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Я очень люблю милый одежды ♡ she/they ♡

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MEN DNI 💀💀💀

I litterally got TWO notifications today and firstly there was a guy who was in his mid FOURTYS who dmed me "lovely new selfies" and then some guy commented on my post he was looking for a sugar baby.....

IM A LESBIAN

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I really want a girlfriend. I was a girlfriend that I can have sleepovers with and sneak outside to the local pair of swings and gaise at the stars. A girlfriend that I can be honest to. A girlfriend that ACTUALLY loves me.

I want to make cookies with her, have matching jirai/ryousangata outfits with each other. A girlfriend that supports my dream of cosplaying, a girlfriend who supports my love of anime. A girlfriend a girlfriend a girlfriend.

But will I actually love her?

My journey of complete loniness at a young age makes my want for this makes actually going out there and getting a girlfriend makes it challenging.

Like, I know I can get one! Easy! Kinda? I've had people fall for me, multiple times before. And this one girl I'm pursuing- she said to my friend who told me that she would date me if her parents wouldn't have been so strict about dateing. I wasn't supposed to know that too.

Do I actually want a girlfriend? I know earlier I just have said I'd kill for one. But after a little while of actually liking sombody the feelings end. Maybe it's just becoase ive never been in a legit relishinship ?

Dateing sombody sounds scary. But is it that scary if it's just have a best friend? Isn't that what I want? A best friend ?

Or maybe I truely do want a partner. A partner that I can go to the local theme part together and share an ice cream, Go on the ferris wheel and smile deep into each other's eyes.

I DONT KNOW WHY THOUGH BUT THAT JUST SOUNDS TERRIFYING !!!!!..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!¡!!!!!

Becoase we will have to kiss. I don't wanna kiss :( cuz what if I had bad breath that day. And her kiss ends up horrible?!

At the same time im curious. I want to kiss a girl, no doubt. But also not really???????????????????????????????¿?????????

Cuddling though........ cuddling sounds pretty nice.

If I do end up in love with a girl, would i even make a good partner? What if I end up overwhelming her ? I do like to belive I would make a good girlfriend. Atleast the bare minimum... i promise you guys! If I had a girlfriend I would do anything in my power to make her happy !! I kinda want a girl to do the same to me too though :(

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I lovebthis plush smmmm <3

I hope i don't look like an alien here 😭💀

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I've had these plushes from since I was around six or younger. They mean alot to me.

Somtimes I even wonder if they're dateing. I see it in their souls how much more happy they are when they're together.

Call me stupid for thinking synthetic blushes have emotions. But you're just sad. I love my plushes.

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I went to a cute store the other day and bought this !! ᡣ • . • 𐭩 ♡

It genuinely smells AMAAZIZIZIXNG GMGMGM but Idk hownto use those so the smell doesn't last very long

I didn't get the stuff on the right 💔 even though i really wanted it !!!

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