Afroshack

"You're in my head"

[191981naiff]

She likes to swim,

Swim far away from the shore,

One day she keep swimming,

And swimming,

Until her body is sore,

Everyone thought she's fine,

She was far from fine,

As planned,

She let herself down at the bottom of the sea,

Where no one could see,

Couple second has passed,

Everyone is in terror,

As her body going down, horror,

With one last breath she wish,

Wish that 'everyone' is not an imagination,

To find solace in her own suicide as a consolation.

[191981naiff]

I lay my thigh bare,

I watch over and over the jagged skin,

Once for punishment,

Now only for a moment of reprieve,

I wonder if it's gonna stop,

Do I kill it before it kills me,

It feels like I'm already bleeding inside,

Days by days month by month,

The cycle continue,

I seek help mostly from the sky above,

I can't speak of it,

They would be so disappointed,

If I ever crossed the line,

It's better that I kill me before it kills me.

[191981naiff]

I don't think I'm in the right headspace

[191981naiff]

Whether it's in a flock of birds, the herd of cattle, murder of crows, pack of wolves, fever of rays, I'll be the odd one, alone, never fit in.

[191981naiff]

I still did it

[191981naiff]

Do you remember? Because I did, i don't know if I'm just imagining things or if you are just great shoving down the memories and locking it up at the back of your brain.

[191981naiff]

"I'm not pretty"

She said

And all the memories shot down to my brain

When a man who would suddenly talk to me whenever she's near me,

When my own friend would follow her Instagram first despite knowing mine earlier,

When a man suddenly was friendly towards me, asking her whereabouts.

[191981naiff]

Now seems like a perfect time to cease exist

[191981naiff]

Maybe I have to amputate my left hand,

For it actions

But then I still have my right hands

I guess I cut it too

I still have edges, bumps

Maybe I should sew my lust, sew it tight

Or cut my brain in half and take out some parts,

I have responsibilities to follow

My religion, my faith,

How to stop

[vangoghcore]

by mermaid_danii

[heartnosekid]

the giant phantom jelly (stygiomedusa gigantea) | schmidtocean on ig

[life-on-our-planet]

"The magic of the mobula ray migration." ©Aidan Bedford

[vangoghcore]

by michelloup

[gottastim]

mitchellpettigrew on ig

[annasinthewalls]

Take me home

[heartnosekid]

the venus girdle (cestum veneris) | aquatilis_expedition on ig

[191981naiff]

Why wanting to be alone is associated with mental illness, sometimes I just want to be left alone, I don't have to think about anyone else, I could careless about my appearance, I have accepted the way I am, I'm free.