i think it's very important that people know how common undereating is, esp. for feminized people, and how the lower calorie requirements for "women" are bullshit. you don't need to have a restrictive eating disorder (a psychiatric disability in which your relationship with food + body image is dangerous to your health [sometimes deadly] and prohibits you from participating in your daily life, forming relationships, and so on) to not be eating enough.
you could go your whole life not eating enough and not die or get really sick, but just be tired and grumpy a lot, or perform worse, or have brain fog, or a million other things. like there are so many gradations between "should have a snack" and "has a severe eating disorder". maybe you don't have an eating disorder, but you should still start eating more than iced coffee for breakfast. try it sometime!
i love minecraft waiting behaviors. Writing on a sign and you can vaguely see your friend hopping around making spontaneous parkour out of the terrain while they wait for you to finish. writing a message in chat and having the person you’re talking to crouch right in front of you or stand as close to you as possible while they wait for you to finish. Finally finishing writing in a book only to see your friend has made several new furniture pieces and/or surrounded you in a cobblestone cube that may or may not have a sign on it. theres something so charming to it
This all started with a connection between the events of the Golden Dream and insects stuck in amber for thousands of years (the beloved golden sky that appears when the golden gem is formed also looks like cracked amber, finally freeing something that was vaulted for a good reason). Thus, the first frame was born, S3 Mugm and Wyll staring into the eyes of S2 Mugm and Wyll.
There is something utterly fascinating about creatures so well preserved you expect them to fly. They look alive to a point you almost wish they were unaffected by the predicament you found them in. But you are thousands of years too late to save them. (cough cough isn't that familiar)
Then, the poem emerged, and with it – a desire to make it a 4-piece series. Amber is a very funny stone because it comes from something alive that just froze one day, and therefore is not a traditional Gem. Other gem-wannabe stones that were once living also include fossils, (dead) corals and pearls. All illustrations besides the last include them, circling back on P32's idea that this server corrupts people, in this case through a desire of the living to become a gem. They never fully succeed but they die trying.
Second page is Silva finding his bliss with Q; it is the escape from the stone, from the system that turns you into one. However, it is the only page that is fully contained within the black border. Also, if we imagine Silva getting out of that cave and escaping the ever-surrounding stone, we can see that there are still stone pillars towering above the cherry trees.
Dol9hin and Stormz find their bliss amidst a typhoon. Well, try to. The coral reef is dead, there are eels everywhere, and the only pearl they can get is still stuck inside a dead mollusk. (there is more to this one but thats a story for another day)
Finally, the last piece, one that is not bound to any stone. It is actually fully about trying to break it. Here, in the middle of a massive battle, while everyone is blinded by the sun and the desire to win and to gain something, a humble raccoon casts a shadow on one of the soldiers, freeing him from the heat. A shadow that has no "real" influence on this world somehow makes a knight reconsider his ways, offering him the ability to see how blind everyone else is, both in the setting of the illustration and metaphorically.
There are smaller things that I don't want to write down because I am sleepy, forgetting proper english and wish to rest (besides, having everything delivered to you on a silver platter is a little boring. I love this series of illustrations and I will be over the moon if even one person finds something in it for themselves)
Hi nox!! What do you think about p32’s inability to accept that he has an impact on Bliss and even if he were to leave and Kantje would still be there, people would notice!! (He cannot escape the Dragpath)…
ohhh bro how do I formulate thoughts um um
I think participant 32 as a person is unable to accept his life as something significant. I think he finds solace in lacking meaning, in nihilism, he finds it wonderful to be reminded by the Beyond and the Wisps that he is just a small particle in a larger universe, that all he does has no greater impact.
To quote himself, "I'm not supposed to HAVE any consequences!" He's not supposed to be more than just an outside perspective, just a small push towards a better outcome. He wants to do good, he wants to help people (as seen through the relapse test and despite what's happening still wanting to help stormz) but I think the greater reality will not let him be free of consequence.
For participant 32, the entirety of Bliss SMP is not a place OF consequence. He views his existence there as insignificant- if he dies, he himself has no harm. He doesn't EXIST in Bliss, his actual self is in a different place. He sympathises with the kantje varient (using words from the H.C.C. database that showtimers would know) that he's taken over, but ultimately it's not an issue to him. It's only when someone else acts upon his death that he takes issue with.
I don't know how kantje (the creator) is gonna push the story, but I can see it playing out in two ways:
Participant 32 is forced to recognize that he is significant to Bliss as a whole and his existence is of consequence, that he is forced regardless to live as himself and face what he has done.
Participant 32 leaves Bliss changed and confused by his experience, setting up for a climax in which his importance and impact is fully realized and he has to deal with the results of it.
As of right now it's a bit hard to see how the story goes, since P32 quite literally is having a crisis of identity (previously identifying with being P32/just a number and being a passive force, vs now identifying with kantje/his NAME in Bliss and deciding to be more active) so I'm curious. I think it's going to go badly and has indications of neural contamination (another big word from the H.C.C. database that showtimers would not know) but we'll see what goes down between him and Stormz
there's something significant in his backstory that we're yet to see that might be the reason for that. HCC constantly pushing the "they are just people, you are an important asset" agenda and yet despite that he keeps belittling his own life, there's some significant trauma hidden there for sure
if i recall correctly it has been stated that P32 is not one of the people taking from prisons for the program by HCC but he is "as deserving to be here" by his own judgement
with the Database's "hint" of sorts we know that he HAS killed before. but it's only a speculation if these things are connected or not (in my opinion its not but it's good to keep in consideration as a possibility)
my theory is that in one of his previous missions he might've done something that led to either 31 or 30 to be trapped wherever they are trapped right now (trojan), but there's little to no proof to that so might as well be just a speculation
also side note about the "identity crisis" that he's having – P32 is a nickname that the chat came up with, but when we asked about it initially he said something along the lines of "but i already have a name, it's kantje" and i was thinking about it since. we might be the reason he had problems distincting between himself (P32) and bliss!kantje in the first place
(not actually, we all know the actual reason is that he couldn't drop his own name for the number like HCC told him to, this idiot just keeps breaking every rule possible so much that im about to be on the evil corporation side at this point)
Hi! I'm not technically back from the dead. I don't think. But I was made aware by the lovely @furekami that I never posted my contributions to the ORV scenario zine! There's another one somewhere around here. I'll find it. In the mean time, please enjoy.
I was just listening to "Two" by Sleeping at Last and it brought back all of my very emotional feelings about ORV that I thought was dormant for two years. God I love this story so much.
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