M & J

A small gift for Markie.

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Happy 3rd Montsary, Markie.

Hello, baby. Finally today is our 3rd monthsary! Baby... Time flies so fast and I'm really happy that even until now, we are sti going through ups and downs together. Sweetheart, a lot of things has happened to us. We laughed, we mocked each other (in a playful manner of course), we watched movies together, we joked around together, we discussed about things together, we shared our thoughts and our interests.. And last... Yes... We fought too, baby. We did argue about things.. This and that... You said this and I said that.. Those days, we were so against each other about so many things. But baby, I just want you to know that no matter how much we fight, I will never stop loving you, baby. I do mean it when I say that my love for you grows bigger and bigger with each passing day. I know that you probably keep asking yourself; why is he doing this? Why is he always being stubborn? What did I do to deserve him? And other things that I will never now, baby. Baby... Listen to me... We deserve to be loved.. And I chose to love you, baby. You've taught me so many things, like how it feels to fall in love with someone, how it feels to miss someone so bad when he's not around... And that someone is you, baby. You. Only you. Not anyone else, sweetheart. Don't say that you don't deserve my love and then keep uttering all your mistakes and flaws to me... Don't ever think that it will make me stop loving you. Because I will never will. Baby, I only want you. All of you. Your flaws. Your mistakes. Your imperfections. I fell in love with you because you're being you. You are being yourself and I do admire you. I love you more than those bad days. I love you more than any fights we will have. I love you more than the distance between us. I love you more than any obstacle that comes between us. Sweetheart.. I'm not good in making words.. But I also want you to know my feelings for you.. I know it's a cliche to send quotes or poems. But, I just want you to read these quotes. "You mean a lot to me. A lot more than you think. You give me this amazing feeling. You make me feel special. You treat me with such love and kindness." "And since I have you, there's nothing else I desire in the world. You complete me. You're a part of me now. You ignite the fire inside of me. A fire that would never go out as long as you're here."  "There is no pretending, I love you, and I will love you until I die, and if there is life after that, I'll love you then." "Love is not all about happiness. Sometimes there will be arguments, there will be hurting. But the test of true love is how you hold on to one another and fight for it. Most important, you should not give up." "And I'd choose you; In a hundred lifetimes, In a hundred worlds, In any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you." - The Chaos of Stars. Thank you for making me feel at ease. Thank you for making me feel wanted. Thank you for always supporting me no matter what. Thank you for taking care of me so well. Thank you for everything. Thank you for loving me... I love you, my 1003. (p.s you'd better read this lengthy message and understand every words of them, you crazy old monkey. I freaking love you.)

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I really love him. With all my heart. 

There’s nothing more beautiful than his smile.

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Happy First Monthsary, my old man.

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To : Markie.

Happy One Month Anniversary, love!

Mark Tuan. Markie. Old man. Big panda. Hmm.. Should I put that special nickname too here, baby? The LCM nickname? Ok no.

Old man, it has been a month already and I am beyond happy that we are together now. Never thought in mind that I could be this happy. 

I still remember that day when we first met. He was such a talkative, hyperactive and weirdly the first person whom I feel comfortable with despite the fact that we just met for hours. His long ass messages (Like literally really long..) always had me laughing, to be very honest. This may sound a bit weird but I was the one who greeted him first through direct message on twitter! Wow.. I do admit that I had no shame in sharing this here. I thought Markie wouldn’t reply my super long message, but guess what? He slapped me with a longer message! Ok no. He replied me back!! And we shared our stories there. Mostly my stories, though. And he didn’t complain, nor did he leave me alone. He gave me the most reassuring advice ever.. He was like a big brother to me. A very close friend. And then I had a crush on him. Every notification from him always made my heart fluttered and I smiled like an idiot who’s just been given a very big lollipop. 

In some ways, it feels like I have known Markie for years..

Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for sharing your love with me. 

Thank you for inspiring me to accept myself. 

Thank you for staying with me and giving me your utmost care.

Thank you for helping me see the beauty in life. 

Thank you for accepting me just the way I am..

Thank you for holding my hand through thick and thin, through ups and downs, through the good and bad days. 

It may seem like a short time since we met and fell in love, but my heart knows what it wants and it wants you. And once again it is time to celebrate our love, baby. 

I promise that the love I gave you in this month does not compare at all to the love that I will give you every day of my life, Markie!!! 

I love you to infinity and beyond!!! Once again, Happy One Month Anniversary. <3

Yours and only yours, 

Park Jinyoung. ( a.k.a The most handsome prince in earth. You shall not make any objection, Markie. )

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He is my everything. My only one.

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“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” ― Bob Marley

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“Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.” ― Mother Teresa

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“Would you be mine, Park Jinyoung?” 

“I’m yours, Mark Tuan.”

- March 10th, 2016.