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Last day at my job!!!!!!!!!!!!

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EVERYTHING is coming up Millhouse!

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GOT ENGAGED YESTERDAY!

not to get ahead of myself but i’m about to accept a job!

hopefully put in my two weeks tomorrow, have two weeks off to go hiking. Start new job, then trip to Michigan for friends wedding and then trip to Cancun for girls week and to meet/visit Dre’s mom!!!

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the extent to which i dgaf about my job anymore

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it’s wednesday if i don’t get a job offer after ive internally convinced myself it’s coming and that ill accept…..

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hopefully i get a job offer this week and can quit my job. hopefully also i get called onto a fire and make some $$$$

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think i’m about to get a job offer doing exactly what i want to do (yay) but the office is 1.5 hours away (boo) but it has flexible scheduling (yay)

need to just wait to see the numbers but leaning yes on it for my career goals.

but potentially a little bummed bc i have the opportunity this summer to advise on fires re: protecting resources and make like 10k in two weeks lol. im like ideally both these things happen but it’s unlikely

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staying home ‘sick’ today yay. my goal is to 1) finish putting wheels back on my car lol 2) apply to one job

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my entire conversation with my therapist this morning was about how i hoped they would meet me at my second request but that i would accept the lower one probably but then they literally just pulled my offer rather than saying ‘we really can’t go any higher’. i’m just so surprised and so disappointed.

i was literally like i’ll put in my two weeks on wednesday. kms

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so the job pulled my offer over a 3k difference rather than trying to negotiate once more with me. just gonna kill myself!

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got a job offer!!!!!!!!!!!

the trials are ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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the potential job org is calling my references hehe yay!

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lately i’m like okay meds have been working for a month or two now, im on the path to a new job, things going good at home and with Maples training. not sure I need therapy anymore !

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I can tell my boss is kinda over me lately but the feeling is 100% mutual lol.

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i do feel like if this org doesn’t hire me it’s their problem because i strongly feel i’m exactly what they’re looking for. but at the same time it will be depressing because im sooooooooo ready to leave my problems behind at this job.

like there’s stuff i’m just not dealing with at this point cause i don’t feel like it and i don’t want to do it. but i can only push things off for so long if i don’t leave here soon 😬

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hello my friends just want to let you know that i bought a ring to propose to Dre. ❤️

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first interview down 1 to go. i have a cold and feel like too exhausted to think but just trying to rally enough to get through this and then i can nap for an hour.

after interviewing with the second org (CA job) I actually think the first job would be better for me (NV job and remote, besides field work). So I need to rally for this and nail it!