Hiatus.

死にたい。 Tuus sum ego usque ad mortem, fratrem meum. Discord: Akane#8386 I'm available on Discord 24/7, Not available on Tumblr 365/365

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One last update: I’m permanently relocating to discord. You want to talk to me? Come seek me out on there. Feel free to unfollow or whatever. I don’t care anymore. Tumblr is an absolute shitfest and I no longer feel a connection to this place since everyone I once knew is now gone. I have no reason to stay anymore. Oh and I won’t be deleting my blog because I’m keeping it for the memory’s sake so you can stop stalking me already. You know who you are. Thanks.

Discord: Akane#8386

Good bye.

tl;dr: from this point on, I will strictly be discord based.

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I never mattered.

[catusdiabolica-deactivated20180]

[red-in-the-monochrome]

The Wall (1982)

[pure-purgatory]

[kitty-and-tomcat-deactivated201]

[red-in-the-monochrome]

“snakes in my veins poison in my touch and when i break you let me say i did not mean to and yet the snakes in my chest will spit more venom and darken my blood even more until you cannot see me just the hurt i have caused”

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-coiled 

(r.d.)

[speakingparts]

[red-in-the-monochrome]

Angyali üdvözlet 

Jeles András, 1984

[full movie]

[red-in-the-monochrome]

“I don’t. I don’t want anybody else to touch you. I’m silly. I get furious if they touch you.”

— Ernest Hemingway, from ‘A Farewell to Arms’  (via subtrist)

[red-in-the-monochrome]

“I want to kiss you so hard that you will never be able to get the taste of me out of your mouth.”

— (via the-psycho-cutie)

[greekblossom-deactivated2017082]

[daemonium-ignis]

The seeds of love have taken hold, and if we won’t burn together, I’ll burn alone.

[soodacris-blog]

Go on anon and confess something to me.

[socialpsychopathblr]

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Dear ex boyfriend

Dear ex boyfriend,

I don’t know what I ever saw in you but I’m glad we did not last long. I don’t even know if I should even call you an ex boyfriend. I was never yours in the end even while we had meaningless conversations and drunken nights. Arguments and more arguments. It all led me to him and that's probably the only thing I can ever truly thank you for. Good riddance to a man who merely saw me for my appearance alone and not the soul beneath.

- Akane

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Dear best friend,

Dear best friend,

I love you, you irresistible man. You’re the only one I call best friend. You know exactly how I feel given our mental connection with one another. Do you truly need mere words to know how I feel about you? I think not. You’re more wiser than that, I’m sure, Sinner. For the past few years, I have returned to our Eden and kept trying to make our flowers bloom from the ashes. In the end, they finally did. As did I. I’ll be seeing you soon enough, my best friend, my love.

Eternally yours.

- Sin

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Dear future me,

Dear Future Me,

Forgive my mistakes that I have done to affect you to this day. When you see fragments of myself, you will then know of what I speak of. I was a stupid, selfish monstrosity. I have many questions for you, Future Me. Have you bloomed? Has the world finally seen your grotesque beauty? Where are you now? Do you still live within me? Or have you finally seen the sun for the very first time? I will soon grow into you and find out myself. I’m in a troubled place and things were looking dreadful for me. Has the storm cleared at long last? So many questions but the future will unveil it soon enough. I wait patiently as ever.

- Akane

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Dear Santa,

Dear Santa,

I don’t believe in you. Fuck you either way.

- Akane