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23 years of giving shit. One of the medical staff and a frustrated photo/video something. Sometimes she rode a bike, jog and hike. But most of it she's keeping herself in her tiny shell.

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Napapaisip na talaga ako. Hindi siguro talaga ko worthy mahalin. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahatangina

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"Hindi ko kinakaya. Para bang dumadami ang mayayabang sa mundo na tila sila lang ang magaling. Ang daming pumupuna na akala mo sila ay perpekto. Gusto ko na lang ulit tumahimik at tignan ang mga ginagawa ng mga gago."

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"Patagal ng patagal lalo kong gusto makita ka. Alam ko lagi kang pagod sa trabaho. Isingit mo naman ako minsan para maramdaman ko man lang may pake ka sakin kahit papano. Parang awa mo na."

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You were once my friend. We became twin. Then you want us to be something. But I don’t want you to call me that something. I want to keep you as a friend. A really close friend. That little thing on my chest says “i want more than that. “ My mind contradicts, “i just can’t.” You’re too far to reach. And you’re friendly as fuck.

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Idk what we are now

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Hello. What's up? It's been what, months from now? Namiss ko to. Puro ako work. Minsan lang talaga umalis. Nakakapagod pero masaya.

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Climbed a rock

Mt. Batulao

📷: Lucky

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Breathtaking sight Mt. Batulao 📷: Aya

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The Akyat

You can, if you think you can. Many times that I've always wanted to stop and not to try other things. But whenever I'm in a middle of something I try to always think that I can do anything if I will. So, after the climb I realized that I can do it. That I can reach the top in which yes I did it. There's always a different paths. Yes, indeed. BUT any path that we take there's only one thing we dreamt of, and that is to reach the top. As I said earlier, I did it. From old trail to new trail. Semper ad meliora. Always towards better things. It's always the mountain's peak! Now I know where can I relate that spanish word. There's always room for improvement. The sweat we felt. The courage to finish the trail even the longest possible time. We know can do better. That I can do better. Probably next time haha!

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Seriously, thank you for appreciating me. You know what makes me happy lately? The words you brought out everytime we're together. The "ideal" something you said. It's very magical.

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I don't usually appreciate my whole self. But when I do, there's someone behind it.

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I'll admit that for the past 8 months I've been in a "bitter" stage. Where in I asked myself what's wrong with me. And yes there's a lot of good and bad things I really have. But when someone accepted your flaws. Everything. Eveyrthing will be different. July 2017. You came back, but you never came back a different person. You came back as you which definitely I really liked. My heart's pounding the first you said you were here! I'm so excited to see you! When you finally came over to our home with my bff. Gosh! I wanted to hug you but mahahalata nila na sobrang saya kong makita ka. That's why I only poke your bicep. God. That simple happiness you shared. I wanted to take you home.

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Work

What's wrong with my work? I randomnly asked myself 'do I really love my job? Or am I just pretending to love it?' During college days, I didn't expect to switch course from accountacy to radtech. 'Bahala na. Tapusin nalang' were the words I kept for 4 years. Until now, until today. Board exam, searching for work & going to an interview it's always 'bahala na.' I'm fund with that word and that what keeps me going. I guess. Tbh, even in my personal problems (emotional). I trained for rso and didn't think about the consequences. What comes to my mind, increase salary. They let me sign the contract without explaining it to me. Insane right? 'If you fail to finish the contract..' I need to pay for it. I have an application in another hospital, I told my chief and the hr that I'll be resigning in my position. The hr wouldn't let me because of the contract. I'm willing to pay. I said. And she didn't accept. Fuck. That. Days from now we will be having another training for the new machine which they also wanted a 3 year contract and again fuck that. Bahala na. Putangina.

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You're quitting your job because of the distance?

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Outdoor hallway

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Color Run Laguna - Backlight Edition 2017 Let me start with inulan kami sa may siranglupa papuntang sta. rosa na parang pinagtripan kami ng tadhana. Well super wet lang naman ng shoes namin. Kailangan namin magtiis ng basa ang shoes until the end of the day. Jusko po It's fun run, yes. Pero it's more on lakad to us. Nag enjoy kami magbabad sa initan from 4:30 to 5 or 6pm. Ang daming gumulong sa mga powder sa sahig during the run. It was so nakakadiri. Pero nag eenjoy sila so wala na kong pake. And when the night has come, party with bagets kasi grabe mga senior high halos yata mga tao dun. Medyo enjoy sa music. Okay din yung pagtatapon ng powder sa mga tao sa harap ko. But the nakakainis na part is mygad wasting of water. There's a lot of peeps, probably boys who threw their bottles in the air. Like parang walang matatamaan. Pero I cannot judge them kasi feeling ko it's their first time. Ha, atlast nakapag dinner din sa mcdo with our super dirty shoes. And it's the end of it. Atleast we enjoyed the run or walk.