THE MAN WHO FORGETS

i'll always remember when the doctor was me

[11vnth]

INDEPENDENT & PRIVATE writing blog for the eleventh incarnation of THE DOCTOR,  of bbc's series DOCTOR WHO.   THIS BLOG IS CANON-DIVERGENT + INSPIRED BY COMIC SERIES AND BIG FINISH ADVENTURES.   as written by tj.   [   HE/HIM.   GMT TIMEZONE.   TWENTY-FIVE.   ]   this blog is anti-moffat

[enquest]

independent and private multi-muse blog written by tj.   HE/HIM,   TWENTY-SIX,   GMT TIMEZONE.   exploring themes of:   internal warware and wrestling your own demons, losing yourself along the journey, fighting for your beliefs and whether or not you're worth redemption.   #RETREBUTES 

[dumbandy]

i have this constant feeling of wanting to leave all the time, i don't know when, i don't know where, but i only know that i want to leave

[dwgif]

Doctor Who Let's Kill Hitler | 6.08

[11vnth]

❛ I'm asking you to trust me. ❜

and so they meet once more.   it was funny;   she always showed up just at the times the doctor just stopped thinking about when they'd meet next.   there is only a small unease about being around river song that only gets the timelord who infamously doesn't shut up to be quiet at times.  they don't quiete know how to act or be around her.   it's an effect that he barely lets her have over him,   as if he's got a choice in the matter that is.   and he hasn't,   he certain hasn't.   that's what's so scary about being with her.   IS HE A FLY IN HER WEB OR IS SHE THE ONE CAUGHT IN HIS?   to navigate and tread carefully with river is all but expected.

❛ I'm asking you to trust me. ❜

he's heard that sentiment before.   trust is such a tricky thing with the doctor.  there is a part of him that already knows he can trust her completely.   that grow with each path crossed between himself and dr song.   ❝  if only it were that easy…  ❞   the doctor starts,   their frame slightly drapped on the navy hues of the t.a.r.d.i.s outskirts.   but there is also a smile, albeit a sad one because he won't say what he wants to after this   ❝  i don't dive into deep rivers without testing the currents and learning how to swim  ❞  [   OH,   HOW I WANT TO DROWN IN HER MYSTERY THOUGH.   TO GIVE INTO HER TRUST   ]  ❝  just uh…maybe give me a little while?   time isn't of the essence is it?   you & i may actually have a fair bit more than others,   sweetie  ❞  

[11vnth]

“ sorry, but i'm afraid you're stuck here. ”

it isn't frequent at all the doctor comes by something completely new.   more often than not,   he'd seen most of it in his travels across his long,   long and fruitful lifetimes.   and yet…   [   SURPRISE!   ]   the cogs of the intricate antique grandfather clock that was the doctor and his geniusly paired mind started to turn and grind at the sheer sight before his eyes.   [   JUST WHEN YOU THOUGHT YOU HAND IT ALL FIGURED OUT DOC.   LIFE SURE DOES SURE THROW A SPANNER IN THE OLD WORKS.   ]   they take a challenging step forward,   observant but with a curiosity most high.   a perched brow and the doctor's slender fingers move to fix his shifted bow-tie back into a neat frame.   another careful look through his glasses.   he probably shouldn't admit how excited he feels in the moment.   theories upon theories in his mind.   was that…sentient light?

❝ sorry,    but i'm afraid you're stuck here. ❞    @commandinglight remarks

and soon as they do,   the doctor's brow drops.   ❝  oi   !!  ❞   he's quick to challenge and does so; demonstrated by the pointed finger now in the other's way.  but his tone was high-pitched as if he's been deeply,   deeply offended by the insinuation he's just going to do as told.   ❝  uh,   nobody puts me in a corner,   i'll have you know.   nobody  ❞   the scoff that follows is probably seeming very childish but not like the doctor has much care about that.   he's scrappy in what follows suit   ❝  and i'm afraid you've lost your marbles.  what even are you supposed be,   aye?   bad after school special?  ❞  

[11vnth]

doing some replies now. still finding my groove in 11's voice but i'm having a lot of fun. currently icon-less for now cause i'm still figuring out what i want them to look like! stay tuned friends

[8ghth]

 I'M  A  DOCTOR.    PROBABLY  NOT  THE  ONE  YOU  WERE  EXPECTING

#8GHTH. INDEPENDENT  &  PRIVATE  WRITING  BLOG  FOR  THE  EIGHTH  INCARNATION  OF  THE  DOCTOR  FROM  BBC'S  DOCTOR  WHO.     HEAVILY  HEADCANON,     BIG  FINISH  AND  COMICS  INSPIRED. FOLLOWS BACK FROM @11vnth

[11vnth]

rose got my boyfriends tied up i'm crying

[theoptia]

Susan Sontag, from As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980; February 17th, 1970

Text ID: I feel once again, and I rejoice, that I’m not busy dying—I’m still busy being born.

[dwgif]

I can't save you from this. There's nothing I can do to stop this. I stole your childhood, and now I've led you by the hand to your death. But the worst thing is... I knew. I knew this would happen. This is what always happens.

[11vnth]

sorry i've been absent but my brain is so cooked. i'm listening to a lot of 8ths audio adventures as reading 11's comics again so don't worry, i'm still cooking !

[mathewmurdocks]

DOCTOR WHO MEME → outfits [1/5]

eleven + fez - “I wear a fez now. Fezes are cool.”

[11vnth]

notes about my particular portrayal of eleventh that may be of interest to folks.

just off the top of my head, the doctor is very happy with their typical masculine presentation of gender expression but will more often than not find comfort in the use of they/them pronouns as well as he/him. there may be days where there's a particular preference between them both. using both a mixture of the two in the use of he/they will general put a smile on their face.

this incarnation of the doctor is asexual. they have zero desire of sexual interactions and will very outworld show his miscomfort with comfronted with it. he often does ponder what romance would look like for him but even when faced with romantic advances, there is a tread lightly aspect. there is an apsect to the doctor about moving on and trying the new that they think is core to who they are in their current being. he won't often look back

in efforts to keep his brain trained and maybe to settle anxiety, the doctor likes a puzzle. on his own, he can be found seeing how quick he can do a rubix cube or is doing sudoku, crossword puzzles and word searches.

this doctor has a particular joy for board/card games. he's particularly found of scrabble and jenga. with clara, there were countless hours spent on card games in particular. with rory he played lots of chess and with amy it was connect four.

the doctor makes his space known in the sense he will drapse on walls, will intentionally sit awkwardly in chairs or no stools or kick his feet up on tables/benches. he is very feline in that regard.

i don't think the doctor will mind talking over other characters. them interuping you mid-setence might by a common occurance on first meeting but it will die down

random perhaps, but the doctor will carry pieces of gallifreyan jewllery with him at most times. may it be rings, medallions or single earring. he often does not address it at all but will keep them closer. no watches though.

[11vnth]

watching victory of the daleks: (divergences and such)

this episode is so interesting because i used to view this way different than i'm currently watching so this will be as follows regarding the ep.

the doctor and amy find themselves right in the blitz duration of world war ii. to me, this episode throws the 11th doctor back into a time he thought he could abandon and leave behind: war. it is a showcase to amy, his new found companion, that one of the most formulative experience's of the doctors life and who is he currently finds himself to be is that of a soldier which makes them extremely uncomfortable and vulnerable. the doctor had thought they'd found a somewhat static sense of control with amy but he finds himself irrirated and erratic, and more so on the move and making rash choices more so than usual. with the

one important and distinct change is that i don't subscribe to the idea that churchill and the doctor are old chums and have a close relationship enough for the doctor to call one of the most problematic leaders of the uk a friend. however, they have been aquantained in the past and crossed paths. though i do not believe they're close enough for him to ring the doctor whenever he felt. but the doctor's ties to uk leaders is apparent, i don't even think my doctor would have picked up the phone call or would feel comfortable just letting amy pick it up either. so this is how i think it went down, with the last episode establishing the lengths that humanity will do to surviving in selfish odds, and the new closeness he feels in connecting with amy about important chapters in his life, the doctor brings the amy to one of humanites ugliest moments to where quick word gets out to the prime minister of the doctors return despite his failed efforts to reach them. however, once the daleks enter the picture of this chapter, the doctor is trying refrain amy from abouot the tactical and nastiness war can bring out in people, especially from churchill but the doctor can't keep amy from doing much and thus, find himself leaving her with the prime minster in the war efforts.

the daleks connection to humanity, despite their non care for them, is tied to this means for surving and persevering through tough odds. human selfishness is amplified through humans. the doctor can see that clear as day. but that is why the trap to lure the doctor in through his hatred works as means restoring the dalek name: the true victory. the daleks perfectly exploit the doctors weaknesses in compassion for humanity.

i think there will be some remarks about how easily the doctor adapted to war and vague implications to amy about being a soldier before but not explicitly talking about the time war or the details of his previous interactions with the daleks and there relationship to the time war. she does know that they are the doctors greatest enemy.

[youluvkai]

[11vnth]

just watched the beast bellow again and i have major thoughts on how this lines up with how i see eleventh.

this is his first adventure this amy. the premise of having a new companion and someone to travel with is a selfish endevour that after settling from the confusing and disasterous nature of his regeneration. he has dediced to move away from the wallowing guilt of leaving his previous friends behind and despite his lost nature, he enjoys amy's presence.

there is a real interesting duality between this episode and the last which plays into this narrative of the doctors godhood and legacy. it carries on really well from the eleventh hour honest. the doctor finds himself. whilst last and this episode portray different means of punishment in particular. the eleventh hour, the atraxi seek to find prisoner zero who has been hiding through amy's house for the last 12 years in which she had been waiting for the doctors return. there is a blind punishment to the entire planet for keeping the prisoner and the atraxi come down from the stars as these creatures who visually strike resemblance to biblically accurate angels. whilst the beast bellow calls imagery to the ultimate punishment, being sent to hell and the parallels to the devil.

the episode really starts to cement the doctor's ideals of punishment and his relationship and obvious parallel's to the starwhale make themselves known. he's highly empathic and would rather be put out the whale out of it's misery and that the senseless torture was what he shouldn't be doing to himself. amy being the observant individual she is, clocked the doctor's deal as such, he seeks out to set very clear ideas of himself to amy who he is clearly getting very atttached too very quickly. he is very snappy and thus, quick to annoy under stressful circumstances. he's hoping it would create so distance. perhaps to keep her at a certain length but to also get to know him more. the opening two episodes of his era are about survival and perseverance of the human race at two very insticts one formed by himself whilst the other by humanity himself. it links back to his godhood and that he needs a disciple at his arm.

bonus idk i just think it's funny where the doctor goes, a queen elizabeth is the scene of the crime.

there are no notible canon-divergence's from my portrayal and the canon in this episode that i can think of right now