Masochistic Hedonist

(Me I pics^) The blog about me and things I like. 18f usa looking for love, happiness, and a place in the world. Feel free to message me. *NOT PROMOTING ANYTHING*

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IM SO TIRED OF BEING LONELY AND UNLOVABLE

I have PUT IN THE WORK GOD DAMNIT

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Found out today my bf of nearly two years has been cheating on me. I’ve never had this happen before. And I can hear my mother laughing at me in her grave.

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Instagram: @loren

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Figured I would share my favorite quick and easy safe food:

Microwave egg white omelettes!

All you gotta do is crack two egg whites in a mug

Add whatever veggies you want

And microwave for around 90 seconds or until done!

I love this. It’s so good and is only around 35 calories! Such a great staple for breakfast

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I wonder if I’m sad

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I even miss having crushes- anything to even feel some romantic emotion.

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Just stared at my home screen for a minute before I realized what I was waiting for. I was waiting to text someone good night but I have no one to wish good night anymore.

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Boyfriend and I broke up today. I feel like I’ll explode but everything that comes out is soundless and I’m numb. Why am I so bad at relationships? Why must I be so insecure? Really trying...

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Not perfect but it’s the first time in a very long time I’ve been comfortable leaving the house in short shorts and a TANK TOP!! Very excited ^~^

*I don’t support anyone developing an eating disorder and after recovering a few times I’m working on staying away from those old unhealthy habits I did in my disorder. I’ve known I needed to lose weight and this time I’m trying to do it healthily*

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I made no progress in the last year. I’m still fat. Still wear shitty clothes. I’m still going to a dead end college and working the same dead end job. I live in the same place. I don’t really have friends. And I come home nightly wondering why I don’t just kill myself already.

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My Scooter this morning 💚

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