clarity

this is a personal blog. by a girl named Caitlin. NSFW. 26.

[aleworldaddict]

Adut Akech and Rianne van Rompaey at Givenchy F/W 2018

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couple months ago

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That time I got lunch with Petix

[ubernoir]

Clara Lieu

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So my friend Nick from Brooklyn is in town, so last night I decided to take him to the Ace Hotel for a couple of drinks and to hang. 

We were chillin and such, and I decided I would buy us the next round of beers, and headed towards the bar. Now, I'm usually with folks when I do this sort of thing, so am not used to random older dudes trying to hit on me and thank god it wasn't too awkward, especially because I left my phone in my purse with Nick outside where we were sitting....

So I'm waiting in line and this guy near me proceeds to randomly show me his tinder profile to ask my opinion. hahahahaha I tell him what I think and of course the usual bar banter begins. "Whats your name?" "Do you come here often?" "Do you live downtown", etc etc. and I mention the company I work for and he's impressed. Says he knows of them, etc etc, and then proceeds to ask if we can connect on Linkedin. 

So now Im connected on Linkedin to some guy who def. was trying to pick me up last night.

hahahahahah oh life is weird

[alackof-color]

Lately I Not so present now Not in love For your constant fun

I’ve got time, but you’re tired of waiting You only want me in other spaces Come fill your gaps with people I know no one

So lonely trying to be yours When you’re looking for so much more

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maybe there will exist a day when I dont feel utterly alone some time in the future

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I think Im confused

[goregirlsdungeon]

[d-vouring-blog]

[crownist-deactivated20140418]

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I hate when I see your work reblogged on my dash. fuck you

[dignitea]

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I wish I had cash to do what I wanted to do.

Feel like I work my ass off for nothing.

Im still broke. Still under educated and still stuck.

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"I've had this calendar for three years. I use it for writing assignments and keeping my schedule, but also just to jot down my thoughts and do drawings." "What's.... (opens to random page) .... this page?" "That was about a year and a half ago. It's in two different colors, so I guess it's from two different days. But it's about the same boy." "'The person behind the name doesn't exist'... what does that mean?" "I wrote that one night when I was just sitting in front of my Gmail and Facebook, looking at the name of a boy I liked on the screen, seeing his profile, and somehow feeling like I was connected to him. The screen almost felt like I was connecting to a real person, but he wasn't even there. It was just a name on a screen." "'Silence is cruel'... what does that mean?" "It means I never got the courage to tell him about my feelings." (via Facebook)

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I struggle to grasp how things are/have become some times. I feel like its cause Im always existing in a hazy "what used to be" mode. I forget that I'm not in Vermont anymore and my life is what I make it.

Its nuts to think about it. Things I have done, places I have seen, people I have met. And it's only because or simple things some how becoming...amazing.

Life is weird.