Seo Yul 서율

안녕하세요 !~ ❤㋡ 제 이름은 칼라 입니다. "She is just some wild thing. Let her laugh, live, love, and roam free on her own terms, and she is sure to come back to you." ★Lives in UK ★A '92 liner fangirl ★Admires the beauty and style of Girls' Generation, Jessica Jung, Park Jiyeon, Lee Min Jung, Han Chae Young, Aragaki Yui, Kitagawa Keiko, Nishiuchi Mariya, Rosé ★Loves airports, skincare, catching flights, and taking food and travel photos

[19920512]

I think something shifted in the air since that day I said let’s move in together (for the second time) and I don’t think I’ve ever been the same.

It was my tipping point. I cried cos you gave me the same answer, that you aren’t ready, when you had two years to prepare yourself for it. But damn I can’t even see you ever get ready for anything serious and God knows I can’t wait for you any longer to man up and have some sense of responsibility. 10 fucking years is too much time to be tiptoeing around and beating around the bush.

That was my tipping point. So I spent the entire night crying while updating my resume and sending out my application form to different US staffing agencies. Damn. I have to put myself first for real now.

[19920512]

It's finally December! Last month of the year! And I am coming home for the New Year on the last week. Woooohoooo! It's been almost four years since I last stepped foot in my hometown. I can't believe it. I almost didn't want to go home at first but now I'm happy I'm decided cos I think I need it for my mental health.

I am excited but somehow anxious cos I don't have enough luggage space and I don't want to pay crazy amount of money *coughs* thai airways *coughs* so I'd rather buy the rest of the stuff that I want to give out to my family when I land in Manila.

[19920512]

when little miss "i can do it myself" meets mr "sit down" / "i know you can but let me"

>>>>>>>>>>> aaaaahhhhhh seriously i need a man that will put me in my feminine era

[19920512]

So I called my parents earlier to share the good news that I passed the NCLEX and they only gave me disappointing reaction, as expected. Hell, my cousins were way happier than them, they even fckng cried with joy!!!

My parents on the other hand fed me with how bad it is to work/live in New York/America in general, when it has always been my end goal, then proceeded to ask for money because my mom's birthday is coming soon. Great!!!!!

They didn't even realize their daughter is multi-licensed RN now!!! How comforting was that!!! So if any good news doesn't involve money, better celebrate alone!!!

[19920512]

AAAAYYYYOOOO I TOOK THE NCLEX-RN LAST WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 11, IN HOLBORN, LONDON WITH ONLY 85 ITEMS BEFORE THE COMPUTER SHUT OFF THEN THE RESULT CAME OUT TODAY -- I PASSED!!!!!! AAAHHHHHHHH 3RD TITLE ADDED TO MY NAME!!! 2 MORE TO GO!!!

[19920512]

Omg guys I'm booked for the test on the 11th!!! My lucky number! I'm so happy the schedule works perfectly for me as I don't have to rush to get to the test centre very early. I'm glad I waited for the perfect date and time <3

[19920512]

So funny how while I was filling out an arduous online application form for extension of my work visa, all I could think of was "who the hell am I even doing this for" then followed by "to my future kids, this is for you" lol I'm broke and tired as hell but still I pushed myself to spend every last penny in my bank account just so I could get permission to stay in this country and work for myself and my future family.

[19920512]

I hope you don't give up on the things you've already started just because it's taking some time to accomplish them

[19920512]

I have all the time now but I still can't get myself to work as hard as I know I should have. Is it because I'm alone on this journey? Sometimes I forget why I want this in the first place so I revert to my bad habits and give in to my comfort zone. If there is someone who is also working towards a common goal with me, will I be more motivated?

[19920512]

Freaking halted my studies for days then bought this Japanese guidebook just because I am suddenly interested in learning this language! Talk about messed up priorities!!! I do plan to take a proficiency exam in the future.

[19920512]

I don't know why I'm so scared to take the NCLEX. I know I've been studying and I know I still have lots to learn but despite taking a number of pre-board tests and getting "very high chance of passing" remarks, I still feel like I'm not good enough.

Sometimes I think, why don't I just go for it? Like book that fucking test and just show up, whether I feel ready or not. Just go for it. They said take a leap of faith - how about jump for it instead?

[19920512]

AUGUST, SEPTEMBER, OCTOBER*, you are the month that will give me that extra title to my name!!! 🥹🙏✨

[19920512]

Hi guys. I just had my feet surgery almost a week ago. Today's the 5th day, to be exact, and I badly want to get out of these bandages already as they're looking quite a mess and it just feels too itchy inside. I'm due for check-up on the second week. Until then, I just have to sacrifice for now and gently poke my feet with Q-tips as a way to relieve the itching.

Btw, I think I'm recovering very well. It's still bruised but that's expected. I managed to start walking (by heel bearing) as soon as I was fully awake from general anaesthesia and was discharged on the same day. I bought a walking frame but honestly I only used it for a day lol

I also only took pain killers during the first three days but, because I feel like Codeine is making me too drowsy, I decided to stop and just reached for Paracetamol instead if needed. What I feel is more of discomfort actually, as every time I try to walk (which I only limit to bathroom breaks) I can feel my dressings get tight -- which means it's still swollen, so it really helps when I keep my feet elevated.

I'm so happy I went ahead with the procedure. It was postponed twice but finally happened right before another doctor's strike came about. One of the perks is that I'm on a three-month leave. This gives me enough time to recover AND study for NCLEX, binge watch on Netflix/Prime Video, read romance novels, and lose some weight!

See ya later, work!! I'll be coming back in 'ber' months time

[19920512]

Just read a tweet being shared online that says:

"My toxic trait is that I don't feel any sense of accomplishment after achieving something. Just a mild sense of relief that it's done."

That just hit me 1000x.

[quotemadness]

“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life and start figuring out the one I have.”

— Holly Black

[19920512]

you know that it’s just not meant to be, when even in church and him beside you, you still pray to the heavens that you finally meet the one, rather than pray that he’s the one

[19920512]

Today’s 11/11 and that means — Happy 2nd UK Anniversary to me!! 🙂

I’ve been pulling an all nighter for the past few days and I thought I’d spend the entire day in my room preparing myself for work tomorrow but then my colleague sent a group invite for an impromptu meet up and I was like “let’s go!!!” Lol

That’s how it started. We originally planned for coffee but then we realized we were hungry for more than just a coffee so we ate at Five Guys instead and had their famous burger, cajun fries, milkshake, and unli soda.

While we were at it, we took the chance as well to talk about our plans to take the NCLEX. It was nice to know that my friend and I were actually processing for the same state, which is New York (ahh my love)

After that, we decided to go to the movies because we got a great deal which is only £3 compared to that of the original price of £12. I had my Starbucks skinny caramel macchiato to warm me up and s’mores brownies as dessert before going in.

I wouldn’t really consider this a celebration but it was nice to have a productive day :)