmmm. Hmmmmm - mm - !! No. Yanno? No! That absolutely just will not even a tiny bit do at all. Are you telling me I’m better than gum, senpai? Are you telling me I’m better than people scrabbling in the light of their still-to-be-crushed dreams like blind rats in a dumpster? Are you telling me that the lofty heights I inspire in you just barely qualify as “definitely better than some terrible stuff, that’s for sure”? I don’t think so. You know, I mean, it’s cute! Your little schitck, your little problem, Nagito-kun spilling his insecurities all over the rug again and isn’t it cute, but -

I’m getting real fuckin’ tired of that, actually! Like, totally exhausted, worn out, bored! You’re boring me. Do you know how bad that is? Do you know how utterly terrible that is? Do you even think you can redeem yourself from this, as far gone as you are? You’re one word away from being downright disappointing, and, well. It think you’d best shut your mouth until you can say something actually complimentary, before you utterly break my heart.

[zekkxu-blog]

No I! I didn't mean it like that! I just never understood why you took interest in me when I was below you to begin with. I praise you every day because you make me into something better than I was i-it's just. Very hard to shake my old mindset is all! 

I-I..Alright. I a-apologize once again Junko-sama. I did not want to offend you like I did. 

[zekkxu-blog]

I can't help but think that you're quite an odd sight. I've never seen someone that doesn't look utterly ratty in every way possible. You seem to still have an eye for the finer things..Ah, not that that takes much. I mean some people are still struggling with thirst in this world that's been torn in half! It's kind of humorous when you think about it hm?

[hetamoji]

Hey now! Hey now, you quit that! You know I don’t even bother calling you up on the hundreds of mistakes you make unless they super duper get-their-own-title bother me! And when I do, you fix your behavior right away. Isn’t that great? Isn’t that all we can hope for in this ugly and imperfect world? I think it is - !! I think it is, and I think you are doing your absolute best.

Ah - I’m so glad to hear that! I’ve been so worried, you see? My cutest and best-dressed grapevine told me that you’d been going around telling everyone you were worthless compared to them! And that, just, like, broke my heart? I thought I was special, senpai… Being worth more than you doesn’t mean very much as a compliment if you’re just rock bottom, does it!

[zekkxu-blog]

I'm sorry once again, my deepest apologies. I-I'm glad that you have faith in someone like me Junko-sama. I'll work to keep it, otherwise I'd have no choice but to..Cut my own throat, a life disappointing you isn't a life worth living. I'll make sure to correct all..My mistakes.

I had no idea, I am. What I am is educated, better than everyone who has not seen your light. But that's as far as it goes because compared to you I am nothing. I always will be nothing and I'm happy. Happy that I am nothing but the gum stuck to your heel, it's a position only I could fill after all.

[hetamoji]

Much better! Okay, okay - you can talk now! You can talk, you can apologize, go. Ah, but don’t look so sad, senpai. Everyone makes mistakes, and I’m certainly not holding it against you if you mess up. In fact, I’m kind of flattered! Here I am, little old me, and you’re practically falling over your feet. You sure know how to make a girl feel special, Nagito-kun! Do you do this to all the lowerclassmen?

[zekkxu-blog]

I apologize for..All my transgression against you in these past few moments Junko-sama. It's purely my fault and no one else's, I'm..Glad that you're going so easy on me. You're very benevolent, the kindest spirit I've ever seen. 

No! Of course not! All this speech is only for you, it's wasted on everyone else's ears. What's the point of such talk if one doesn't mean it? I would not give you something so generic, you don't deserve something as disgusting as that.

[hetamoji]

Na - gi - to - !! You’re just trying to make me blush now, aren’t you, huh? Saying all those nice things just to remind me, but -

☆{ hopping up onto her toes, one shoe still hanging off at the heel, she presses a cereal-breathed kiss to his cheek and drops back down}

- I definitely told you to shut up just now! Didn’t I? You can answer that!

[zekkxu-blog]

He almost screams, feels like he almost screamed. But not a word is uttered out of his disgusting mouth. He shuffles along slowly, sure his breathing has stopped and he'll collapse any second. Not one word. At least do her this service for giving you this. 

At least. 

[zekkxu-blog]

Get me out of this body get me out of this body it does nothing but mess up I almost TRIPPED what were those twelve hours of practice for. This is fucking disgusting, kill me kill it. Destroy it, it has no WORTH.

[saionmyoji]

Well then, just die!

God big bro, you’re really a depressing piece of shit, you know that? Bet you do! Bet I’m not telling you anything you haven’t already practiced in the mirror ‘til it lost any meaning at all, and you could just agree with it like the pathetic worm you are!

…So-orry! Big sis is being real mean, isn’t she? She just doesn’t have any patience at all, not even a little bit. Me’n big bro Nidai have been preaching salvation to the rioters and watching them go go go, and it’s really fun but all that shouting wears down all my nerves and you just get on every single one! Say something nice, for once in your miserable existence! Tell me you’ve got hand lotion, or something!

[zekkxu-blog]

Ah you're much too nice to me Saionji-san, I'm quite sorry I can't live up to your wishes, I still have a job to do after all. Depressing? I never considered what I was saying particularly depressing. Just a neutral truth, but that's just my flawed reasoning isn't it?

No no you're not being mean at all! I deserve it after all. Lotion? I do happen to have some on me, it does wonders on keeping my hands from getting dry. I can't have them dry and cracking or else I'd have nothing useful to my name after all! Would you like some?

[hetamoji]

Then shut up! Here, make yourself useful and carry my backpack, hmm? It’s pretty heavy, and I don’t see the point in me hauling it around if you’re here. I mean, it’s not like you have anything better to do, right, or you wouldn’t be hanging around here trying to score a date with a younger girl… 

[zekkxu-blog]

I feel like I'm being spoiled! I'd be honored to do so for my Queen. I'll make sure never to drop it, if I do I'll chop off my arms and feed them to dogs!

And as he says that he almost drops it but manages to hold it using some semblance of strength. Spindly looking arms try not to look as if they're even slightly struggling as he holds it up. No pain visible on his face.

You are what's better Junko-sama! You're always the better thing I have to do, it's gotten quite bland talking to anyone else. I live for your acknowledgment. 

[zekkxu-blog]

You look quite strong, I'm almost tempted to see how hard it'd be to cut your head off but you aren't a lamb in the slaughter like everyone else. I see you've also taken up the sword, it's always quite a pleasure to meet another sword user. 

I'm Komaeda Nagito, who are you if this body may ask.

[nanonmi]

… I’m up for doing something with you, Komaeda-kun. Anything or anywhere specific you want to go? I’m just wandering, so I don’t exactly mind where… you choose for us to spend time together at.

[zekkxu-blog]

Ah, none of you can make up your minds can you? It's the same with all you reserve course people, but pretend that insult didn't happen! After all I'm trash, it would make me on level with you I would think though. The perfect friends! 

Why don't we go for a jog around the track hm?

[hetamoji]

You say that like there ever was, Nagito-kun! It’s okay, though, I forgive you - I mean, it’s nice to get some time off from looking so much painfully better than everyone else, you know? And you make it so easy. I don’t even need to put lipgloss on!

[zekkxu-blog]

You see through me so easily, it's almost- No, it is quite scary Junko-sama. You always look beautiful to me no matter what, I would relish seeing you in any form. Truly a sight to behold, ah but you don't have to care about this compliment from someone who doesn't even deserve your heel crushing their chest.

[saionmyoji]

And I bet that blocking her line of sight to the blood with your shitty body makes you feel so proud, right?

Gross! Why are you telling me, huh? Huh? Don’t you think outta everyone here, big sis Hiyoko would probably know about your stupid kill-sprees first? ‘Cause, she did! It’s just that I don’t give a shit, ‘cause I was busy doing real work, for real people, with big bro Nidai. What have you been doing, besides taking up space?

[zekkxu-blog]

I never thought of that, just another mess up to add onto the list. This body moves on its own even when I don't want it to, it's truly disgusting. 

Anyway! I haven't done anything worth merit, things have been rather slow. No one of any worth has bothered to challenge me and while I'm not at all qualified to say this it's been..Boring. I would almost say I hate living such a dreary life aha!