Apologies for the tags, but I believe you interact with this person, so thought you would like to know.
@yukikorogashi @ladysmaid @edenfelled @goetiya
It is in my belief that I was groomed as a teenager. This is the person that did it @/Notoriya or on her other blog @/lamentaticn. I'm not going to waste time, here is why I think
that straight off the bat. I’m dropping the most succinct screenshots first. It is honestly deeply upsetting to see how brainwashed I was at the time.
Now I would like to make a disclaimer. I intend on making this as fair as
possible. If I am unfair to her in the evidence, I will point it out. I will censor anything particularly sensitive. I want people to be aware of what she's done and that she's on the very same platform that I believe she first started to groom me on. I also believe that I am not collateral damage of her being emotionally stinted. I believe that she has a thing for teenagers. While I do not live in her head, the evidence here should be enough for anyone to come to the same conclusion.
My second disclaimer is that I was not a good person in that relationship. I'm fine with admitting that. I was a shitty partner, I was an emotional mess and I wasn't always fair. I don't doubt I've left her some scars. I will be upfront and say that's one of the reasons it took me a good few years to come out about it. The guilt was immense. I accept full accountability of me being unhealthy at that point.
For the full background, she first contacted me when I was 16. I was an at-risk youth. I had a
severe anxiety disorder, was been groomed before, and I came from an abusive background
I was fucked up, and she was aware of my mental health issues and my abusive family
before we got together. We got together romantically when I was 17, and the relationship lasted for around 5-6 years. I will now prove the timeline. While she deactivated the blog she used to contact me, and all interactions happened in private asks. I do have a full list of her Steam aliases to prove that the blog is hers. Interactions between us that happened in May of 2015. My birthday is in July. I am 26 now. She was 21/22 at the time. As I am using a burner Tumblr, I want some form of privacy. But let’s be real, who the fuck would care about collecting this evidence.
She was eager to engage with Life is Strange RP with me, which cringe. And of course, she
moved to Kik for said RP. Frustratingly, I can't fucking prove the dates there. I can prove that she used Kik, as she posted it on her own instagram. Frankly, if I knew I groomed a kid, I’d nuke any fucking evidence of Kik. For fairness sake, I will clarify that I am 18 during this screenshot. It is still wild that we had most of our conversations for a WHILE on the app that is famous for nuking messages. So, due to the nature of Kik, I cannot retrieve the messages. I cannot prove when RP happened, and due to my trauma I can't verify if ERP happened before I was 18. Dissociation, am I right? She was at least courteous enough to wait to receive nudes when I was 18. I don't think skirting the law is a particularly positive indication on her character, but I'II let the reader decide on that.
Speaking of skirting the law, she did watch barely legal porn. Here's a few screenshots of
her admitting that. In fairness to her, some of the things mentioned here are actually not a big deal, and because l'm not a complete and utter cunt, I'm going to censor them. She had a few kinks in line with CNC. As I have matured, I don't think that's an issue in itself - It was triggering to me at the time. The barely legal porn was the beginning of the end to our relationship because when I was 23, I was working alongside teenagers, which is such a perception change. When you combine all of this shit, with her dating a minor, you can see the pattern emerge. I have screen recorded part of this, because Facebook Messenger insists on using a black line and it looks edited. Ultimately, most of these conversations happened over call. And I don’t want to drag up a lot of this because so much of her defence was blaming gender dysphoria. Which… shit’s rough for us enough, y’know?
This does not make a groomer by itself. I came to visit her in California (l was 18 and from the UK), which I can prove. What I cannot prove is that she rehearsed the lie I needed to tell her family. We were just friends, I was in my second year of uni (l was about to start my first, I was fresh off sixth form). She knew this wasn't healthy. She also pulled aside multiple of my friends and told them that they were not to discuss grooming with me, because it was triggering to me. Because we were all fucking teenagers, the red flag wasn't raised until adulthood. She was a dick to my friends as well. A lot of them did not feel comfortable around her.
She had very little boundaries with minors, in general. When I was 16/17, I made friends with a 14 year old as a teenager. Again, on a kik group dedicated to Overwatch. Ironically, I was the one defending and protecting these kids from the adults who’d try it on. While I was incredibly careful with how I interacted with this friend, Keira did not have that same reservation. She has worked with me to make this post. Bearing in mind, most of the screenshots in this section are during when A, Keira wanted to bring this 17 year old to her place, IRL to give her a monitor and shit. I also have evidence of her sending shit to her house. Without parental guidance. I had to tell her not to do that. She was also very eager to give this 17 year old her number. She also sank 80 dollars for a commission from this friend, which is just fucking weird. It is also baffling to me that she continues to RP on tumblr, after openly
admitting that she ERPed with a minor by mistake (the minor lied about their age). But that is a she said he said situation. Please keep in mind that the name used here (Liz) is one of the names she was trying out.
While I could probably find so many more messages, I don’t think I need to. Looking at this shit physically affects me. I’ve tried so many ways to heal from this. And all I can think of is her continuing to use this fucking website to roleplay. I keep looking at her mutuals to see if any of them are kids. And I just can’t do it anymore.
So, this is to Keira: If you contact me or mine after this, I will take it to your IRLs. I have their names, I have burners. And because you used to pride yourself over how petty you are, I’ll leave you with this. Make your own character instead of ripping off mine, because fuck me, your remix of Avery looks awful.