Indicator Of Mentality And Mood

What’s the point of keeping this? I enjoy staying up to date on current events involving the world.

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Your boy went from entry level position to mid level management in 4 months! About to make 6 figures before I’m 30! I couldn’t be more proud of myself!

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It sucks falling for friends

Especially ones in relationships :/

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Coping with the world around me without treatment or actively acknowledging my lack of initiative. I really fucked up my life when I attempted to take it. Guess I’m sticking to plan B. Whatever the hell that is.

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Ready for my dream to be crushed this week. Paying for mistakes that are 5 years old.

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I don’t really understand love.

“Always is valueless I wish I never heard her speak a word.”

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It’s a shame that dating apps seem to have more active sex workers rather than individuals seeking an intimate connections. This is why I won’t ever pay for such services.

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Living back at my moms

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Bekah one week, Andy the next.

What the fuck has become of the people around me? I’m considering just dropping negative people in my circle entirely.

Love seems to exist when it isn’t being seeked it seems.

Finding the right person before falling for them will be crucial to establishing a productive relationship. It seems like it’s too much to not be an afterthought.

I feel like ex’s have been a prominent conflict with my personal romantic experiences. How does one overcome jealousy and effectively process emotions following a break-up? Asking for a friend lol

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Drove to the upper peninsula with my hot date!

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What’s social distancing?

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Tinder is worthwhile :)

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I write to cope

It’s what I do best

At least that’s what I believe

Like inspiring every time I pause to breath

Is it worth my time?

My mind recedes.

Here I am back to square one

Recognizing this feeling of being numb

Special thanks to whoever may be my # 1

Embracing vulnerabilities until it’s done

Referring to our time for love

I’ve felt dead inside before you’ve come.

How did you read that?

Now you ponder the thought

Interpret as you wish, cause art isn’t taught

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[just-shower-thoughts]

For deaf people, reading lips has become much more difficult lately

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I’m over it dude, you should be too lol

You’re condescending and disrespectful. That’s that. I’ll accept it for what it is. As should you. Kicking me while I’m down is chill. It’s the usual for you ;)

You’ve already been evicted and treated shitty by people. You’re spiteful that we didn’t work things out. I let you play me like a fool again but that’s in the past. You gave me an opportunity to learn and better myself by withholding to those I care/cared about. For that I am thankful.

For your peace of mind I’m not pursuing anything because it’d be fruitless like every interaction we’ve had. (Except in your case)

If you feel guilty then that may be an indicator of what shred of morality you have left. If not, then you’re equivalent to Warren buffet in terms of undermining individuals living below your comfortable standard. Congratulations for “glowing up” but applause waits until the show is over and the curtain closes.

It’s not my battle anymore, now it’s yours and a weight you bear. Knowing you could’ve assisted someone who has been there when you needed a hand or an ear. Before you became who you are I was there. When your father stepped back into the photo I was there. I was present when you moved back to Detroit. I suggested you make the move to modeling and I’m happy that you followed through with it. You can despise me all you want but I know you won’t forget that I was there through the pain you’ve endured and I know you’re strong. Do what you do best. Make everyone feel valueless and as miserable as you feel and maybe you’ll forget how much you hate the things about you. Perhaps loving someone or loving yourself would be a good place to start.

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Water under the bridge right? Easy to disregard those who were there for you when you wanted help and didn’t NEED it.

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A little perspective. It wasn’t my fault you were evicted. But I helped irregardless. I moved out of my moms months ago in with some friends. They’re moving elsewhere and I thought I’d ask for you to try and help make things right. There’s still no expectation but the least I could do is try. At least that’s my toxic trait.

I found affordable housing but need help with the security deposit. But now the shoe is on the other foot and it doesn’t concern you. Like anything that doesn’t serve to benefit you. I should’ve learned to be more selfish from you. But hindsight is 20/20. You don’t have to keep looking me up to contact me. Your guilt can eat at you but that’s your issue to resolve. Like you said, you don’t support people you’re not with and I don’t blame you. I just regret that I did help you when you needed it since you won’t return the favor. You said your piece, I’ve expressed mine. I don’t want to be homeless and I don’t think I deserve to suffer for being generous.

Life will sort us both out and karma will give us what either of us deserve. It’s water under the bridge now.