I have this tension in my bones
I feel my head exploding out of thoughts
Everything I have looks empty
And everyone I love, they do not get me
I walk alone in the dessert of my mind
I hope for a drop of rain that never came
The drop that brings the tears in my eyes
The tears of relief of a forgotten soul
The one that had everything a human can wish for
But i have no fear and i do show it
Cause i hide my tears under the blanket of a smile
I built a curtain on my eyes
So they wonāt read me through my soulās mirror
They tried to comfort me with their own thoughts
Saying how they all feel like me and it is a normal stage
Everyone thinks they get me and they wait for their turn
To spit on me with their sadness
It is not a competition of whom is sad more
And it is not a relief for me to tell me how i feel
Cause i did not! I did not tell you
The roses of my soul are painted in red
I told you how the colour changed and how it made me feel
When in reality there was no rose anymore
I forgot to feed it and now it dissaperead
So i did not tell you the deepest of my soul
Because i do not want to look so dumb
When i donāt even know how to begin
And i will lose myself in explanation again
But it will be fine do not worry
I keep telling myself this
I am lying to my rose that is buried under
Trying to arise again from the ashes of a thunder